[Closed] Charly's life

Hi charly, sounds like you do not like yourself much. I know i have not been here long and have enjoyed and cried at your posts and support. Charly i think you are really great and i like you very much. Thats all. mimi

Hey girl

Don't know how you feel about this one, but when I feel really down (and I know you are in the fortunate situation to live close by), I find a lot of peace in the seaside.

Someone once said, the ocean lets you feel your roots.

Hugs

Andrea

Good Morning Diary

I am feeling a lot better today. I had a very eventful Sunday evening.

I went to my G.A. meeting and I met Keith who drove 2hrs just to surprise me. Bless him. He put a smile on my face. Thanks to him, I did share a bit and the support was overwhelming. Thank you Keith and Thank you to all my G.A. friends, especially my little brother. I value their support and feel priviledged to know them.

When I got home the strangest thing happened. I'm struggling with events that happened in my married life. But after I left my Ex and time went by, my angel convinced me to get on a more friendly footing with my Ex for the children's sake, which I have done.

My Ex called me last night to congratulate me on my year pin(my 1 yr is on the 5th and my pinning is on the 15th). As you know, my boy went on holiday with his Dad not so long ago and I believe my lad metioned it to him. What a strange thing to happen.

And then my baby sister called me late(about 11.30pm) and I got to talk to her about everything. She know what I went through. She's one of the very few who really know and we had a long talk.(I think I got off the phone about 1.00am)

We scheduled to talk some more this week and I'm to write down all the things that have been in my head, worrying me. My sister and I will then talk through them.

I thank everyone on here for their continued support and the messages you have left in my diary.

Have a good day.

God Bless

Charly x

Hi Charly, thanks for your kind words. Was a pleasure to meet you and be part of your meeting. You are every bit as lovely in the "real" world as you are on here and was plain to see how much respect and love you have in your group too as you have on here.

Took a bit longer to get home thanks to the good old road works at the tunnel but was worth every minute.

Great to see that you were able to chat in the group and to your sister and get some stuff off your chest. As for your ex.......sometimes they just surprise us all. Shows there is some good in everyone if we look deep enough although sometimes its hard to see it.

All in all, it seems like a good day for you and your recovery. Who says there isnt a higher power eh?..lol xx

Hey Charly

I'm so pleased and relieved that you have found somebody you can really talk through all this stuff with. Your sister sounds great!

I'm really disappointed that i'm going to miss your year pin as i'm away in Norfolk that weekend. I'm really sorry as I would have loved to have been there to be able to support you.

I'm looking forward to Wednesday for our trip to the body balance class! I am hopeless at anything to do with balancing and stretching and what not so it should turn out to be a bit of a laugh!!! Be warned we have to do it in bare feet so you may want to paint your nails just in case there are any hunky men there! lol.

Have a good day charly and thank you for your continuing support.

Alice x

Hi Charly

Happy to see you are in better spirits, such an achiebemnt coming up to one year.

I look forward to hearing about your body balancing class.

Thanks for your support

Love

W xxx

Hi Charly

Thanks for your words of advice. it is done now. i left a letter when i went to work explaining what i have done.

tough day today.

TAke CAre

AndrewDP

Hi Charly

Popping in again. I see you are doing well, that's the way to go. (But to mention on Alice's comment, if there are too many hunks, let me know and I am sure I can help out).

Like Keith said, I also find you are a warm hearted woman and glad to see how you are getting on and how well you are doing despite the struggle at times.

My daughter will come back tomorrow late night and hopefully I will manage to come down and see you or you come up and see me. I am not too sure now about going to a GA meeting, because I am sure that my way will be the counselling, but I think as long as I don't have to talk in any meetings, I might as well come along just to listen. (my daughter would have to babysit on this day). I am openminded about anything. For me the real reason to meet you is not the prospective of the GA meeting, but meeting you as a person.

Hugs

Andrea

Hi Diary,

A year ago today I have put my gambling addiction down. It's been a very eventful year. I had to re-evaluate and change me as a person and still am.

I had my ups and downs and it hasn't been an easy year.

But..... it has also been one of the best years ever for me.

I have learned that I can live my life without having to run to a fruit machine to kill the emotions I was feeling and didn't want to or couldn't deal with.

I learned to face my emotions day by day and deal with them as I feel them, and I still do.

One day at a time.

I can live and tackle today's problems without panicking and wanting to hide in my cocoon, my dream bubble.

I can't do anything about yesterday, it's gone. I can't do anything about tomorrow,it hasn't happened yet.

