[Closed] Charly's life

Good luck Charly, my thoughts are with you xx

((((Charly)))))

Thinking of you,take care and accept what you can't change like the programme says.

I know it will be hard but as Peg posted, something I will never forget, This too will pass,

Lots of love

W xxxx

Hi Charly,

Just wanted to say thank you for your time in the chat room. I couldn't quit figure the other chat you mentioned, so sorry if I left you hanging! Hope all goes well with what you're going through.

Take care,

Sara

Hi Charly, Just wanted to let you know I was thinking about you. Much love Ostrich x

Hi Everyone

Thought I give you an update, as I have had lots of well wishes and prayers sent my way for which I thank you from the bottom of my heart. It is good to know that I am not on my own. 🙂

Have had my appointment with the consultant today and he doesn't think it's cancer, which is fab news.

He said they wouldn't be sure until it's all been taken out and sent off, but this is good enough for me.

I should have my hospital date within the next 4 weeks.

Thank you all who have prayed with me over the past few weeks.

Things at home are very slowly improving. I only have to nag them every other day now lol. I am positive that once I am back out of hospital that both my boys will come good and do what needs to be done.

You all keep safe and carry on with the good work you are doing in your recoveries.

God Bless

Charly xx

Great news Charly, you show the way the programme works no matter what the situation is. That is an inspiration to me. Life is full of ups and downs and today I am grateful I am aware of these things. You will be in my prayers tonight xxx

Hi Diary

Not much to report really. Just thought I pop in and say hi. Am now waiting for my date with the surgeon.

In the meantime I work my recovery one day at a time. I am grateful for many things, but most of all for the gift of faith.

G.A. has given me faith...to deal with my emotions day by day, to deal with situations day by day and to trust in my Higher Power to guide me in the right direction.

It feels good and strange at the same time to 'let go'. For months and months I didn't understand what that meant and I so wanted to let go, but didn't know how to....

By working the recovery prgramme and trying to incorporate it into my daily life, letting go has become...I don't know....it just happens...I find myself in a pickle...and then I just stop analysing it..I still think about things but I don't dissect them any longer and get myself into a right state...

I think that is the difference...

Hope this makes sense..not sure how else to explain it.

My recovery programme are guidelines for me..I used to think..o*g...I have to do all these things.....nah...I don't have to...I just have to try them bit by bit and see how I get on with them....step by step.

It is working for me...and I am grateful for that.

Love to all

God Bless

Charly

P.S. I still moan to my little brother about things, but that is ok, I need to share how I feel to be able to move on. Otherwise I would be like a balloon, slowly being filled up..and then....bang it bursts...once burst it cannot be fixed(well it can, but it's like a jigsaw puzzle with maybe too many pieces, some might get lost)....don't want to ever go to that dark broken place again...

Luv Ya Little Brother xx

A reminder for me!

Just for today I WILL try to live through this day only and not tackle my whole life problem at once. (Not allow stress and anxiety which is fear based to cause doubt in my self and my actions.)

Just for today I WILL be happy. This assumes to be true what Abraham Lincoln said, that: “most folks are as happy as they make up their minds to be.” (No one controls my own happiness, happiness is for me being content with in my self in who and what I am today)

Just for today I WILL adjust myself to what is and not try to adjust every thing to my own desires. I WILL take each day as it comes and fit myself to it. (Living for today only not allowing anxiety and stress of tomorrow to cause me to live in fear of today)

Just for today I WILL strengthen my mind. I WILL study. I WILL learn some thing useful. I WILL not be a mental loafer. I WILL read some thing that requires effort, thought and concentration. (I will strengthen my character and my conscience, recovery is about progress which builds self confidence in my actions and stay focused on healthy spiritual growth)

Just for today I WILL exercise my soul in three ways: I would do some body a good turn and not get found out: if any body knows of it, it will not count: I WILL do at least two things I do not want to do - just for exercise. (A good turn is giving of my self the action is spiritual based, doing 2 things I do not want to do is often things I know I need to do but are reluctant to do)

