Been away, messed up for the last time, now im back!

Lisa

welcome back,the doors of recovery revolve,each time you come through them it is about what you learned from the last time you were here.

I hope your children and husband have not suffered too much through your latest episodes and I hope you use them to motivate you and gift your resolve to arrest the destruction your compulsion to gamble brings.

Funny I remember you writing about how lying to your husband was the worst feeling gambling gave you when the question of where the money had gone??

I emulated with that greatly,those lies for me grew in statue along with the stakes as I do believe the compulsion to gamble is progressive in it's nature.

There is no cure,magic pill or medicine we can take to stop us gambling,it is all about finding a new way to live,to deal with the reasons/triggers that make us gamble.

We can re educate the mind and gift ourselves the thing we desire by and large from gambling, to be a winner.

My advice take all the help out there,there is plenty on offer,put some blocks in place,self exclude,get some blocking software,do whatever it takes to gift yourself the opportunity to reap the benefits of abstaining from gambling.

I hope you give recovery a chance,f**k what have you got to lose??

It is free and I promise you will reward you more than any punt ever did.

Abstain and maintain

I won't wish you luck,like me you most likely used it up long ago.

Duncs stepping forward never back

Hi Lisa

Welcome back and well done for coming back to the road of recovery

Use every barrier you can to keep abstaining

We cannot win because we cannot stop but we can win every day by not playing

One day at a time we can abstain and maintain

Take care

Suzanne x

thankyou for your messages and support I feel so ashamed of myself but i also know that feeling isnt new.

money wise we are fine but i think suspicions are mounting and its only a matter of time before it will all come out.

bank transactions are just pages of deposits to numerous sites and as part of our bank account service we have a fraud//credit check alert which sends us regular statements - again pages of checks (although no info on who is checking) Im assuming these are gambling sites although i have never used a gambling credit facility.

My husband received a bonus from work this month and ive pretty much bottomed it. Im disgusted 🙁

I will turn this around for myself this time I have too. xx

well i had a few days off all the sites then a couple of days trying to put no more than a tenner on new sites that i'd discovered who didnt have me blocked. im totally useless so i bit the bullet this morning and installed betfilter. i cant uninstall it, i cant get round it and it blocks them ALL!!!!!!!!!!! i feel completely liberated. im driving myself insane with all this and dont quite understand why im finding it so hard to knock it on the head. i know that if i dont stop then one day i will lose BIG time x

Hi Lisa

Good to see you back.

Just take one day at a time. Keep yourself BUSY and always remember you cant win coz you cant stop.

Winning is rubbish anyway, even if you won 500'quid the money would be burning a whole in your pocket and once the buzz wore off you'd be wanting to use it to try and get another buzz

Hi Lisa your not alone I too have relapsed badly , online slots and can identify with that zombie mood last night spinning reels for 8 hours into 4 in the morning while my family slept , blowing 600 quid in the process and over 1500 this month ! Calculated I blew 17k last yr I remember working it and thinking that's it I'm through with this only to relapse months later ! Watch out for boredom it's a killer for me ! Well done on coming back , may we all remain gamble free

Hi Lisa. If your reading this them please let everyone know how you're doing. Mark x