Back at day one

Back at day one come tomorrow as I gambled Thursday and today. Thursday was a online bookies I forgot I had an account with and when the urge to gamble was there so was an email from the bookmaker's. I'm away at Blackpool for the weekend with the Mrs and again today I put on bets. I didn't enjoy gambling and thankfully all in i only wasted 90 pound's. I'm very disappointed in myself I believe I got complacent. I was rarely on this site and started talking about gambling with my work mates etc.

Thankfully I tomorrow's a new day and I can just forget the last few days.

I made it to over 140 days gamble free. Life was good and then I go gamble. I just couldn't help myself I couldn't stop. Down in Blackpool with the Mrs and all I done was find excuses to leave for ten mins to pop to bookies. We could only afford to go away for a few days because I haven't been gambling.

I'm not sure what has happened. I go to the football with my cousin he is a huge gambler maybe being round him isn't helping. Maybe I just got complacent. What I do know is I'm not going back to all that and I start again from today. I only lost 70 pounds which is a lot but was spare cash so I've seen sense just in time.

Today is the first day I've not gambled since last Thursday. Temptation was there I was at the gym and bookies right next to it. I was so tempted but thankfully I was strong enough to walk past. Back to basics now. Making sure I keep up with the triangle. Hopefully today is the turning point where I take control again.

Today is day 7 and I'm over last week. I was angry for a few days but now I realise there is.gonna be setbacks and its all about bouncing back in the right way.

Hi Jamie I'm paul, sorry to hear that you got lured back done it myself so many times, I'm the same I have alot of friends who gamble and it really does not help I've said to my gf that I wouldn't go anyway near when the gamble I no.its harsh but u need to stay away it's like putting a achoclic in a pub and expecting him.not to drink when all around him it's not gonna happen, good luck mate and good on you keeping your kids away from gambleing something my I'm gonna stop my daughter I no it's fun but that's where I started, good luck mate

Sorry to hear about your relapse, it happened to me about a year ago, i had been doing well, as soon as i placed one bet all hell broke out!!!

Its good that you have managed to stem the problem, the time is now to re focus, post regularly and get down to the next GA meeting if you can.

Since I gambled two weeks ago I haven't felt right. I've felt annoyed angry and hurt. Things are very stressful at home just now with kids being kids and my health condition has come back (probably because of the gambling). Had a rubbish time of it and placed bets on this weekend. I was walking back from the supermarket today looking for scores etc and I had enough. Don't like gambling hate the feeling the lies. I took the slip out my wallet and ripped it up (no idea if I won don't care). Got doctors phoning tomorrow morning and also the councillor is phoning to see what they can do to help me.

Everyone makes mistakes Jamie. The key to success is learning from them and striving not to repeat them. Power to you.

I hate gambling. I actually hate it. The feeling in my stomach waiting to see if a bet will come in. Putting a long shot bet on hoping to make up the electricity money you lost or the rent money you have wasted.

When I wasn't gambling I was a lot happier. Like I've said before my house is hectic. 5 kids one of which is disabled. I love my kids more than anything but kids being kids 5 is a challenge. I also work nightshift 4 nights a week so a good sleep isn't always a given

I slipped up about 6 weeks ago and put a bet on when I was away for weekend with the fiancГ©. Since then things in my house have been hectic and that has given me an excuse to gamble. I see gambling as a way to get out the house. Put a wee bet on and watch the sport. Sadly that's not reality. Reality is sitting in a bookies putting bets on sports I know nothing about and trips to the bank machine.

I went to see the doctor he has given me tablets to help me sleep and to feel less stressed. I told him about my gambling again as he asked how it was progressing. I explained that I have been gambling again and even though I hate it I can't stop. He says I'm being to hard on myself and not to beat myself up that I've slipped. (Show me someone who hasnt slipped up in life and ill you you a liar) said my doctor. I told.my fiance i was gambling again and she was amazing. She said she was pretty certain I was gambling again but didn't want to ask.

I think when I stopped gambling for over 100 days I got complacent. An urge comes I get past it so I thought I was ok to have my bank card back and I started carrying money about again.

Major lesson learned. I am now so determined to beat this and learn from mistakes. I even stopped using this forum. I'm gonna make sure that I come in this forum at least once a day to update my diary. I've read my earlier entry's and it makes me angry but determined to never gamble again

great post jamie, it sounds like you have a hectic life.

I used to use gambling as an escape, a distraction, a method to switch off,... i have a very stressfull job, add that to the mountain of gambling debt i had it was a vicious cycle, work hard to pay off the debt= very stressful job. I would then go to gamble to recover from a hard days work..... it just doesnt add up or make sense.

i am sure you have heard it before, but try and find something different as an escape, play sport, go out for a meal, go for a massage or a walk.

The money you save by not gambling could easily pay for one of the above alternatives. worth a try.

Day 5 today the hardest day of the week a Saturday. So much tk bet on tennis football rugby horses etc. Last couple of days have been good gambling wise. Not really thought about it plus started councelling on Friday back again on Thursday. At the doctors yesterday he wants me to take two weeks of work to helo with my health issues. Sit down he says and relax. If I do that I get bored and want to gamble. My son shares the big bedroom with his two big sisters while his two brothers share the smaller room. That's my job for two weeks switching the boys to the big room and putting the girls in the small room so it can just be pink and no boys colours my daughter says.

Hi Jamie, hope you are well and have managed to meet the strict accomodation requirements of your nearest and dearest.

Back at day one again. I can easily go 10 to 14 days without gambling and then something doesn't go my way and that's me back gambling. Just gambling on anything basketball for example I know nothing about it however I've placed many a bets on it the few weeks. I've got my councelling at the start of January and I'll discuss with her. I use gambling as an excuse to take my mind if other things which is doing me no good. So right back at the very beginning today. Starting with the Mrs getting all my bank cards etc. Also there is a number you can phone in Glasgow to self exclude from every bookmakers in Glasgow be doing that first thing tomorrow. I need to try a lot harder I can't let gambling take over my life.

Jamie, thanks for coming back and updating us on how you're doing. Sorry you've had a lapse but it's good that you are taking some practical steps to put stronger barriers in place. If you want to also consider counselling or GA you can find details at the following websites:

http://www.gamcare.org.uk/support-and-counselling/face-face-counselling/find-local-counselling

http://gascotland.org/

Or just give us a call on the helpline or chat to us on the Netline - details are at the top of each page of this website.

Take care,

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Day one today gonna be a huge test. Football today 3pm. Pun before it few beers but not a few bets. No bank card with me today just enough for a few beers and a bite to eat.