I was just reading Sabine's recovery diary and she has given me the boost to start my own journey!!
I have been on here before either to comment or to just talk. I was doing really well, I had stopped gambling for 3 months and then it all broke loose again. Its my own fault I became complacent and cocky and am now kicking myself as it seems like the 2nd time round already feels harder than the first!!
So... to start my diary I am going to wish everyone a Happy New Year!! And pray that we can all stay healthy and happy... the only thing I can think of right now is how I dont want to waste anymore of my life on gambling... thats the easy part... filling my time with non gambling activities is a little harder!!!
So first things first again... I have set k9 on my phone and deleted any gamblingesque emails and excluded from all online sites!!
That's about where I am up to right now.... when I have things a little clearer in my mind I will open up a little more.... just feels strange and frustrating starting again.... when I know it was all my own weakness!!!
Take care all and enjoy the celebrations!!
Tono xxxx
Good luck Tono and a very Happy New Year to you to, I'm sure you have the determination to see you through. I can't wait for a gamble free 2014 and I'm sure you feel the same.
Hi Tono
Just wanted to say hello and good luck with your recovery. I think the first 3 months are the hardest so you did really well being gamble free for this time. I have K9 on my laptop and it has been the best thing to just stop me in my tracks whenever I have thought about gambling. My last bet was on 18th Jan 13, apart from a "moment of madness for 3 hours in August this year. This was on my mobile. I didn't know that you could install K9 onto your mobile?? I will give this a go. I have tried umpteen times to have a block put on my phone by my mobile provider but it just never works?? I would be interested to know if this was an easy task downloading K9 onto your mobile if you don't mind.
Anyway, hope the start of this year continues positively for you and you are able to remain gamble free.
Take care.
Feb.
Hi Guys,
Hope your all doing well!! Its been a positive start for me! I dont do things by halfs and have also quit smoking too and am on day 5... i feel like i want to cleane and just be addiction free and that once my biggest vices are gone I can fill my time with positive and productive things.. well thats me talking first thing in a morning.... lets see how I feel later!!
I still havent gambled which Im proud of and I can really only say this is because I have been so busy and focussed at work, which is worrying as this is my biggest trigger... its the calm after the storm... after the work adrenaline buzz that I find is my weakest moment.. but knowing that I understand that drives me on!!!
It is really simple FEB: go to the play store on your mobile and down load it... the best thing to do then is go tot eh internet and find a generated password online and copy and paste it in and delete the page... you wont be able to uninstall it then 🙂
Good luck for today everyone!! 🙂
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