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No gambling yesterday.

Not a great start to today though. I woke up having dreamed about roulette. It was a vivid dream and I woke up feeling that high you get after a win... not a nice way to wake up I can assure you!

Since my last blow out I've been selling a lot of my stuff on *******. I had an email from a buyer complaining that their item hadn't turned up. This sent stress levels into overdrive. It seems I'm always on the edge emotionally, and it only takes one little thing to push me over the edge. Girlfriend couldn't understand why I was getting so worked up over such a trivial thing - and of course it was her who took the brunt of my foul mood.

I've been to post office to try and sort the problem out, and I'm feeling a little bit calmer. But I had a big urge just to go bookies and try and win the £35 that I'll be out of pocket should the ******* item have gone missing.

I didn't act on the urges, so today will be another day gamble free.

Last gamble 3rd December 2011

Days to goal 7/18

Hiya Paul,

If you got proof of postage you can get a claim form from the post office, I believe you can claim up to the value of £49 on second class alone. If your buyer is on e.b.a.y..explain nicely if they wait for two weeks the item may turn up....also ask them to check at there main local office as it may be there ..as sometimes the postman doesn't always leave 'an attempt to deliver card ' through the door. If all fails then you issue refund. Hope this is of help.

Del x

Thanks for the advice Del.

No gambling yesterday.

Halfway to my first mini-goal. No urges or desire to gamble. Must stay focused because this is when complacency can creep in.

Days to goal 9/18

No gambling yesterday. I was really bored yesterday before work at 2pm and in the past this has been a reason for gambling - so progress is being made.

Got a new job to look forward to in the New Year - and after 8 or 9 years in 'jobs' - this one is going to be the start of a 'career'. Gambling has held me back in the past - I cannot afford to return to gambling, otherwise I'll be stuck in dead end jobs for the rest of my life.

Days to goal 10/18

New year, new job, new goals.

2012 really is going to be the making of all of us on here!

All the very best and keep making those right choices.

GT

Thanks gettingthere.

No gambling yesterday and no opportunities to gamble today.

Last gamble 3rd December 2011

No gambling yesterday. No desire or urge to bet either.

Day 12 of 18

No gambling yesterday.

Beginning to get very stressed with the girlfriend and other family in the run up to Christmas. Feels like I'm doing everything, trying to please everyone... and of course failing miserably!

However, I won't use gambling as a means of escape or act of rebellion.

No gambling yesterday.

Day 14 of 18.

Creeping closer to my first goal, which is to reach Xmas Eve without betting.

I will achieve this, and it it will be a good foundation on which to build on and take into 2012.

keep going paul, it's hard but you're getting there, and you'll feel so awesome when you hit that first benchmark. christmas is stressful for me too, i think maybe for every adult, but it will only be more so if you give in and lose money. you're doing so well, don't stop! 🙂

No gambling yesterday or today. And here's to no gambling tomorrow.

Last gamble 3rd December 2011

No gambling today.

Small urge earlier was quickly brushed aside.

Must stay strong and not get complacent.

Last gamble 3rd December 2011

1 day to go until my first goal - to stay bet free until Xmas Eve.

Today I will not gamble.

Reached my first goal today.

That's now 20 days without gambling.

Next goal is to get to 1st January 2012.

Last gamble 3rd December 2011

Merry Christmas folks, don't give up fighting.

I used to enjoy betting on football on Boxing Day. I used to be quite reserved with sports bets - however, if I lost a £5 or £10 bet I would often chase this on roulette and end up losing hundreds! Madness.

No gambling today.