10 years of gambling

Hi there my name its Vladimir im 27 years old.I would like to tell you my story of being a compulsive gambler who lyes,steals,ignoring people around him,lives his life from week to week doesnt think about no future no life.All it began when i start living in England.Im not english obviously so please before you read my forum and you hate foreigners,dont even bother to read it.

I was walking in the town in UK when i was 18th years old and ive seen betting shop called *********,i didnt know what it was but all notes on the door about roulletes and slots win big money etc..took my eyes on it,so i went in to have a look.I had 2 pounds coin in my pocket at that time,looked up at the display at some man playing a roulette and ive seen balance 470 cant remember exact amount:)so i though why not try this.put 2 in machine start playing on colors black or red few spins,didnt know what my balance was for first 15-20 minutes,just lucky nearly everyspin my color came on.When i seen my balance after a while i couldnt believe it.17 i though is that real??First day in England no job,no money and i won 17???i asked man satting next to me ,,my money please""???i couldnt speak english at that time.So he printed my ticket off,and pointed at the till so i went there they cashed me out and i walked away with happiness on my face...Happiness which becomes to Tears..but if i knew that...bough some f**s,and rest i lost it next day.I found a job after one week because my sister has helped me.Got paid after first two weeks my first wages were 195..Had to pay for rent back to 2004 it cost me 40 for a week for single room i had all 155 to ,,feed my behaviour"".Single with no persepction in life of course when you 18th you think im only 18th i can spend all my money on whatever i like..but then youre only 19th,ohh im only 23,im only 26 i have lots of time to start living different life,but you never will if you dont want to..Nothing helps its all /////// about counselling will do it for you,self excluding online and bookies that resolution..it aint and i can tell you that for sure,if you dont wanna do it nothing and nobody will help you,its just on you..How you decide,i spend on gambling over 200000 by now and i will not spend another penny on it.I become to feel gamble free and im happiest person in my life.Its so easy,remember no plans how you going to stop or doctors,just stop yourself,but important think is you need to talk about it at least once twice a week to anyone online,friends gambling support anyone...