Back at day one

Hi Jamie,

I'm learning to control my urges just by writing a diary on here and keep looking over it and others in the same boat. So far it's been 10 days since I've had anything to do with gambling and I feel good for it.

If you Dnt have website blockers on your phone or laptop I would say that's a must and if you give your card to somebody you trust then try that all so.

Hope this helps you out.

Sunday 10th May day 1

I work nightshift so I finish work at 8 am. Usually this means walking around for an hour until the bookies open to go put my bets on. I can't remember the last time I had a proper sleep.on a Sunday before work. Because I have bets on I'm always waking up to check them. Get I'm from work.today at half 8. In bed for half nine. Wake up at 4 feeling fresh and stress free. First time I'm a long time on a Sunday.

Day 1 complete

leave all your money and cards at home and only take a certain amount with you to work or you could ban yourself from every bookies near home and work

Hi A86N

Yeah I've done that I only took a fiver to work with me. Also when I'm going to shops I'm going to take one of the kids with me so I can't go into a bookies. I've closed all my online accounts and got my bank card changed and it has new numbers which i don't know.

download k9 for your laptop or desktop and your mobile aswell as that helps great for free gambling and other sites for protection for your kids aswell.

I will do that today when I finish work.

Just looked in my bank account and seen that I got a bonus in my wages for 325 pounds. I've transferred it straight to her account. Usually I would say to her it was 200 and keep the rest for myself to gamble. But no urges so far.

Jamie

Fella welcome to the forum, a place full of like minded folk who share the same goal, to arrest that all important next punt, to put an end to the self created misery that is the compulsion to gamble.

I relate greatly to your last post throughout my gambling life I simply got paid and looked to immediately cash my hard earned into gambling tokens, I begrudged paying for anything else, addiction wanted it all and more.

The sad reality is that I could count the days I 'cashed out ' on one hand!!!!!!!!

Recovery offers a form of winning without staking a single penny

A new life choice

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Thanks Duncan. I've spent my bus journey home looking at some of your entries and your posts to other people. You've done amazingly well and the fact your now passing on advice and are so honest in your posts. Well done to you.

Day 2 Monday 11th May

Midnight and I'm in work and I go online banking to see that my work have gave me a 300 bonus. First thing I do is transfer it straight to.my fiances account. As I explained earlier usually I would take a cut off it but not today.

When I finish work I plan to go to bed but its my fiances grans birthday and I get talked into going to see her. Big test 3 bookies next to her and I would usually pop to the shops to get juice and jump in the bookies to put a bet on to stop the boredom. But not today no urges at all. Another day complete thanks for the advice guys.

Stay focused mate, i let my guard down after 3 years clean and am regrating it loads. I am now 11 days clean again, looking to hit the 100 day mark, please join me in trying to get to 100

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Day 3. Tuesday 12th May

Another day just about done. Went out today and spent about 100 pound for stuff to decorate bathroom something I would never have done. Gonna arrange to speak to a councillor the next week or two. So far so good

Day 4 Wednesday 13th May

I finish work at 8 this morning feeling very strange. Very annoyed at everything and angry. Come home sleep for a few hours wake up and no change. Been like this all dayy fiance has just stayed away from me.all day. We have 5 kids so the house is stressful all the time which is usually when I would gamble gives me something to occupy myself with.

On a bright side no urges to gamble just really annoyed.

Hopefully tomorrow will be better even people who are not compulsive gamblers have bad days.

Hi Jamie. One thing I am sure about, is the bad mood swings come with the withdrawal symptons when we give up gambling. Think of it as someone coming up to you and taking away something you didnt want to give away! thats the trouble with this gambling lark. When we first stop its lurking in our minds that its not fair and hey we are adults and should be able to do what we want! all good except for one thing. We end up involving our family, friends, because we lie, deprive them of our time, treats we could have given them and when things go bad we are horrible to live with. So it can only be a good thing for us to give up something so bad for everyone. I had a slip yesterday and was so cross with myself (it was a tenner) because I had been having nigglin urges for days and everytime had an e mail from gambling sites, stopped me excluding. So almost glad I put that tenner on as made my decision very easy as once tenner gone excluded from every site I was on.

Wow five children and can imagine stressful. Mine all grown up.Hope you can find a quiet corner to chill. good luck for future, am sure you will do it. Mary x