I am 30 years old and have been gambling since I was 15. All sorts of stuff - in shops, online, casinos, tracks the lot basically. I have nothing to show for all my years in work, no house or car just a load of memories mainly of stress and depression and stupidity via the money I have wasted on Gambling.
I last had a bet on Thursday - lost about 200 quid and I do not want to continue this anymore.
From now on I am going to keep updating this diary every few days with my progress. I have read other diaries on here and I can relate to 100% of them.
All the best to everyone on here as we all have same illness in my view.
Good luck all.
Hi Walkaway,
I also am 30 years old and have been gambling since I was 21 years old. Like you have been working hard all these years but nothing to show for it.
I have a family and it's time to change....
Keep posting here it will definitely help..
It's hard at the moment because you are still new to this site but the feeling of depressing will eventually subside.
We are all here for you
Vegas
Hi walkaway,
I'm a year older, started when I was 17, after two big relapses I'm now looking forward to my longest ever dry spell. I realise if I want to stay married then it's my only option but also feel determine to take back control for myself.
As we are similar ages and have chosen to stop at the same time, I'm willing to make one more bet, with you, the prize is a whole bunch of pride, the challenge, I'd who can stay 'clean' for the longest!
Only a bit of fun, but personally I'm trying to fill my mknd with as many reasons to avoid gambling as possible, so I'll be thinking of this post as another reason to not break!!!
Good luck with your challenge
take care
Alright Dan,
well if you want I am happy enough for you to go along with me on this and put up your progress alongside mine.
Early days obviously but I am just going one day at a time and reminded myself how cr** I feel when I do gamble, hopefully this time next week I will still be gamble free and will feel better in myself.
Good luck.
Hi walkaway
You are lucky to discover this problem at the age of 30!
Believe me you have a life ahead of you, the cance to repair the damage if you quit NOW.
If you don't you will head down that road to hell and find something much more horrific than where you are now.
Please believe what I am saying to you.
DD
I am with determined dave. You must end this evil! I wish i had kicked it at 30. I waited till 45 to make my first serious attempt at 'walking away'. I have lost so much that i had to sell a fantastic flat,car,motorbike....basically everything of any value i owned. I am left with 41.5k gambling debts. Kick it into touch friend, it will get worse!!
Imagine the possibilities when you have money in your pocket. We can't win, we've all tried and that's why we are here.
You have a great opportunity to turn your life around and be much happier. *** it and move on!
TC.
Thanks to all posters for the advice and honesty.
Can only go forward now and will continue to post regular.
Thanks all.
Hi Walk away
Just wanted to check up on you...
I hope things are going well. Keep us updated!
Vegas
Well 4 years on nearly I am still addicted gambling - need to try hard and stop this.
I have not had a bet since Saturday - so October 4th 2014. One day at a time and post an update each day before bed to say I have not had a bet that day.
Hopefully I can do it.
Good luck to all trying to stop gambling.
Hi walk_away,
Well done for returning to continue your fight against this horrendous problem. This is my third attempt at stopping but this time everything is in place so I cannot bet. Have a look at self excluding from all the sites/bookies etc you go too and if you do gamble on the internet download a blocker so you physically can't gamble.
I would also recommend reading a lot of the diaries on here as it is a great resource for inspiration, motivation and unconditional support.
Keep strong, if you ever get an urge just login here and have a read of the diaries - it soon squashes any urges you may have.
Here for you.
Buckeroo
Hi Buck,
I am pretty much excluded from everywhere on the net now and shops but more importantly I am only getting money from my Parents when I need it.
Got through today so will try again tomorrow.
Thanks for the advice.
Well done on getting back here
this surely is an addiction for so many
some can walk away
i couldn't
so keep walking and hopefully you'll achieve your goals
well done tri
Thanks for the kind words triangle.
Another day done - hopefully get through tomorrow as well.
Another day done.
6 so far.
Well done Walkaway, its day 1 for me but reading all these diaries of people much furthur down route than me is inspiring, well done.
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