Im currently on day 1991..... so a little short of this milestone but i feel confident ill get to 2000 days and beyond and thought id like to start a new diary as a reminder of this milestone and a way to celebrate it!!!!!
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I came to gamcare pretty much ten years ago i think as i think it was may 2015...... i may be wrong.....
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I came here really struggling by spending all of my wages on poker each month..... the stakes were continually increasing and i never won anything it was just an mess..... i was a mess.....
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i was overweight, very overweight, i was smoking a lot, i was drinking a lot....... working and commuting was taking up most of my life...... and all of the proceeds from these long hours were being frittered away.....
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So i came here on the way home from work one night on the commute on the train home..... i went onto the chat room that night on the train and introduced myself..... i was sure i wanted to just control my gambling not stop at that point but i knew i had a problem financially.....
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So then i went thru 4 years of trying to control my gambling thru playing physical in person poker instead of online poker...... this definiately helped and i met a number of friends thru this.....however i found fruit machines some nights and that added to a new avenue of losing any money i had made and sometimes hadnt thru poker......
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i then gave up smoking in 2016 the first actual start of living a healthier lifestyle.....this helped.
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The fruit machine use became more frequent and at one point in 2018 i lost three hundred in an hour until i could no longer withdraw cash..... then at that point i was going on holiday the next day with my folks to isle of white..... i had a skitsophrenic breakdown which ruined my and my folks holiday and meant that i was signed off work for 6 weeks...... Now just before the breakdown work was understandably going badly not only due to the gambling and my poor health but because i had been put under performance management.... they were trying to get rid of me..... so they wrote me an email each day of the things id done wrong the day before...... So i got signed off for 6 weeks....... and got back form isle of white.... living with my folks...... and thought right Alcohol, gambling really not doing me any favours......ive been trying so long to stop whilst drinking and i havent been able to..... so ? so i thought stop everything bad for me...... fresh approach to life...... so i started a no vice life......
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I spent those 6 weeks....... walking with mum and dad..... going to gym and health suite...... relaxing unwinding..... (as much as u can whilst in an skitsophrenic episode that is).....
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Then went to the meeting at work and instead of firing me they said that as ive had skitsophrenia longer than 6 years i was disabled and they would make adjustments for me to stay on solely as a porter.....
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I then work a third less hours a week too to help me....
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The health kick also didnt stop ....... i worked on my weight at the gym and have done ever since...... instead of a xxl im now a large.......Â
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Ive now in 2025 not smoked for 9 years..... ive now not drunk for 7 years form that exact moment on holiday..... and ive not gambled since dec 2019...... 6 years .....
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I like to think ive helped a number of people on gamcare who have come to the forum and chat room over those 10 years......
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Many thanks Mods, many thanks friends on here..... all the best this is the start of a fresh diary xxx Adam
Well done Adam, life is tough but you are tougher than what’s been dealt. Keep up the fight 🙌
Hi Adam, not been on for a long time but good to see you are still going strong. We've messaged many times over the years and like you I will soon reach a milestone of 5 years gamble free on 11th June and just agreed settlements with some of my debtors so should be debt free by December.Â
Keep on keeping on!
many thanks dave.....wow bladesman that great news congrats on the progress and thanks forpopping by adam
Europa champions 2025....... OMGosh....... im soo happy..... this has made my year...... soo good
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Hello dear diary...... Tomo night at midnight ill pop on here to post as at that moment in my life on gamcare i will be 2000 days gamble free....... wow now for me this is huge...... what a massive milestone one that only comes around every five to six years...... Now its not been an eat 5 years...... ive battled,,,,,,,, ive given adivce........ ive saved......... Ive gained my independence.......... ive built (bought and done up) an amazing home......... Ive become healthy physically and mentally....... ive worked on this massively....... ive developed at work. ..... ive strived to work hard inside and outside of work......... ive spent more time with friends and family and been present in thos eprecious moments throughout........
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Now next friday i turn 44 and i came to this site at 34 years old....... young whippersnapper....... but an unhealthy one who spent too much time working....... in order to spend all of it in the wrong places...... i was consuming all my vices had hold of me....... i lived with my folks and for the most part things were going down hill......
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All this has now changed for the better......
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my life and health have improved massively......
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Im thankful that im blessed with such a wonderful life....... and am soo privilaged.....
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All the best adam xx
here i am ten days later.......Been on a diet kick which isnt going too well....... but managed to just eat one slice of bread today...... didnt just eat that ate loads...... but im aiming to cut down on bread so thats a small achievement....... Really hoping i cant get a nintendo tomo night at midnight..... so in 24 hours and 13 mins ill start trying to get one again...... Looking forward to a week off work havent looked at the weather forecast yet so ill have a look now? not good not bad....gonna be cloudy most days but only 10 percent chance of rain.... weds is sunny....worked pretty hard today.....my birthday week last week i only managed 55k steps.....worst in a while.....already done 35k this week so should smash it this week.....
Here i am june 4th..... day before the launch of the nintendo switch two...... it goes on sale at six am tomo morning and im going to get up just before to try and grab one....... Ive then got tomo and friday to get thru at work....... which should be a breeze and then im off for a week of playing it...... horray.....also gonna watch the balerina film...... and hopefully ill get switch so my sisted can play it before her 4th cancer treatment (which obvs makes her ill)...... So all in all really excited....... just watched the mariokart direct again...... also clover on chat said she really liked the zelda game which ive bought in prep and as its on switch two its even better visuals now.... so most will be replaying it but ill get to play it for the first time..... Loving life if i get one tomo...fingers crossed adam123 xxx
managed to get up 545am..... and by 6am id bought the switch two hoooooooorrrrray......Only slept half an hour tho....and done 15k steps at work today.....so totally shattered..... going to play it as soon as mariokarts downloaded.....cant wait..... then tomo last day at work then off for a week....... just gets better and better.
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