Hey all
Personally for me part of the process of healing is just getting rid of the stupid excuses about why you did this and why you did that and not to blame other people and situations.
I gambled not because the bookies forced me, or friends influenced me, I gambled because it was my choice.
I continued to gamble not to escape my problems,not because of problems caused by others, I gambled because it was my choice.
Even when it was really bad I continued to gamble, because I choose it to be easier to give in to temptation , than to stop.
I used to shred my forearms with a razor, not because i was forced to, I choose to do it as a form of release.
And none of what has happened I can change or take back.
I have at times come so close to breaking point
I have scarred arms,some debt,under pressure because of upcoming exams, i miss the only woman i have ever loved every day, BUT I will not and I repeat I WILL NOT stop fighting.
No way will I give up on myself.
Hi Rob
wise words my friend , no one said life was easy and everyone said life is harder with gambling involved but we live in a country of free will
scars both physically and mentally will heal over time , im still in such a big mess from a binge 2 weeks ago , my choice my stupid head sometimes feel its all too much but thats the weak way up stand up every day be glad your alive and have free will , i sometimes think i would take a stab or a kick in just to go back 2 weeks and not do what i did but you cant turn back time we all know that much
stay safe and GAMBLE FREE
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