Hi my name is Jane
I have also been gambling on and off for a number of years, But recently I have come into some money from a relative who passed away 7 months ago, I gamble to escape reality and for the buzz I can get lost on online slots and scratch cards for hours and hours and forget about the world in the last 3 months I have gambled over 20 thousand pound I'm disgusted with myself but if I had more money I would still gamble I am now overdrawn and broke and I have a lovely boyfriend and 2 children I could of had holidays, brought a car, done up my house, put money into savings or anything. I have no body to talk to I'm too ashamed to tell anyone what I have done in the last 3 months or in the last 5 years for that matter, my downfall is any form of online gambling and as I have internet on my phone I've always got access, I don't know what to do, where to go from here I really had enough now I'm miserable I don't like going out I'm a shell of my former self. I'm going to take one step at a time but any advice? Anyone?
Hi jane I'm also new to this so will be watching ur jounery iv just done my first day good luck Hun
Good luck to you too 🙂 I have been reading through a lot of threads on here and seen a lot of positive out comes,Hopefully ours will be the same
Hello again, this is better 🙂
Just posted on the other thread you were on about getting your triangle broken & also see that you have tried one of the blockers but I understand there are others which may work! Gamcare will be able to help with this!
You are not alone anymore but we are not the same as having someone real to lean on & support you! If you are escape gambling there are underlying problems that need addressing so that you can move forwards with recovery!
One step @ a time is a perfect way to tackle this! Gambling promises us the world but all it does is steal our self worth & leaves us broken & hurting! Recovery isn't easy, you will have to find new ways to deal with your emotions but it sure beats the hell out of gambling! Every day that we choose No is a day where we can pat ourselves on the back & say we won! You are still in there, you just need to fight for you - ODAAT
Thank you very much for your understand words, I will get in contact soon, one day at a time this is a very big step for me just admitting I have a problem out loud is a start knowing I won't be judged on here helps, there is very much things in my life that has pushed me into this escape I know that too well but going through other people diaries I see there is a light at the end of the tunnel
Susan I just read your other message on the other thread it was the same for me one day I opened a bingo account had a little win then never stopped now I've have band myself from every site I can think of maybe 100 or more sites but still find new ones opening everyday, we can only take one day at a time and support eachover
I'm glad you are reading the other diaries 🙂 Hopefully you will get to a few where people have spoken to the advisors...I've yet to read a bad post about picking up the phone!
This is a fantastic place to come for support & has been my saviour! So many of us wearing the same old t-shirt fighting together for a better future, you won't be judged here!
I would suggest having a look @ Mr Brightside's exit post in the 2014 challenge on your travels! & equally, if you're planning on sticking around Sandra12 has a few weeks left on a 90 day challenge with a Friday check in & there is a 2015 challenge running until the end of the year!
Keep reaching for that light - ODAAT
Day 2 no gambling trying to stay busy
Stay positive each day gets easier, and the reward of not gambling is far greater then any win you have ever had
Day 4 still no gambling
I gambled tonight fresh start tomorrow feeling down now
New start today. The money has gone, forget about that. You win every time you don't gamble remember that.
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