[Closed] Charly's life

my e-mail for anyone who wants it is

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God Bless

Charly x

Hi Charly

Great to see you in chat and thanks so much for your encouragement in my diary, all the support is really helping me through this,

Soon I will take time to finish reasding your diary, I hope , for it is journeying with others that really makes the difference between fighting back or giving up.

Hugs Teresa

Hi Charly

Just dropping by to say thanks for posting in my diary. You were right..I read back a couple of pages and found myself laughing at some of the stuff I'd written about MIL !! How bad a daughter in law am I !!

My daughter has already told me if I end up like that she's dis-owning me..and my two sons would just use me as a source of amusement.

Hope you are feeling good and staying strong and positive, as hard as it can be at times. We will all beat this..together.

Much love and Hugs

xxx Destiny xxx

Morning Charly xx

Rodders 'e*e...

hope your having a good day xx

Why didn't he make the earth a bit lighter!!!!

me back hurts and I still haven't finished!!!

going to charity shop tomorrow to get a couple of gardening books!! Know quite a lot because we as kids always had our own veg' patch....you know one half grass the other vegs'....council estate!!! lol

Hows Poole?? is that Poole in dorset??? got a good friend who lives their called Steve Forder...about 40's....me 'n' me mate shaved his hair when we first joined the army and were reluctant to pay a fiver for a hair cut....well we took a chunk out of his hair at the back and he got restricted priviledges...anyway he probably wouldn't have seen you!! lol xx

silly woman xx

gotta go

Roddersxx

Morning Charly xx

just been looking through yer post on my diary in which you state that you mostly read and sometimes haven't the energy to respond.

well if yer reading this, I hope your day is wonderous and hopefullly you'll make chat tonight xx

take care

your friend Rodders xx

Hi Charly,

Nice to see you in safe harbour, I was not sure if it was you at first so I had to ask, It is very light hearted on there, I'm not sure if I could discuss anything more serious on there though.

Look after yourself and stay strong, Ian

Hi Charly

My name is Julie and I am relatively new here to the forum. I have been here about 6 weeks now. I apologize that I haven't gotten to your diary to introduce myself yet. I do enjoy reading your posts in others diaries. I try to read all diaries from beginning to end, but I have to admit I have not done that with yours yet. I promise to get to it soon.

Hugs,

Julie

morning Charly xx

Rodders here...

hope you're having a gamble free day!!

I'm sure you are....

Tell me Charly..do you think it's appropriate to ask when the last time some-one gambled is??

Also; I'm very slow on the old key board so not only do I miss conversation but I also answer so slowly other users miss what I'm saying!! lol...who's sf!! lol

Rodders xx

Hey Charly,

Thanks for your supportive message as ever wamrly welcomed. Well Sharon moved back to her apartment but found it more like a bombsite, told her it was impossible to stay but being a little bit stubborn she refused my offer to go back to a hotel for a few days. Now some hard graft has made it much more like home again.

You ladies certainly don't shirk a task, put me to shame, I contantly find excuses to put things off until I am forced to do them.

Trust things have smoothed over with your son now, another day dawns, the sun rises, the grass grows..life goes on. Kids are a lot tougher than you think, deep down he knows you love him and that means more than any wee daft comment made in a moment of anxiety. He will know becuase you will show him every single day for the rest of his life, now he might not show you but you ladies have a knack of reading minds, body language so you can see it clearly if you look.

Have a great day now Charly ...you deserve it, so boot all worries into touch and take time for YOU.

Morning Charly xx

Rodders 'e*e...

just a few lines...I'm 5 weeks 'n' counting now xxx how good is that eh !

Thanx for your last post, I think that you hit the nail on the head when you suggested that you shouldn't allow yerself an hour sleep !!! that's how I feel....gonna finish me garden (digging) today and then get sum pooh for it xx just hope Dylan doesn't like the taste ...lol....

kids eh!

Rodders

Hi Cherly

Just wanted to wish ypu a good weekend and check you are ok.

Not heard from you for a while, hoping its cos you are busy with all the normal things of life,

take care

Love

W xxx

Hi Diary

Haven't posted for a while. Had a lot on my mind. I'm at a point on my recovery journey where I'm realising that I can't change the things that happen in my life which I haven't initiated.(trying to control) I'm learning to accept that. I have been reading my recovery books a lot over the past few weeks.

I am learning that I can only change me. Change the way I think. I have no control over events, over other people, I have no control - full stop. If I had I would not have become a compulsive gambler.

What do I need to do different. I am learning that I have to let go of all the old cliches.

- control situations, oversee a lot of stuff, running a round like a headless chicken, tyrying to please everyone around me so people think - oh look at her, isn't she doing well. I am learning that it doesn't matter what other people think of me. It matters what I think of me and if I can learn to like me and I mean really like me, then I will be able to change form within and once that is happening, things will change around me too.

This is where I am at the moment.

It has taken only 14 months to be here, but I am beginning to smile more.

I am stopping feeling sorry for myself.(although I do still find me doing this sometimes)

I have been reading the e-mails my little brother and I have exchanged over the past few weeks again and I am beginning to understand what he was trying to tell me.

I have been given the gift of livng a happy life and I have trampled on it for too long. Time to do something about it. 🙂 (Thanks little brother)

I have a long journey ahead, a lifetime of a journey and I am going to enjoy it day by day.

The best thing about this journey is that I am discovering new things all the time, good and bad things about me. I am learning to talk about the real issues of why I gambled. The real issue of why I have to find the courage to change the thing I can change. I have to let go of all the things that I can't change and concentrate on me.

I am going to let my Higher Power guide me. I know it's there but I haven't given it a chance to do it's job. I am going to just let it happen and see where it takes me. My Higher Power is all around me, my 'angel', my childen, my family, this site, Safe Harbor and most of all my G.A. family. Everyone who has been part of my life over the past year and a bit has had influence on how I see things now. I feel elated, I feel like a great big cloud is being lifted very slowly. I can see bits of blue sky and I'm getting very excited about the prospect of one day seeing the whole blue sky.

I am going to concentrate on my recovery and on giving back my experience as as live and breath it.

I wish everyone the courage they need.

God Bless

Charly 🙂

Morning Charly,

Fantastic post. Although this is about you & your life Charly, its all true... realisation of about everthing we strive for. That we can only change our ways & thoughts.

We have no real control of others/events etc. we have to learn to accept that, to learn to live with that, that its ok. But its hard.

Thank you, I needed to read this

Take care

Jackie x

Argh, Charly, I didn't get it, but my e-mail has been doing very strange things. Can you try ONE more time??? Just re-send the same one....

Love, Anna

afternoon Charly xx

Rodders 'e*e...

just a post to say, I'm glad you're doing sooo well xxx

I will however say that I never look tooo hard at what I do...mostly I would say, I'm a good person with a bad viral condition !!

I have done so much good 'n' bad that it wouldn't be poss' to trawl through my whole life; be difficult enuff lookin' past the last 2 years !!!

Just wanted to say hi and sdee you at the finish xxx

Rodders