Finally signed up to GamStop

Hi Tony, 

Wishing you all the best in this journey. 

I signed up on Sunday, currently only on Day 4 without a bet but came clean to my wife about my compulsive gambling problem on Sunday evening. 
I completely broke down, I was hiding debts for over a year and hated the person that I had become. 
Attended my first GA meeting on Monday and opened up to a group of strangers all connected by the same problem which was quite surreal. But the support that I got was brilliant.

Just got off the phone to my doctor who is helping with some therapy. 
One thing which I have learned over the past few days is that talking helps.

If you haven’t already, I’d recommend signing up to GamBan and Gamstop which are two tools that are helping me blocking websites off my iPhone. 

All the best mate!

Danny

Thanks for the message Danny, wish you all the best too mate.

Ive signed up to GamStop, I’m not too itchy to get on the betting through the week but I know it’s going to hit me like a tonne of bricks come Saturday afternoon when the football and horse racing is on, that’s my big worry!

I’ve been round in circles for the past 12 years thinking will power is enough to kick the urges, I’ve somehow managed to con every person going into thinking I was alright when I was stuck in my own head.. if I wasn’t gambling I was either thinking about it or playing free slots to scratch the itch.

The reality is this will not go away I wanted to end my life last Thursday as I couldn’t take no more of the lies, the stress of money what it was doing to me and how that was affecting others and just how gambling was all I cared about it had taken over.

but since then I’ve taken it day by day I’ve been transparent with my wife a very close friend and family so that there is nothing to be scared of or worry about I can just be honest for once don’t get me wrong it’s hard but for once in my life I know I am ready for the change I’m ready for the help and until then you won’t do it alone this disease is to powerful for will power alone!

you need to seek any help you can, hopefully your not so far down the line as I am and you can work at stimulating your brain in other ways before it takes over!

I hope you can fight the urge 

good luck!

You can't do this alone as it is sooooo difficult. You can start by self-excluding from every bookies for miles using MOSES and also doing the same thing on-line. Ban yourself immediately or you will drift back in. Then, today, call the helpline and speak with someone. 

Do it mate.....just do it...and good luck.

Mick

Thanks for the messages.

Today has been a massive struggle 

Congratulations on taking the leap and signing up! It's understandable to feel a bit tight on funds initially, but kudos for making a positive step. Joining for moral support sounds like a great idea. Remember, onwards and upwards!

Slipped up this week lost another 200

Doesnt sound a lot but it is to me! Back on it from tomorrow I hope