As i write this i am up doing the night feed holding my new born daughter who is now five weeks old.... I now have two gorgeous kids and an amazing wife! In many ways the perfect family.... Apart from me that is anmy addiction! I am forever being told whast a good daddy i am.. But i know that is not true... I still find time to gamble as i did yesterday and surprise surprise i got no joy or pleasure out of it asnd lost £130 in half hour which we could nnot afford to! I am ashamed scared weak fearful and hate to say it but all love of life has been drainned from me! I ask myself where is this going to end and on my current path i see two possible outcomes... I lose my loving family or i lose my life!! It breaks myheart to say this but its reality....so my two options are to continue with self pity or today begin the fight again!! I have chosen the latter...I adore my family as they are my world and that is my motivation! I want to build myself back to the person I was ten years ago before I ever gambled... I want to love myself again because I know deep down I am a good person!!! Aim - get to payday.... Goal remain gamble free to set me up for a fresh start in the new year!!! I can do this... My wife and kids deserve better...IDESERVEBETTER!!!
Bobby
Well done for posting , you know deep down what you need to do you have clearly explained the two outcomes , saying that we both know how hard it is with this addiction , in my years on this forum I have read too many where gambling has ruined lives taken much more than financial devastation that can be repaired in time , it's when loved ones are lost through gambling when the real reality kicks in , dig deep my friend this is reality stick with your plan and make it work
Use this forum to keep getting that help and support that we all need esp when the going is tough
Stay strong
Castle2
Hi Bobby,
Welcome to the forum. Your post had quite an effect on me. The two possible outcomes you have identified could be the same for a lot us on here - myself included. It's shocking when you see it in black and white:
Lose loving family
Lose your life
Well done for coming here and sharing your story - it's a big first step. It's a difficult journey but it has to be done. You sound positive and strong - get through today without gambling, then do the same tomorrow.
All the best.
Paul
Bobby
fella again welcome,I saw your name and hoped you were posting about the joy your second child has gifted,alas it is tainted with the fact addiction still has a hold.
My friend you have been here longer than me,you know the drill,you know that abstinence is a job for life,there is no cure,medicine that will arrest the urge to gamble.
I hope you find the resolve to embrace recovery,to 'treat' yourself and your family to a life without the destruction that gambling will wage upon it.
how about putting some practical steps in place to eliminate the possibility
there is a triangle, Time-Money-Location take one away at all times and that next punt becomes impossible
gifting you the chance to see the positive effects recovery can bring.
That old saying 'nothing changes if nothing changes' springs to my mind.
That and a question a fella ask's in my GA room.
You love your kids?? how much do you love your kids??
because however much you wage upon your next bet,that stake be it a pound or a million of them could be the bet that kills the relationship between you and your kids,f**k just read the pages here to see how many gamblers lost much more than the contents of their wallets.
Don't become another statistic.
For me I can't put a value upon my own family,they are simply priceless,making the odds of any bet simply not enough.
Fella I hope you give recovery as much effort as you have gambling,believe me it is worth it.
Take the help out there,make the changes needed.
Abstain and maintain
Duncs stepping forward never back
Made it through weekend gamble free... Onwards and upwards looking forward and never back! My family are all that matters to me.
Still gamble free ... Been very busy two babies is hard work!! Its good to keep my mind occupied! Am doing this for me and my family... They are all that matters!
Still making good progress and remain focused on the goal!!! Payday wednesday....looking forward to treating my girls!!!
Hi Bobby077, great start l can see where your priorities are, your family. I can tell you will always put them first. I like. you have a lovely wife children and grandchildren and they deserve more from me than the misery I became,so like you I love my family more than gambling I'm sure for that reason your gonna succeed onwards and upwards mate ginger
Have not been on as laptop was broke! Had a couple of blips but back on the wagon and getting ready for a lovely christmas with my wife and babies!!! A gamble free one!!!! This time last year my debts were 20k... Now they are just under 10k which is good progress... Here is to another gamble free weekend!
Hi Bobby
Long time mate, just wandered how you were getting on buddy?
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