So today was ruff was self pitty and depressing.
I opened up to one of my work colleagues today he gambles as well, we usually have a good laught about who's won the most or what we have been playing on.
I have seen him go through the same thing blocking all his stuff, but we both ended up on european sites buying bonuses seeing who gets more.
He listened to day tried to reassure me that everything is going to be ok, it doesn't feel it right now on day 3 of no gambling I reminded my self of the money I have lost in the past 4 years looking through bank statments just tormenting my self.
The good thing out of it, is that I didn't feel like gambling one bit instead I have give my wife all the money she controls my bank and her own as I did all the finances she never bothered to even ask about her bank as she doesn't work, I guess she felt like I should do it as the one bringing in the money in and she always just asked me for money nearly all the time I said we didn't have it, little did she know it was gone on slots.
At least now I know I can't do anything with out getting caught now and she will end my life she said haha but over all apart from the mess I feel I'm glad it's all getting on track one day at a time.Â
Wish you all the best in your recoveryÂ
Day 4 was ok this morning was hard I had the urge to gamble, it's everywhere all I can see is gambling on Facebook, on Google with the adds, listing to music the adds again.
I then went to the WhatsApp support to give me a hand, it helped got some good advice and support witched helped me out a lot.
After that my day has been pritty chilled out playing with the little one trying to keep my mind from overthinking of the situation I might of out my self in, but I shall find out how bad it is in time but for now all I can do is focus on the present.
I wish you all the best in your recovery.
Your doing amazing Kyle, keep up the great work! Well done opening up to your colleague also that takes guts, realise this 👏Â
It isn't an easy journey but it's one we are all on together. With each others can do attitude we can smash this together! I've handed finances over to my wife too this week so I feel your pain. It's like being 13 again! But I keep reminding myself this is on me and to protect our family. Sounds like your Mrs might actually kill ya so even more incentive mate 😂Â
Keep it up buddyÂ
We are available 24 hours a day, every day of the year. You can also contact us for free on 0808 80 20 133. If you would like to find out more about the service before you start, including information on confidentiality, please click below. Call recordings and chat transcripts are saved for 28 days for quality assurance.