Today, I can do something about.

I went to my first G.A. meeting and found others who have the same problem and realised that I was not alone.

And by going every week and listen to others I have been able to stop gambling.

The 'Higher Power' G.A. speaks about, for me are the following:

my G.A. group, my partner , my children, my family, those colleagues at work who are aware of my addiction, a few friends I have and the gamcare community.

I thank all of them from the bottom of my heart for their support, for without their help I'm not sure where in life I would be or if I would still be alive.

My sister said to me not so long ago that she is convinced, that, if it wasn't for Steve, I would be dead. And she is most probably right.

A year on, I go to G.A. every week, I use the on-line Gamcare forum as an addition to my recovery, I visit other G.A. groups,

I volunteered to be the keyholder for my group and have the pleasure of being secretary there, too.

I also help out with the G.A. national phone helpline. That helps me as much as I hope it helps the people who have the courage to phone.

It feels good to be able to give something in return.

I still have a lot of work to do on myself. One of my biggest flaws(defects of character) is the fact that I don't talk enough about how I feel.

Especially with my lovely Angel. It's very difficult to change something, I have done almost all my life. I've never been very good at talking, not about me anyway.

All in all, I am doing good. I haven't gambled today and that makes today a good day.

Thank you all for your continued support. I believe it saved my life.

God Bless

Charly x

Hi Charly....fantastic post and wonderful achievement. You deserve your success because you live the recovery programme and you are doing it the right way, one day at a time.

You are such a modest, caring person who offers so much to so many and day by day you are tackling those demons and getting stronger....long may it continue. xx

Thanks Keith

I have had some wonderful text messages for my first birthday and e-mails from my work colleagues.

I'm feeling much better this week.

I went to the balance life class with Alice on Wednesday and that was good. I slept through the whole night which makes a change.

Yesterday my angel came home from work and had bought me 2 beautiful plants and a bottle of champagne to celebrate my first birthday. We went swimming first for the first time in years and I managed to do 16 lenghth. Afterwards we walked home and had some of that champagne. My lad was there too, so that was very nice. We talked about all sorts and all in all it was a lovely day and evening. I spoke to my Mum for a bit and then went to bed. Slept well again. All the advise I've been given over the past few weeks has done wonders. I listened and put it in practise. If anyone is struggling and has someone to talk to, then don't do what I have done for a long time. Please talk. As you can see, it seems to work.

God Bless you all. Have a wonderful weekend.

Charly 🙂

(((Charly))) I'm sorry I missed your first birthday yesterday. You are such a wonderful lady, and deserve every success you've worked SO hard to achieve.

ALL my love.

Anna

Charly.

Conratulations, sorry I missed the day but wanted to wish you all the best, its what you deserve 🙂

W xxxx

Hi Diary

A week has gone since I last posted.

Can't believe it. I have been reading some diaries, but I've been too busy this week to post in mine.

I have had a very good week, but also sad. Have been preparing the house for our visitors who are arriving later today(my daughter and boyfriend and my sister-in-law and partner).

As work has been manic, I could only do things at home late in the evening. The past 2 nights I've spent ironing 'til half past one. Grrrrrr, I hate ironing.

I threatened to move out last night, if by 'boys' don't start helping at home. Then they can live in their own mess.

It seemed to have worked as they did help clear up.

Work is busier then ever. My colleague retired on Wednesday and that was sad. I'll miss him and I'm sure a lot of other people will. but he deserves his retirement. As it was he stayed for an extra year.

Until they can find a replacement, I'll have to do most of his work as well as mine. I wouldn't mind if the powers that be would accompany that with a nice payrise.

LOL

I'm getting a bit nervous now.

My 1 year pin is this Sunday and by the looks of things we are going to have a full house. 9 - 10 people from 2 other G.A. groups have said they'll come, Gam Anon members are coming and there are 6 in my immediate family. Our group is usually 25 strong. It should be fun. Even the 2 G.A. helpline coordinators are coming. I'm chuffed, humbled and very greatful to G.A. Without my group I wouldn't be where I am today. I'll thank them all.

Right, boys and girls.

You all have a great weekend. Stay strong and carry on supporting each other, here and at home.

As you can see, with the right support you can stay stopped and arrest this evil desease. Don't become complacent.

God Bless You All

Charly x

Hope you have a great night on Sunday Charly, wish i could be there to celebrate with you but will be thinking of you.

You deserve all the success that you are having and are a great role model to all on here who seriously want to stop gambling.

Lots of love xx