[Closed] Charly's life

Hi Diary

Just a quick visit to let you know I'm still busy reading the new diaries and will eventually get around to psoting on them.

The knowledge that the 'gang' as Anna affectionately called them(all the people who were here about a year ago and are still going strong in their recovery)

are still here and reading, gives me great peace of mind.

It makes me happy and sad at the same time to see so many new people here. I welcome you all and wish you well in your recovery.

I feell good and happy. I have not gambled. Hooray...Life is good.

Love to all

God Bless

Charly

Hi Charley,

gacie07

Just wanted to say after going back and reading another part of your story when you talked about your friend saying we and you knowing it was you.That was amazing (very emotional) It seems like thats every womens dream is to have another human being touch the deepest part of our spirit/and mayby not even women but all human beings! I mean really isnt that what we as humans or people with addictions REALLY TRULEY WANT!!!!!

bye

hi charly, just read that comment about the gang from last year still being around now, and yes it is such a reassuring feeling, and maybe even gives the sense of stability.

was so pleased to see a post from willie, and to see him posting away in his own inimitable style, and also to see anna post as well.

but its the sense of stability that is catching my attention. there has been some good work done here on the forum over the last few years, not just by the staff, but also from the members who so dilligently pay their stability forward.

here is to another year charly

all the best

love

rusty

xx

Hi sweetie! Thank you so much for the birthday wishes, and for the reminder to myself that it's still important for me to come here and post now and then, and to check on those I care about, and to also check on the new folks. Sometimes, it's easy to get busy with life and forget how hard the struggle was in the beginning, and how hard it still can be! I needed that reminder that others still need my support.

I hope you're having a wonderful and peaceful holiday with your Angel and your family. Love ya girl!

Anna

Hi Hun

Good to see you posting still and the old gang still around as you say.

Since I truly started on my right path live is great and I can ense it is for you and your angel too.

You have come along way my friend, have a lovely Christamas and a great New Year.

Love

W xxx

Hi Diary

Thank you all for posting and/or reading my diary. It helps me in my recovery to know that people read my story and relate to it somewhere along the lines.

Christmas was very quite and peaceful, just the 3 of us, my angel, my lad and me.

My girl has spent Xmas with her partner's family and that's cool. It's part of me growing up, to be able to let go of my children and not want them around all the time. I had the privilege to see them grow into to beautiful grown ups and now my job is done and they have to find their own path in life. I only borrowed them for approx 20years. 🙂 (and should they need me, they know where I am)

i'm a bit confused again at the moment but I can see that it is 'Me' getting in the way again. I shall just wait for a few days and see where my Higher Power leads me and am positive that this confusion will pass, it's all part of my recovery 🙂

Life - is good

my emotions - I can usually deal with (although I do sometimes still get in my own way, lol)

problems - I can usually deal with(when I take me out of it, the problem quite often disappears anyhow) 🙂

Love - I feel loved and love back, I am beginning to love me - Love is good

Trust - I trust my Higher Power to guide me in life and my family and friends to help out on the way

That just about sums me up 🙂 🙂 🙂 and where I am at the moment in my life.

Thank you to all the gamcare staff to enable me to write here and make me and others feel better. God Bless You.

You all have the best ever New Year.

I know it will be for me because I don't gamble.

I pray for all of you who are still struggling and wish you well in finding your path.

Love to all and I give each and everyone of you a BIG HUG - from Me to YOU.

God Bless

Charly

Hello Charly,

I love to read your diary entries.

You show how you are constantly growing, always learning and working on yourself. You are changing your past thinking patterns & behaviours, I know that you really 'get' what recovery is all about.

In your last post you wish everyone a good new year and say that ... "You will, because you don't gamble"...

Well it says it all Charly. I believe you and I'm sure it must feel so good to write those words

I don't gamble

Thanks for being here Charly, Love to you & yours Jackie x

Hi Charley,

Thanks for your feedback! insted of filling up you diary with my journaling please when get some time if you can follow up on the positive out come of my breakdown! Thanks & Happy New Year!!!

gracie

Hi Charly,

I just know 2009 is going to be the start of something truly awesome for us both.

Best wishes & much happiness for the year and years ahead

hi charly, good to see you're going strong, thanks for message on my diary. Have a wonderful '09 and write soon.

Paddy xx

H Diary.

I'm glad I have you to off-load all my stuff. When I then read back it doesn't seem half as bad.

Here goes - my emotions are all over the place. I cannot deal with my angel's anger outbursts. Although I understand that he needs to let go of it somehow, it frightens me. It brings up all sorts of bad memories from my first marriage, which was very abusive and volatile.

It makes me very cautious and and I am thinking along the lines of prosponing our wedding in July. I cannot marry someone who frightens me at times, although I love him.

I am really unsure as to what to do. But this is real and I have a lot of thinking to do, like my little brother suggested. He also suggested I take my time, which is what I am going to do.

When I have the courage, I will talk to my angel about my feelings and hopefully he'll be able to talk about his feelings too, rather then keeping them all in and then, when something happens, lose the plot completely.

I think we both have a lot of changing to do yet, before we can commit ourselves to each other. I am sure, however, that my Higher Power and my recovery programme will show me the way.

That's all for now.

God Bless

Charly

Hi ya Charly,

Mmmm..... "When I have enough courage"

Sabine.... these are serious feelings about serious issues. They need answering... you need answers to why they are happening.

Angel... needs to hear how they are affecting you. Is he aware of his actions?

How can you both manage these situations better?

You know that COMMUNICATION is the key to all of these perceived worries.... come on girl..... Whats wrong with starting that chat TODAY. 😉

The sooner you talk, the sooner things can change

Love from your 'nagging' friend!!! lol

Jackie xx

Hi Charly, lovely to be posting on your diary again. Sorry to see you are going through some personal issues at the moment but know you will find the strength to find the answers that are right for you.

I know how much you love each other and together you will find a way forward. Communication is the key as always........dont forget love conquers all.

Much love

Keith xx

Hi Diary

Oooops I made a mistake on Ade's diary and I have apologised for that in his diary.

Sorry Ade

Just goes to show that we are human beings who make mistakes. But i will respect his wishes to not write in his diaary if he still wants me to,

As for my recovery. Gambling wise I am doing what the G.A. book says, no bets since the 5th June 2007.

Emotionally - I'm still a bit all over the place. Have tried to talk to my angel about his outbursts, but it seems to be harder then I thought to get across to him how much they really affect me. Maybe I am approaching this the wrong way.

We were all sat together on Friday night(my daughter, my son, my angel and me) and we we putting the world to rights. When we spoke aobut the car accident, I thought that would be a good opportunity to say something. Wrong. When I said" You know Angel, that outburst of yours really scared me", the reply was" Haha..it scared the other guy too" And that was it... Maybe he couldn't see the connection between his outbursts and my emotions going haywire(my mind goes back to living with my ex and his violent outbursts)

I'll have to try and explain this better to him I think.

You all have a good week.

God Bless

Charly