Still at it.

Today's been the worse of them all. Been gambling since 6pm today and just finished now leaving me with pennies to last until next month. I was in a very angry mood today and ended up heading to the high street. All went downhill up as usual , every spin was a looser. As I got rid of my gamstop I tried signing up to loads of sites. I signed up to one site it took my money then banned me. Didn't even get a spin. Well see if they return the money... anyway found a site got some very 'lucky' winners to start with and then all downhill. I believe even online is rigged to be honest. Anyway my heads a mess. Christmas and new year will be spent in my bedsit staring at the walls. As I have literally have bread and butter money for the rest of this month. Wish me luck hopefully I'll get the 80 pounds back from the 2 sites I registered from but didn't play. Writing this my heads All over the place. Nearly 10 years in and this gambling bug has taken everything out of me I don't know how much more I can take. 

I was like this over a decade ago i can totally relate my addiction got so bad i would go Ga and then end up in a casino, this was at my height of my addiction as i was relapsing i began to lie in Ga the truth is i wasent fully comitted been going Ga since 2010 when i knew i had a problem its only my last relapse i understood what needs to be done i realised to have a better chance at this i need to make changes towards my lifestyle and and understanding the importance off not giving into the urgues what worked for me is investing my time each day and reminding my myself i will always be a gambling addict im currently on day 515 without a bet it is possible in some ways i was actually worse i would be very positive and suddently the good day would turn into a disastrous even if i did manage to win i would end up in a worse situation the following day i even passed on financial control to my ex girlfriend only to lie what i needed the money for my issue was i didnt have anyone who understood the addiction nor were my family any wiser having said this i have still improved massively thanx to gamecare and the support offered you can do this too 

@tazman 

Thanks for your reply, the day after a heavy gambling session and loss is on par with a hangover , it completely depletes your energy ,motivation and your soul. 

I can't believe next year I would of been on this site for 10 years. It's unbelievable how gambling has consumed so much of my time and haven't achieved anything in life due to addiction apart from sorrow and heartache.

All the best for 2025. Let's hope this is the end.

Does anyone actually win gambling as I'd say for every 50 times I gamble I win once. Is there any way back for me? 

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Does anyone actually win gambling as I'd say for every 50 times I gamble I win once. Is there any way back for me? 

This sounded wrong I don't mean is there any way back for me winning I mean is there any way out of this gambling mess of being a looser.

Day 1 today my last bet was 11pm Saturday 7th December. 

I've got nothing left now as my account is cleared I only tend to gamble larger sums so it's when I got money I need to be vigilant. 

I'm sick and I need help.