3 months to change my life

Hi Suzy

109 days is such an achievement be proud and enjoy abstaining and maintaining.

The addiction hates that.

Well done

Suzanne xx

Day 110

Another lovely day clocked up.

Keep strong everyone, it is so worth it!

Suzy

Day 111

Wow what a great number of days that is!

I feel 100 times better than I did on Day eleven.

Happy Days,

Suzy

Well done Suzy! Great strength, keep it up!

Knowing how happy you are at 100+ days motivates me no end.

All the best!

Day 112

All is well in my non-gambling world !

Be strong everyone .

It gets better & better.

Suzy

Hi Suzy

Thanks for your post and well done on 112 days.

I have answered your question as honest as I could and would love to know what you think. I wanted to be as open and honest as I could and do feel loads better and hope that maybe others can learn from my mistake.

Take care

Craig

Hi Suzy

Thanks for your post.

113 days today, so pleased you head is non fried now lol.

Like you I was wondering about the 150 ish mark, I have read Craig's post, and found it very interesting.

I think a relapse can happen at any time if we let it and don't make that right choice.

I also think having spare cash again can be dangerous, because we know it won't be just a tenner or twenty or even 100 lol.

You are doing amazing, keep doing what you are doing, it's certainly working.

Keep going and keep that brain healthily lol.

Suzanne xx

Day 113

Read some fantastic posts today. People turn their lives around by quitting gambling.

Have a great gamble free weekend !

Suzy

Day 114

What a great day Saturday is when you no longer wish to gamble.

Somewhere over the years I crossed a line and went from gambling as a pastime to crisis gambling. I crossed that line and I cannot go back. At this stage of my Recovery I never want to go back.

Bookies - We all watched the cowboy movies where Billy the Kid or whoever would go into the bank with a gun in his hand and say "Stick em up and hand over the money".
Well going into a bookies for me now would be like me handing over my bank card and saying "Take every penny. Max out my overdraft. Here take my credit card too. Keep me here for a few hours. Bang me on the head with a sledge hammer every 15 minutes.
Billy the Kid would wake up with a bag of money, I would wake up without a penny and a headache. The bookie would say "Thanks very much. See you next payday".

Slots : I have got many scam mails to say I have won the Spanish Lottery. They want me to send on a "fee" to process my winnings. For a second I wonder if I have indeed been so fortunate. But I know it is a scam and they will come looking for my bank details and will clear out my bank account. I cannot win so I ignore these mails.
I now look at Slots in the same way. It doesn't matter how many free spins I am offered even if I can keep the winnings. I know I will lose the winnings and so much more with it.
I cannot win on slots any more than I have won the amazing Spanish Lottery for which I don't even have a ticket.

The geniuses who created slots may have fried my brain in the past but that deep fat fryer has been thrown out with the rubbish and will not darken my door again!

I am not complacent. I don't even like the word. Nobody around here uses it. I googled it. Nothing really describes it .... maybe "too big for my boots" or "smug".

I am none of these. I know I cannot win because I cannot stop. I accept it.

Try your best to get a string of non-gambling days clocked up and you will look at gambling so very differently.

Take care,
Suzy

Hey Suzy

A fella posted here on this very forum that

'gambling is a complete waste of time'

those words for twenty years simply did not wash with me,my sole purpose for living was to gamble,f**k I was a gambler,born to gamble!!

Well fast forward to the point were gambling broke me,it had long taken my rational thinking away and any self esteem with it but it really broke me.

It won

Today I admit I see why

gambling is an act with a random outcome,there is no such thing as a cert,and throw into the mix the fact that whatever the outcome of the next bet would be it would not be the last,either the chase or greed would take over and the end result

Loss.

The penny has dropped for you,it is great to see you pass it on for other folk to have their opportunity to receive the same feeling

That feeling is the gift of recovery

Enjoy it for all it's worth

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back

Day 115

Enjoying my Sunday!

Take care everyone.

Suzy

Thanks for the post Suzy 115 days is fantastic. It does get easier in time.

Steve xxx

Hi Suzy thanks for the post in my diary.i have just read your diary and one word springs to mind POSITIViTy - you're bringing inspiration to everyone In the site -well done.one step at a time and we will comquer online slots,by refusing to play them anymore.

Take care, keep going Gf

Mo

Day 116

Relaxed and happy after a good weekend.

Together we will all see through gambling and the devastation that it brings.

Keep marching,

Suzy

Hey Suzy just read your diary you have an amazing attitude, go girl keep it up, you are my example.xx lisa b