Just for today I WILL be agreeable. I WILL look as well as I can, dress becomingly, talk low, act courteously, criticize not one bit, not find fault with any thing, and not try to improve or regulate any body but myself. (Understand that I do not control any one else but my self and my actions, accepting serenity prayer in to my life)

Just for today I WILL have a program. I may not follow it exactly but I WILL have it. I WILL save myself from two pests - hurry and indecision. (Stay focused on healthy actions, and and not rush, I will think things out clearly but more importantly in doing things slower I become more considerate patient and tolerant of other people and of my self)

Just for today I WILL have a quiet half hour all by myself and relax. During this half-hour some time, I WILL try to get a better perspective of my life. (Time to reflect and get clarity and focused on the healthiest path in my life each day)

Just for today I WILL be unafraid. Especially I WILL not be afraid to enjoy what is beautiful and to believe that, as I give to the world, so the world will give to me. (In being free of fears will make me more honest, improve relationships, and set my inner child free)

Just for today I WILL not gamble. (It is the beginning of a more spiritual life and gaining a healthier way of living)

Hi Charly,

Just taking a break from uni work, for a change I'm actually able to concentrate for more than five minutes, lol. I really enjoyed reading your recent posts. I get so much from your diary. Anyway, must rush off and try salvage this opportunity to complete this assignment ontime.

Thanks for your continuous inspiration, courage and honesty.

Take care Dee

Charly, great post and thank you for reminding me what i need to focus on. xx

Hi Charly

Nice to catch you the other night in chat,will try get to a few more soon.

Thanks for your words on my diary,our kids are so important as you say and i am really trying to concentrate on being a good dad rather than a bad gambler now 🙂

You have always had some very positive and wise things to say Charly and it was great to catch up again,hope all is well with you and maybe talk soon

All the best

Stephen J

Hi Charly,

Just thought I'd say hello and wanted to tell you that I can relate to the way you express yourself I tend to wonder if i make sense when Im trying to express myself I have always been a big sharer in fact I think to much. I have been attending more meetings lately and have enjoyed listening. In fact Im tired of sharing I seem to always try to explain myself

My husband tells me that Im sharing whats in my head and not whats in my Heart.That was kind of cool to hear that makes sense.

Mayby thats one of my ways, for people not to get close to me.

Im glad your health conditions are going well. Praise God

Take care,

gracie

Hi Charly

Just a quick hello and I hope you are ok and having a good day.

Plus a thank you from me to say thanks for all the support and help you provide.

Hi Diary

It's been a while.

I'm still waiting for my date with the surgeon. The hospital says they will have to have me booked in by the 8th March, so hopefully I'll be going in at some point this coming week. I am refusing to let that frustrate me any longer. Last week I felt a bit down, because I couln't plan anything ahead. I had to make dates and decisions but couldn't because I could be called in for my op any day.

Then, someone in my G.A. group read something out and after thinking about it I have come to the conclusion - as is usually the case - I have to accept that I don't control the world around me, I cannot change the way the hospital works.

I can only look at me every day and do my best in that one day. I have no influence over others.

I have found faith and that helps a lot. I know my Higher Power is looking after me and I am learning to hand over my thoughts and my way of thinking to this higher power. It's not easy. For too long I have tried to "control" things and look where that got me. Straight into the arms of gambling.

Day by day I do my best to try and accept that there are things I cannot change and there are things I can. I concentrate on those things I can change.

Sometimes I sit back and just "let the world go by" enjoying little things in life like watching the spring flowers and the birds flying around, children playing and laughing. I have so much to be grateful for. I am very fortunate to have the "riches" of love, honesty and care in my life and I try to embrace them daily.

I will wait patiently to go to hospital. Things will be done when someone else is ready to do them.

Have a good week in recovery.

God Bless

Charly 🙂