2010

Hi Matt....posh...moi? Nah lol. Brunch was a very late breakfast...super noodles 🙂

Went virtual shopping...spent a few grand in my head. Did get a bargain.....my daughter is 18 in June and we are having a party....saw some beautiful invites....should have been a tenner....49p...bargain.

I wish the sun would shine soon.

Staying in and watching the box...Harry Hill is on.

Stay strong everyone. Jas xx

PS.....thanks for your support everyone 🙂

I really do appreciate it.

Hi Jas

Glad you are managing to enjoy your weekend without really doing much.

I can do fridge cleaning but I've never tried virtual shopping, guess its better than virtual racing though.

Good to be able to talk to people like you on here who sometimes dont do much with their weekends, most of my work colleagues are always going on about buying new stuff and having fantastic nights out every weekend, listening to some of the Monday morning conversations makes me feel I am on a diff planet.

Nights Of Love

Morning Jas

I will tell everyone I cleaned my fridge at the weekend - could get a few strange looks !

I too have developed selective hearing when it comes to others conversations - think the frustrating thing is that its not like I think ' Wish I was doing that', but at the same time there's nothing I can identify that I'd rather be doing instead.

I really dunno if I need new hobbies, believe me I have spent years trying to come up with other things I could do and failed miserably, whether abstinence from random gambling makes a difference in this respect, we'll have to wait and see.

But you know where you can shove your stamp collecting lol !

And I am defo now a point up as your last song was a repeat. ( Yes I am sad and have a note of all the ones we have used !! )

Love Of The Common People

I sold some furiture on a well known auction site.

They collected it today.

I hate strangers in my home.....but one of these guys said.....hey u like Beryl Cooke? (she is/was an artist who specialised in larger ladies........every one absolute FUN) He said.........do you know how much the originals of those are worth?

I smiled...and said no..... i could only afford copies 😉

These are originals.....but they mean the world to me. They will go with me to my grave.......because I love them, that's why. Before I started gambling, I loved a lot of "stuff" which has now become worth quite a lot....in money terms......it's going nowhere, ever......what went so wrong with me?.....gambling stripped my passion.

If I had carried on gambling....all of my treasures would be gone...I haven't got many but what I have are precious

When I was 16....had to buy my first home....long, long story (my Ma died aged 50 and I had no-one).......everything for my home was bought from an auction. My cooker was £1! I still have a table from way back.....it's my friend.

I am beginning to gain respect for cash again.

My self respect is coming back, I like that fact.

Jas x

Hi Jas,

"I am beginning to gain respect for cash again.

My self respect is coming back, I like that fact."

Its what gambling strips from everyone.... and what working Recovery gains back.

Fantastic Jas, its wonderful to watch you growing.

Jackie x

Hi Jas, good positive post today, well done.

you dont think I am insular?....explain.... 🙂 I'm really interested in your take on this one....

Better not go down the lyrics road or we'll get thrown off for turning Gamcare into Musiccare!

My relative and I have fallen out big style ( I borrowed under false pretences of course ) but I'm sticking to my plan on this one, they cant just change the rules and expect me to not pay my creditors and pay them instead.

For The Love Of Money

Hi Jas

Sorry you had a hard time of it in chat tonight. I dunno all the background to the historical scenario obviously but can only speak as I find and you have supported a lot of people and have become a close friend to me in a few weeks and that is appreciated.

Thanks for insular definition, agree on second thoughts it is maybe not apt for me but you do have to take into account I am not the same person in real life as I am on here so I am nowhere near as confident and outgoing as I may appear.

Appreciate your recommendation on going completely gambling free but I did try that for almost a fortnight after coming on here and it was a nightmare, I am defo much happier doing what I am doing now and long may that continue. I'll keep doing the planned bets and at the same time try and sort out other bits of my life.

Doctor Love

Feeling very low. No drama. Just sad.

I have tried my best to explain and have a right of reply. I don't feel I deserved that level of personal abuse but I will forgive.

Listen, inclusiveness does not work. You are either in this together or not...I believe there is no inbetween.

Jas, you will read this. I am off to Saudi and you are not here right now. Someone with issues has upset you on here. I hope you read this.

I have been on the netline as I am worried. You do not deserve this cr**.

It is 12.15 and I haven't a clue where you are. I am leaving at 4 a.m.

I will support you.

We have lost the f*****g lot...financially. Don't let words screw your brain. You don't know this person. Don't rise.

You know what we say "in the Grand Scheme of things".......

i hope you are with W?

People on here would never know how bad it got. I remember.

I hope you read this.

Me

I can't contact you. I have been reading on here.

DO YOU REMEMBER WHEN M & M said they were bored of you. Look where they are now.

I hated your gambling with a passion, don't let anything get in your way. Loads of people love you girlie. I know this forum is unbelievebly helpful, but it's not the end of the world if you meet someone who is angry.

when the chips are down

LUID

It means nothing......we know what anniversary is coming up......no-one knows like we do.

I am always telling you how proud I am that you could stop this s**t.

I hope you read this in the morning?

humans are vulnerable....you taught me that.

Hi Jasmine I was not on that chat that seemed to upset you so cant comment. Sorry it happend though what ever it was. Please though dont let it get you down. Easier said than done I know!! Look at what you wrote

"My self respect is coming back, I like that fact"

Read that again - it must feel good! On a place like this there will always be people with different view points - and well we are all prone at times to be emotional in 1 way or another. Hope your ok. Keep going girl! Good thoughts to you Blocked.

jasmine. . Sorry to hear you are sad after a controversial night on chat. . I ve only been on here since before christmas and yourself and the other party involved have been a huge factor in my recovery. . I dont know neither do i want to know your histories on these diaries but like i say since i joined you have both been superb for my recovery. . Your little daily posts always bring a smile and long may that continue even though i still post from my "moby". . . Keep up the excellent work you do for the diaries. . It is more than appreciated by myself. .

Hey my girl...

Hope P has been able to find you before he had to leave....

I was sent the following and thought it might be useful to you.

You have been to hell and back and have achieved so so much.

Somebody elses issues are somebody elses issues. I made that mistake once on here and uspet someone although I didn't mean to.... We all get angry at some point or other and then we lash out...at someone who is there at that moment in time... as long as we learn from that then it would not have been in vain.

Sending love and hugs.

Love ya lots.

God Bless

Charly/Sabine xx

Good thoughts bear good fruit, bad thoughts bear bad fruit - and man is his own garden.

--John Leonard

Evil thoughts and destructive attitudes are not forced on us by fate. They are choices we make as we act and react to events in our lives.

Before the Program, when negative things happened, our first reaction was to choose to react negatively: "Life's not fair." "Why did that have to happen to me?" "I hate them for doing that." "I'm going to get even if it's the last thing I do." It is easy to react positively when good things happen. But we have often chosen to react negatively to even good events.

Good can be found in even the worst situations if we look for it. Bankruptcy can provide a fresh start. Defeat can allow rebuilding in a new and better way. Evil teaches us what is good. Death brings new life. Admitting our powerlessness finally gave us the freedom to make choices.

By choosing good thoughts and attitudes, the garden of my soul will thrive. By choosing bad ones, it will shrivel and die.

Sorry it sounds as if you have had a horrible time in chat. I hope you are ok Jas.

I know its sometimes hard even when you know someone is out of order, to not still feel upset by an attack.

I absolutely loved your post to captain the other day, it was really well worded and warm. About suggesting a week or so away from all betting. People can so easily feel preached at on here, but it didn't come across like that at all. Just genuine, and caring.

You are a lovely lady Jas, don't let anyone make you feel otherwise. You are a star and a half!

Take care,

f x