2010

Hi Jas

Your turn for 2 today lol

Had to google that one! - Can I go with the english version in return - I Will Always Love You

off to the bookies to collect now (was gonna go via the petrol station but luckily I have found a florist locally who is open today so will re-route )

Thanks for the best wish'es Jas,your a star :).

Seano

I have a one of the best weekends in a long, long time. It started with the spa on Friday and I have just felt really stable. More stable than i have felt in ages.

When I was gambling I would book things....meeting my friends, going for meals, spa days, facials, music lessons etc.. etc.. and then, due to gambling I would cancel the lot. How can I explain it? Well, on reflection I was living a double life really. I was gambling and squeezing life inbetween. I was struggling to balance the two, which was why I would book things and then cancel....that's because the gambling took precedent. I used to work as a private chiropodist and I would cancel patients left, right and centre just so I could get my fix. It was messy....and that mess became chaotic.

I am, at this moment in time, reminding myself of where I was. I was utterly confused..I had no balance. Part of me was wanting all the normal, everyday stuff and part of me wanted the gambling. I am reminding myself of the pain and inner turmoil I was in...and it was only a few months ago. I am reminding myself that I have to keep working at my recovery to maintain this feeling.

I have a wicked sense of humour and i love fun....this part of me disappeared and is slowly returning. It's up to me to keep this going now...I like this feeling, I like this feeling a lot.

Jas x

Morning Jas,

Good vibes coming from your latest post. Your spa day set you up allowing you to relax into your thoughts... wonderful 😉

It has been nearly 5 months since your last bet and you have grown sooo much during that time... more so in the last couple of months.

To watch you awakening is very special.

I know all this hasn't 'just happened'. You have & are working very hard to become the person you should be. Not the one that gambling smothered. You are proof that your methods are not only working but bringing you happiness along the way.

Really happy for you and of course P. He now has all of you... instead of what was left over, after a gambling day 😉

Keep doing what you do girl!

Jackie x

Oh.. nice to see someone in such good form

Just a great example of the lives we should be leading.

regards

Micheal42

Hi Jasmine really good to read about your contentment. I know all about that "double life" so nice to read your moving onwards and past that now. All the best and thanks for your continued support to myself (and others) Blocked.

Hi Jas

Jusy a quick post to thank you for your support, especially over the last few weeks when I have been struggling to cope.

Glad to hear you had a great weekend, you deserve it x

Hi Jas

Good to read that you are in a better place.

I know what you mean about leading a double life, thats how I've felt for years. In one life I am in huge debt and take violent mood swings, in another I am a nice, calm, sensible guy giving others advice.

Hope I have taken a turn for the better these days and I can aspire to reach your heights.

Love On The Rocks

Hi Jasmine, I just want to say thanks for your welcome and support last week. After what you wrote on my diary about there being no such thing as free money, I read your post about deleting the email, and I decided that this so called free money wasn't going to interfere with my recovery. I've been deleting them as soon as they hit the inbox 🙂

I better start saving my money up now for when I have a 17 year old daughter lol...

Hi Jas,

Thanks for your post on my diary. It's been a while since I wrote on yours, but from what I see looking back over the last couple of weeks you seem to be riding pretty high at the moment - good for you.

I think the general tone of your writing is much more positive which must be reflecting how your life is at the moment. Nice to treat yourself every now and then. Long may it continue.

Matt

Hey my girl

Glad to see you are on the "happy" path.

Read your last post about double life and how life often got in the way of gambling and that things got cancelled. That reminded me a lot of my past life.

I am so happy that I have left that life behind.

Each day I learn something new and I can share it with my loved ones(even if that takes a few days to do so sometimes,lol)

I have posted the following on my diary for future reference and it may be useful for you too. You are so in touch with your inner self now. I smile when I read your posts.

Lots of love to you and P.

God Bless

Charly/Sabine

All human failures are the result of a lack of love.

--Alfred Adler

How much easier it is to continue working toward a challenging goal when we're bolstered by the loving support of a favorite person, a spouse, or parent. We'll not succeed at every job or game we attempt - nor should we expect to. For all of us our talents are many, but not total. However, our failures will be fewer and far less devastating when they occur within the context of a life rich with loving human contact.

Those who don't know the comfort of love find their steps and thoughts are haunted by the fear that they don't count - that there is no purpose to their lives. Only by knowing the reality of love can we glimpse the richly textured tapestry of human life, and only then can we feel secure that all is well.

One purpose for our lives is to assure others of their importance to the life pattern that captures us all. And when each of us is committed to that purpose, both the fear and the reality of human failure will be erased.

Thank you for all the support 🙂

Still feeling good despite the usual life "up and downs".......yesterday it was my daughter being a pain today it's my piano teacher....I pay for a lesson and she uses me as a counsellor...last week I didnt play one note.

The thing that has changed is ME....or no....I haven't changed...I am, after stopping gambling back to ME. I have become aware of everything going on around me and I can now make informed decisions without them being interrupted by the gambling fog.

Today I will deal with what is getting in my way and I will smile and laugh at things which are going good.

It's really cold here and dark too so going to sit in front of my lightbox for a few minutes....highly recommended and it definitely does the trick.

Love to all.....Jas xx

jasmine. . Another positive post from yourself. A total inspiration for my addiction lass. Keep up the great work you do. .

Hi Jas

Thanks for post, good inspirational post on your own diary today, good to hear how you see yourself as the original Jas rather than the gambling version - guess she was a real monster.

Lunchtimes continue to drag, just make the best of it until I find something productive to do. Boring is better than Random Gambling, both for my finances and to keep up a consistent work performance.

Love Changes Everything

P.s. worked out the offside rule yet?

Hey Jas

Absolutely fantastic response - LMAO - totally clear now!

Almost makes me want to pay for this site some of the stuff I have read tonight.

(Ooops, better not give Gamcare any ideas - sorry Flo/Rob/Gab - I didnt really mean that)

I thought definition of offside was more like:

' an act carried out by an individual which places a marital agreement under undue stress and results in national press exposure'

e.g. as carried out by Ashley Cole

Tainted Love