I never thought I would be back on this site but the blackness has returned. Had been gamble free for a few years but somehow slipped back into it.Won a few bets and told myself I would do it different this time and use discipline etc and get out when the going was good.This was all working out until yesterday. Had won 19k and as usaul wanted to win more.Why o why do we do it.Lost first bet of 4 k of stupid Scottish match, second bet 5k on goals second half Everton game lost, chase further on goal in athletic Madrid game 10k lost, that's the 19k wiped out, deposit 10k of my own, 5k on goal second half arsenal game lost, finish off with 5k on real Madrid which finished a draw and 29k lost in one day.As usaul crossbars hit, penalty claims, sitters missed but I am sitting here now wondering why o why do we do it, I was 19k up and lost that along with 10k, this is the worst feeling, I can barely eat, sleep or function and all down to my own weakness of thinking I could win, I kept looking a bigger win each time.Anyone relate to this and offer any advice, I self excluded all accounts today for 5 years.
Why o why when we are winning do we not walk away, the nice things we could have,i actually said on Saturday night my winning is going to end and need to withdraw, I felt on cloud nine only to throw it all away yesterday on stupid bets chasing.
Hi ruari,
Oh that sounds sooo farmiliar !! but you didn't loose per say .. you have opened up the door to a gamble free life (again 😉 )
as you read i lost after being up and now ..well it was the best thing to have happened .. I hit financial bottom .. on top of familiy issues but that night forced me to take action .. and action i took .. you have too.. accept that money has gone.. they won you lost .. so be it .. its not whats happend it's more what will happen .. was this savings you gambled or credit ? I had 22K of avail credit when the ball starte rolling and who on this planet needs that sort of money laying around ? but now I have no credit .. and it seems i never needed it.. and i have no access to any form of large amounts .. i have a simple bank account and just the one.. I have to manage money better and live to my means again..
Hopefully you can find that place where you really , really want to stop again and but all the blockers in place .. I couldn't have done it without removing the access to money .. can't gamble what i dont have .. but now after 2 months+ i feel comfortable enough to feel i wont go down that route again .. and having some spare money is nice especially when i can spend it on my family / me / not gambling.
All the best and will keep an eye on your journey
Kris
Hi ruari
Big losses but only one way from here - that's a gamble free life.
Paul
Cheer's for replies, I had won 25k of their money, put all that back, took a few loans out and blew 3/4 of them, still have a bit to do me and didn't touch some savings so not all bad.Just don't want to blow everything and enjoy my family.I am actually a bit happy I have reached this stage as I would have just kept going on and think I was invincible. Last few days I have looked around and seen what I really have and they really count. Not sitting to 3am wishing a team in Chile would score one goal with 6k riding on it.I am in debt but will work hard to sort all that out.I just want to be gamble free and enjoy normal life the way it was. Gambling turns you into a monster. My aim is gamble free and work hard now to get my family to Florida in July.I will never win because I couldn't stop.
The journey has started for me as well ruairi this week . We cant win because we cant stop . Its the main thing im saying to myself at the minute . "There is no way you can win because no matter the amount you win it wont matter ,all plans and desires for the cash never happen". Stay strong !
We will win this battle together, day 3 and today I have not gambled.
Day 4 and feeling good, big weekend ahead though.Hopefully all are staying strong.
Hi ruairi
How are you? Hope you are getting on ok and got through the weekend gf.
Sorry, had very busy weekend with work.1 week down and feeling a lot better. This is the way it should be.My mind is in a better place and focused on the future, no looking back.Just need to work hard, pay my debts and never gamble again, thanks for asking Tilly, one day at a time.
Hi ruairi
Pleased to hear you're getting on well. Well done making through the first week gf....long may you continue
It will
Hi ruairi
I, similar to you, managed to remain gamble free for almost two and a half years. In 2015, I had a few gambling bouts - in April, September and December. Whilst not causing too much of a financial catastrophe, it was money lost I could have put to so much more use.
Those stressful feelings were starting to surface once more and I knew then that this was the time to stop again and refocus and look at how far I had come and what I had achieved by removing gambling from my life.
I am confident you will be able to do the same. Why not join the 100 day and one year challenge threads - if you haven't already done so? I too pray and I truly believe that God looks after me, through thick and thin.
Take care and remain strong.
Feb.
Thanks Feb, were do you find them challenge pages.Now on day 10 and feel good without the curse that is gambling.
Hi Ruairi
You will find both the 100 day challenge and the 2016 challenge in the "overcoming problem gamblers" forum. People tend to update it on a weekly basis. I'm sure this will be something additional which will help you to stay committed in
your goal to remain gamble free.
Take care.
Feb.
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