I've reached the cross roads with my gambling. I've tried and failed to quit on numerous occasions. I'm tired of feeling depressed and despairing at what I've lost over the years. The guilt of where I'm at is killing me. I'm about £9000 in debt, much of which can be attributed to fixed odds betting terminals and online roulette. These machines have turned what was a fun pastime into a living hell. Luckily most of my debt is interest free and repayable but I still feel ashamed at how I've been able to get into this position. I lost £500 in about an hour playing one yesterday. I chased and as usual I lost. I know the machines are evil and I know I never win but I always seem to get lured back to them. I'm hoping that from today I can turn a corner and start living again. I've reached my D Day and I don't think I could face another failed attempt to quit.
Have you looked at having counselling to manage your trigger points?
I dont know your personal situation but as the estranged wife of an addict, it is so c**P living hand to mouth all the time. Your half way there by identifying the fact you have a problem, that is half the battle i think. You just have to think positive and know that people like me are rooting for you.
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Thanks for the advice joydivider. I've always been tempted by the flashing lights of the gambling machines but FOBT's have taken it to a potentially dangerous next level. I work long hours but all the extra money I earn is lost playing roulette. In saying that I've decided that honesty is the best policy and sought support from my partner. I'm determined to beat it this time, but realise it's small steps. I've targeted 12-15 months to clear the debt I possess. It's not a long time but clearing it is the only way I think I can move on properly. It's payday Friday and for once I'm going to keep it in my account and not waste it chasing some unrealistic pipe dream! Time will tell!
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I've challenged myself to go 40 days initially without succumbing. I've got a realistic payment plan for the next 12 months. I'm hoping that once I see money in my account at the end of the month that the penny will drop with regards to the benefits of not gambling anymore. Time will tell.
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