I went 146 days - no deposits! No stress, enjoyed sports again
Then Boxing Day I told myself just “one” day and then I’d put the stops and controls back…
3 weeks on…
EVERY Saturday since, multiple deposits and withdrawals, I sit on the sofa 10-5pm and literally don’t do anything but gamble - often on races I don’t care for and football matches - pure guess work on goals and conrners.
I then get to 5pm and simply think - what a waste. Last week I lost £130 across many transactions, today “won” but don’t feel any happier than last week, in fact I don’t feel much different…
So, what is the actual point? Literally why do I do this?
well, I am not, controls and blocks back on bank account. It worked for 146 days before, now I can go even further! Tomw, “Day 1”
Thanks for reading.
What's the point of feeding any addiction, mainly it is because we are not in control of our illness mid addiction. When in the bookies I didn't care if I won or lost towards the end of my 25 year addiction, sometimes consciously losing everything in my wallet before heading home, regardless of whether I was up or down at the time. I could be up and I would put it all on a single bet. And then in the car, screaming insults at myself until I got home, usually with a c**P present for my wife to take the heat from another all day bookie binge. And then spend the evening thinking about how to win it back. Disastrous lifestyle for a professional well paid person. Well done on getting back on track, keep it going, it can be done. I am gamble free for a decent amount of time and love life again.
Well said Faith,
Been there, done that.
Glad You're Still Around
AL
@faith-777 i was exactly the same winning didnt matter, the money never felt mine it felt dirty, i felt i was robbing someone elses money and most of it would go back and i would lose more in the process it not only cost me financially it cost me time which i would never get back, happiness comes from within and take each day as it comes, gambling is one of the problems their are people i personally know who have never gambled or had any form of addiction yet they are still unhappy, you have to love yourself and look after yourself addiction ot no addiction and everything will fit into place?
You do one of these posts virtually every week expecting there to be some sort of alternative outcome
You know you will waste money , you know you will lose
You are even telling yourself you aren't enjoying it
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