Need to regain control

Now that you've told your partner about the money, I would recommend give her the money to hold. IF you now lose the money you have won, it will fell twice more devastating after telling her and she was probably very happy for you. You will feel like s**t for days if you lose all that money, imagine all the things you can buy with that. I've experienced that too many times myself, I tell someone about my winnings and they're happy for me and then in all silence I lose it all back and usually the things only escalate there and I will bet more and more. So if you can, give her the money to hold... please. ..

I blew 1200 in the bookies last night. Just paid 13k into my partners account. Gonna try forget about the money otherwise it will eat me up. The buzz of winning 2.5k in one spin of a wheel has got me hooked again. Even if you win you lose.

Went up the casino yesterday and won the poker tournament for £900, then proceeded to lose that + another £1000 to the roulette . I need to stop

i Went up the casino again last night and lost 2k. Enough is enough, I’ve self excluded from the casino and this is day one of complete cold turkey. I usually self exclude when I hit rock bottom financially and mentally, I’m not quite at rock bottom yet but I’ve had the sense now to stop before I blow all our money and start getting into debt. I wish everyone all the best in their own journeys.

Well day 1 gf is nearly over, I’ve been pretty depressed today and snappy with the Mrs and kids. Day 1 I find is always the most depressing. If I feel like gambling in the future I will think back to how I’m feeling right now. The money is never enough, at one point a few weeks back I had 18 grand in cash stuffed in my sock drawer. The money means nothing it’s what it does to your mind / life that counts.

You cannot beat a roulette table unless you steal money from it.

Albert Einstein

john, I like that Einstein quote and I heard another from a man in the cashier line ( last day I gambled) , he said..."There's one machine that I always win on in this place!" I inquisitively asked... "what machine is THAT?" He said, "The ATM.". o*g... kinda of funny, almost laughed , but I was too far gone to see humor in much of anything at that point. Glad you are here John. Keep coming back and stay strong. tara2

One week clean, it’s a good feeling, even when I was on a six week winning streak at the start of this year I didn’t enjoy the high of winning. After 18 years of gambling I’m determined to crack it this time. ‘ when the fun stops, stop! ‘

o*g!!! I just gambled for 3 years and I feel devastated now and you talk about 18years? That’s very scary, I don’t know how I’m going to pull it but tomorrow will be the first day in this year without gambling because I got no money in my account to do so. Why is it difficult to quit?

It’s a sick disease mate. Try your best to knock it on the head , all it will provide is misery and pain. All the best

I’m back on day 1 again after getting 50 days clean. I’ve just signed up to gamban and I’m already banned from the casinos. Someone told me once you need a year to get over any addiction, so I’m aiming for the 1 year free as of today.

Got another 70 days clean but then decided to blow £1600 up the wall last night on roulette and poker. I’ve signed my Mrs up to Gamstop as well because I was using her details to gamble. So here we go again, gonna take my kids out on a bike ride and put this latest setback behind me. Good luck on your individual journeys.

I’ve been in a similar way to you but only now feel right with all the correct blocks in place and Gamban working everywhere I NEED it to, this is a horrible affliction but think yourself lucky and what you can do with that remaining money, don’t dwell on the losses they are gone. Concentrate on the future and how many little things you can do with that cash now the blocks are in place. Good luck

John, its clear you've tried this a few times to quit. But do you want to ? Im sorry if I stound quite stern here but if you really wanted to give up gambling in the first place then you would have put the necessary controls in place then.

Does your OH know the full extent of the gambling? Does she control the money? I highly doubt she would give £1600 pocket change to blow. Read up all across this site, one of the consistent themes is that if you want to stop, you need to give over control of money to someone trusted. Put the proper blocks in place. Come clean. Otherwise the burden will take its toll, you've got kids man, for god sakes don't let them suffer.

Its a disease, sure, but that is no excuse for not putting 100% into it. Theres people with cancer, who do all sorts. Paralympians, they all have diseases. Don't rely on the blocks, you need to want to stop as a compulsive gambler. If not, you'll just find another way. Signing up in your mums name, for example. I've had 5 accounts with every bookie,2 aliases, OH, mum and dads name. I didn't want to stop at that point in time, even tho I excluded after a loss, I still had that urge to win it back .

I would reccomend a book by Allen Carr (not the chubby comedian) - easy way to stop gambling.

Seriously, give it a read, it might just well change your whole approach on gambling and make it easier. The cold turkey/willpower method sucks, because it makes you believe you're missing out on something, when you're not.

I hope you get through your journey. That amount of money is monumental to be gambling.

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