@chris-uk hi thanks for your reply. I have checked my local meeting not too far , the issue is I have no motivation for anything . Eating, drinking , going out, work. I got to the point now I am totally exhausted with life. I have never really treated myself beacuse when I have I have always triggered a gambling binge. For example if I go clothes shopping need to win the money back. This has been going on 7+ years now I'm 27 an exhausted completely.i don't want to go back into work anymore. I don't want money. I am tired. I don't enjoy anything.
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@thisisruiningmylife I understand that. Forget the meetings, where abouts are you in the country?
@thisisruiningmylife mate please try find that little bit of strength which I found 7 days ago to try go gamble free again. This is now day 7 and I have to say the last 2 days I have felt so much better. I am not stupid to think that this is the final time but I have a real determination now to clear my debts in the next 3 months and then start afresh again. It is possible and you have to keep going. Go for day 1 from now
@rock123 yep today I really hit rock bottom after winning some back I ended up my final bet putting £100 on one number. Feel broken.
@thisisruiningmylife well so then is that now it for gambling? Have you self excluded from online and in person shops? If you havnt then why not? Genuine questionÂ
@chris-uk I've tried to reply to you but my post got deleted.
@rock123 I am using a freinds account and they I'm down about 3k today and some of it my freinds money haven't stopped sweating all day. w**********l have capped the account I can't deposit no more.
@thisisruiningmylife tell your friend to stop letting you do bets then too. 3k down playing what? Wheres the 3k coming from? Do you feel like now is the time to try again?
@rock123 money from me and a lady freind been using her account to gamble through as I'm excluded . I've made such a mess the first 500 she gave me I won but carried on was never satisfied it would give a little then take. Yesterday and today play roulette max spins or online BJ. Both c**P. feel like I've been in a nightmare you really can't win big on this c*****
@rock123 all money is savings. She has seen me up and down for the past 24 hours but it's so bad that I've lost her money I'm out of control laid in bed watching videos of 0 to **** videos it's all fake rubbish. My head's all over the place the guilt of her spending on me today has really hit me. Usually I would win it back and give her some profit but this is out of control. Seriously... Help!
@thisisruiningmylife see tomorrow as a fresh start. The worst is now done. 1 day will become 2 and then so on. Fill your day tomorrow with other things, a walk, run anything else. Try your hardest
@rock123 I’ve just woken up now 4am , feeling very sick and bad stomach from binge eating last night after I finished gambling. The guilt has really kicked in that I can spend my own money and loose somebody else’s. I have become numb to loosing, numb to life. Loosing 1000s has become the normal for me not knowing what else to do with money.8 years gambling my life away I do not know any different, everything else doesn’t seem right. I am afraid for my future and feel like I don’t have one. Thanks for your advice Rock please share your story with me what forms of gambling did you loose too. It is inevitable you will looose a big win is impossible it really is. I’ve tried it all honestly big spins small spins, gradual build up. Yes I’ve won small amounts but never enough to change my life. To me it seems rigged truly. awful this should be illegal.Â
Just left the house started to walk towards the bookmakers thinking I might have a big win, I just stopped myself and walked back. I'm also wanting alcohol to numb the pain. This addiction seriously grips you. I couldn't do it again. I've lost everything now and I can't see myself winning it back.i just hope that this loss stays with me forever I cannot go back to this evil.
@thisisruiningmylife hi. Sorry havnt been on in a few days. I'm 12 days gambling free now. Going good. What about you now?
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