Hello
I have posted before a few months back about my gambling addiction and wanted to post an update as i have not posted since October.
From that point i have struggled to keep on top of my debt and fighting urges to go online to place a bet. Whether it gets easier in time i am not so sure as i do not feel any better today from when i first put a post on here back in September.
I fully understand that the weight of the debt is playing on my mind and it has a severe affect on my day to day life with work, family and even just enjoying life as that worry is always there just knawing away at you.
Unfortunately i succumbed to the gambling machine again Sunday as i placed a couple of bets. It was only £50 but up until yesterday i managed to amass £650 credit in my account an i was delighted. Instead of thinking to withdraw it and just enjoy the winnings i do what i always do and got greedy wanting more. i got to £490, placed a £90 bet for a bigger win, lost that, so i placed an angry bet of £400 and lost that. So i got out of bed, went to the bathroom and cried. I was devestated. In truth i only lost £50 from the original deposit but that £650 would of helped me so much.
I have lost large amounts of winnings by continually betting what i have won before but this time it just hurt so much.
I owe just shy of £23k in debts and to be fair some of the creditors are helpful enough to assist in repaying what i owe but in truth what i have available to pay them is far less than what the monthly repayments are. I have a few payment plans set up with them but even that is difficult to maintain. It just feels as though i am 1 step away from having the bailiffs round demanding the money.
I am talking with step change at the moment in trying to get on top of this but i thought that after 3/4 months i would of make some sort of progress but it seems that i am still in the same hole that i was before.
I dont know what to do, where to turn or how i am going to clear this debt. Is bankruptcy an idea or is there anything else that i can do to ease the burden i have?
Its got to a point where i dont want to be around anymore and i cant be happy.
Any words of advice and encouragement is much appreciated
Hi Daz
Keep your head down and rack up the gamble free days, the rest will fall into place.
Shaun
Hi I would advise getting rid of you access to money. Try and stop thinking about debt. The money's gone and gambling doesn't bring it back.
must admit the lack of feedback and comments are inspiring to say the least
Hi dezzarardo I think if you want help and advice it's better to ask in the other section 'overcoming problem gambling '. I find diaries are a place that people don't often look or like to comment. Start a new topic over there and you might get more answers. I'm wife of cg and have never been in your position. I would help if I could. Call gamcare, national debt line, stepchange. Debt camel is helpful website.
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