Hi all new to the site.
Started gambling age 16 i am now 31 scratchcards in beginning. I am currently in recovery for drug and alcohol im a year clean. 3 months ago i stumbled upon a certain site iv become obsessed with a certain slot all my money going on it i even see the colours and symbol of it when i close my eyes. This mornin i deposited ВЈ10 and won 700 then another 500 i got greedy and began doing ВЈ20 spins before i knew it was gone 🙁 i then proceeded to continue depositing in panic and i won £390 back i then done it again!!!!!!! And blew the lot within minutes. Heartbwas racing kept thinkin next spin was the jackpot feel so stupid and plus blew all my wages feel sick no money to get to work on monday or food or anything i am pathetic
Cant stop thinking of the money i hate this and cant see a way out. Thanks for lettin me share
Welcome to the forums Lau31.
Most of us here can relate to how you feel and where you are. We can't win because we can't stop. There is no win thats big enough, for many its not even about the money. Money becomes just another reason to justify gambling to ourselves. We have to "just get even then stop". Never happens. We play to play not to win and when all the games are against us odds wise we don't stand a chance.
If you are really ready and want to STOP gambling then there are things you can do. It's a long read but it could just be the best investment you make if you have a read and take on board whats said in Mixers post (linked below).
http://www.gamcare.org.uk/forum/want-do-something-read
Stay active on here. People will support you to beat this. Its what we are all here for.
All the best.
Thank you for the response your words are very true. I have found that a win isnt enough i almost anticipate the loss and know as well that im gonna be in these feelings if that makes sense. Today was scary its a mugs game we will never win
Gonna read that now and thanks again.x
Hi lau31,
Massive congratulations on being clean for a year!!! That’s a massive achievement, I’ve been down that road and it’s not a nice place to be, neither is gambling mind. This addiction for me is much stronger than the previous ones, I thought I could give up anything but please don’t take my beloved gambling away from me!!! There is only ever one winner and it will never be us. If you “won” £100,000 and you got “lucky” then what would be your next step? I can guarantee as a gambler you’d put X amount of that money to gamble, maybe you’d treat yourself but you would have thought as the treat as if you’d lost, this is the same as drug and alcohol addiction, we are all addicts because we cannot stop. Put all the blocks in place and then you cannot ever do it again. I’ve given up drugs and cigarettes and I thought my gambling vice would have been the hardest but it’s not for some reason. Anyway good luck on your journey!!!
Much love, Daniel
Evening Lau31,
I can imagine it feels like a dark and lonely place for you right now. Like SJW stated above, must of us on here can relate to your situation.
Do you have a close family member or friend you can talk to and maybe share this burden with? You are going to need all the support from the people who loves you to get through this.
Keep your chin up.
All the best!
Thanks everyone
Your defo right this gambling is harder to kick than my other addictions yes those are accessible but not as much as gambling joined gamstop last night and am gonna get block software set up later today my family dont know as i dont wanna put them through more pain as my other addiction destroyed them my daughter was placed in my mums care i know have her back full time. Today is a new day and just for today im ok
Gonna apply my 12 step programme around gambling as i feel a fraud letting it work in one area of my life but not trusting my higher power with gambling. Time to get out of pity and self will out of the problem into the solution.... thanks lauren x
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