I wish I could write I am 3 days free but I am not. I have gambled the past two days before confessing to my wife. I have done enough damage but I am glad I told her. I was doing well and in fairness this could get worse. I knew on Monday I would face a battle as once you start again it's very hard to stop. Anyway tomorrow is a new day 1. I was really feeling good in this recovery and now once again I feel awful. I did not want to tell my wife but if I do not tell her I have absolutely no chance. Its in me at the moment I am tingling with buzz but in my heart I don't want this anymore I have enjoyed the last 46 days more than most but I will battle on.
Mic hael
Currently hanging for a bet I can feel it buzzing in my head and a need for sugar. So its not addiction then. Why have I done this I did not need money but could not handle stress a poor excuse but its the truth.
I am going for chocolate
I think if I had not told my wife I would be currently gambling I honestly am wondering if I can hold out tomorrow.
Drinking Tea/Hanging for sugar (just recording this for those who think this is just a bad habit)
Very agitated
Enjoy that chocolate Micheal sorry to here you have had a slip sorry I can't hang around as just on my out to GA but keep positive and let's start enjoying the days like you did the last 46
KTF
Well I did not gamble anymore this evening that was a minor triumph
Good end to the day mate get back to basics make it hard to gamble sometimes you need to go back to realise the benifits of stopping. Build them blocks back up plug that hole that allowed you to let it back in. Telling you wife was a major step does she understand how hard it is for you? Telling her could be the best block you can have get her keeping an eye on you money daily every few hours if needed
KTF you can do it
Thanks I am currently hanging for a bet knowing it would ruin me. It is depressing when you keep doing this I have only gambled for short periods this last year but it's heartbreaking every time
Today is day 1 for me guys ! First days/ weeks I think will be a real struggle but I know the results in the future will be more than worthwhile ! Good luck everyone !
Still hanging do not know how I have hung in urges are brutal
That was not Г n easy day. I was very agitated all day and even contemplated gambling. I am under stress with work and hanging in. I just have to take it a day at a time.
Yes but you know one day at a time will make it worthwhile, jeez Michael, at the end of the day, it's the only way forwards for us.
Sending you strong thoughts to get through these hard days, they will pass and you will feel positive again, just keep pushing through.
Suzanne xxx
Stay positive mate. Just got to try and get some distractions. Stay calm as best you can. If at all possible step outside your person and look objectively... don't let things get to you. Keep the faith.
It's hard to pull up when you know you can keep going. This disease has me in a vice grip I am thankful I told my wife or I would definitely have gambled today. I hope all of you out there read this to just reaffirm its not worth it. Day 2 tomorrow
Checking in day 2 !
Still feel like gambling this morning I have jobs to do and simply won't get done if I start gambling for anybody on the right path stay there simply not worth it. This is brutal
Michael
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