2000 days gamble free and onwards i go......Adam Poker: Adam 123

Im currently on day 1991..... so a little short of this milestone but i feel confident ill get to 2000 days and beyond and thought id like to start a new diary as a reminder of this milestone and a way to celebrate it!!!!!

I came to gamcare pretty much ten years ago i think as i think it was may 2015...... i may be wrong.....

I came here really struggling by spending all of my wages on poker each month..... the stakes were continually increasing and i never won anything it was just an mess..... i was a mess.....

i was overweight, very overweight, i was smoking a lot, i was drinking a lot....... working and commuting was taking up most of my life...... and all of the proceeds from these long hours were being frittered away.....

So i came here on the way home from work one night on the commute on the train home..... i went onto the chat room that night on the train and introduced myself..... i was sure i wanted to just control my gambling not stop at that point but i knew i had a problem financially.....

So then i went thru 4 years of trying to control my gambling thru playing physical in person poker instead of online poker...... this definiately helped and i met a number of friends thru this.....however i found fruit machines some nights and that added to a new avenue of losing any money i had made and sometimes hadnt thru poker......

i then gave up smoking in 2016 the first actual start of living a healthier lifestyle.....this helped.

The fruit machine use became more frequent and at one point in 2018 i lost three hundred in an hour until i could no longer withdraw cash..... then at that point i was going on holiday the next day with my folks to isle of white..... i had a skitsophrenic breakdown which ruined my and my folks holiday and meant that i was signed off work for 6 weeks...... Now just before the breakdown work was understandably going badly not only due to the gambling and my poor health but because i had been put under performance management.... they were trying to get rid of me..... so they wrote me an email each day of the things id done wrong the day before...... So i got signed off for 6 weeks....... and got back form isle of white.... living with my folks...... and thought right Alcohol, gambling really not doing me any favours......ive been trying so long to stop whilst drinking and i havent been able to..... so ? so i thought stop everything bad for me...... fresh approach to life...... so i started a no vice life......

I spent those 6 weeks....... walking with mum and dad..... going to gym and health suite...... relaxing unwinding..... (as much as u can whilst in an skitsophrenic episode that is).....

Then went to the meeting at work and instead of firing me they said that as ive had skitsophrenia longer than 6 years i was disabled and they would make adjustments for me to stay on solely as a porter.....

I then work a third less hours a week too to help me....

The health kick also didnt stop ....... i worked on my weight at the gym and have done ever since...... instead of a xxl im now a large....... 

Ive now in 2025 not smoked for 9 years..... ive now not drunk for 7 years form that exact moment on holiday..... and ive not gambled since dec 2019...... 6 years .....

I like to think ive helped a number of people on gamcare who have come to the forum and chat room over those 10 years......

Many thanks Mods, many thanks friends on here..... all the best this is the start of a fresh diary xxx Adam