Here I go again

Wish... I understand needing to take a sick day after all that, believe me. I understand wishing for a different addiction because cg is incidious. I hope that you can change your belief to knowing that you can beat this because belief is the most powerful thing. I do understand how after so many attempts to stop that we feel completely worn out and left seemingly without hope because of the stop and start cycle. But I think that most cgs have gone through that cycle in some way ... it is soooo hard but you will beat this. It's crazy making when we think that we can not trust ourselves but it's the addiction/patterning ... we can trust in a new choice, a solid choice to abstain. Take care of yourself and try to make use of help resources like this one / gamcare and others. tara2

Hey Wsh totally get where you're coming from .I'm completely addidctied to online slots and i just can't understand why i do it to myself ? its bloody crazy ! I did manage to stop for like 2 years but then started again in October last year and now finding if more difficult than ever to quit .I can't offer too much advice as starting out on day 1 again tomorrow but i'm determined that this is it i've had enough and going to do it this time so if you want i'll check in each day on you and we can do this together 🙂 take care and keep strong Sunshine xx

Thanks for the replies. Tara, yes it is insidious and I really do feel worn out. Hopefully my faith to stop will grow through time. Sunshine well done on 2 years that’s amazing. Yea that would be nice with us both starting again at the same time. thankyou

tomorrow is my day one. first time on this site, but hoping it can help me stay on track, being able to talk to others who understand as no-one knows. online slots is my problem area

How's it going wish? I go through these forums and there is just so much material and so many people that it's hard for me to follow up with my comments and my personal diary posts and reading others. I somehow got back to your story here and just want to say that I hope all is well and wish ya a good day. take care, tara2

Yea I understand that Tara. I appreciate you dropping by again. Things are ok considering I suppose. Still in a mess but not gonna recover for so,e time yet. You heard about that gamstop that’s supposed to be released soon? I think it will help me and many others massively. How are you doing?

Just logging in to update my progress. To myself more than anything. I still haven’t gambled which is a good thing. Iv took out loans and credit cards to cover the damage. God knows how I’m still getting credit but my credit score must be taking a massive hit. Iv had a good friend helping me through it all but sadly that has come to an end so gotta do the rest solo. I have around 25k debt and a 2 year plan to tackle it. I hope everyone here is doing well and doing everything they can to beat this habit

40 days in

i still haven’t gambled. In fact I feel the desire to gamble usually creeps up by this point. I was just watching tv and some gambling advert came on which I guess did trigger something inside of me to gamble. I know it’s the wrong thing to do though and have come on here. Il have a read through some other posts and see if I can offer some support to people how I felt 40days ago

Just a quick update. 52 days in. Only about 1/4 of what I did last time. I guess I’m starting to feel a little better. Been working as much as I can so got 2 good wages coming this month and next month. Just need to keep at it and tackle my debts. Got an email off gamstop saying their service should be going live soon so looking forward to that