Well I haven't been online for a while as after four days of not gambling I slipped. However when I gambled I didn't feel relaxed nor did I enjoy it. I just felt the same anxiety that comes with trying to win money back I had lost and losing more in the process. So I did the one thing I thought I couldn't do ! I told my parents about my gambling and debts and I sat down and worked out how much debt I was in and how long it would take me to clear it. Then I thought of the prospect of a debt free life and I thought yes please !! So I put blocks on my iPhone and net book so I can't access any gambling sites. I also paid a small deposit on a holiday for myself and the children for next year. I have been gamble free for a whole week now and I'm surprised at myself as I'm not even getting the urge to gamble( or lose silly amounts of money) I've kept myself busy and even when I'm bored I go and clean. It's working and my mind feels healthier and clearer for it. The dread of giving up is no more and determination and willpower are such powerful tools to have. To anyone out there who is going through this , take a deep breath and look in the mirror and say to yourself " I'm alive , I do have a life and I am going to make the most of it !! " . I'm back on the horse and I intend to stay there. Falling is normal but it's what you do after that matters. Much love x
Hi pinky. Well done on going a week gamble free.
I too have told my parents. Something that I never thought I would do. I just wish I'd have done it a long time ago!
Can I ask what software you have used to block gambling sites on your iPhone? I have been unable to find anything that does this.
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