[Closed] Charly's life

Hi Charly

Thank you very muchly for passing into my diary. Your words where wise and complementary I do believe though that I can take no credit for the position I now find myself in but I thank the boys & girls of last Tuesday evenings GA meeting that made me see sense.

You are right about one thing though my recovery is of paramount importance to me as yours is to you by sounds of things feel free to leave any messages you like because even with 5 months in I am still a novice and need all the people I can get.

Danm

Hi Charly,

Good reading your post to Iain, hope it will help if both of them decisde they can still give it ago or even if not.

I admire the way you can express your thoughts and it was a great message.

Hope you are continuing to recover and taking it easy.

Work will sort itselfout. lets see where the new path of life will lead you. Upwards and onwards to better things I believe 🙂

Take care,love W xxx

Hi Charly,

Many thanks for the message once again. Now you ladies don't do things by halves it seems (You related to Lucy LOL) Not content with taking on gambling, now recovering from an operation AND stopping smoking too. Glad everything is going well though.

I can fully appreciate about the problems in timing for your wedding, what with the operation, redundancy just a short delay. At least you know you have found someone truly special, so any sacrifices are well worthwhile.

Your diary serves as an inspiration to so many, not just people who post on it, loads of others will read and relate to things you say or do which will help them in their own recovery. No short cuts, no easy way, no right / wrong way but putting our thoughts down in print shows what works for us. Also lets others learn from our mistakes, if newcomers can take something from it then all well & good.

Life is what you make it Charly, and anyone reading your diary knows you will make it happen for you. A lady who knows what she wants and prepared to work for it too...best wishes to you & your family.

Hi Charly,

I dont get to come here much these days but i just stumbled upon your post to RB....

I guess i just wanted to give you one of those cyber hug thingys ((((((( ))))))))

I echo what you have said to RB it is S***e for those of us left behind and there have certaintly been more than a few what if's, if only's for me.

Anyhow Charly that aside im so glad that you are chugging along in recovery odaat, and hope that on the health front things are improving for you.

Take care of yourself

Kim xx

Hi

Kim - thanks for your kind words. big hug straight back to you.

Things do not always go as planned.

I had my hospital appointment this morning and expected the consultant to check the scar and tell me that everything is fine.

Well...he didn't

The cysts they took were cancerous. Early stage , but still ovarian cancer.

He then tells me he has spoken to his colleague down the hall, who is the expert on chemo therapy and he will have a chat with me shortly.

I wait, I get called in..I am then told I am to have chemo therapy starting on the 21st April - 6 sessions - one every three weeks.

By that time I am numb and in shock.

He asks if I have any questions.

What???? I have just been told I have cancer, I have to have chemo...and I am meant to be thinking straight and have questions???

I told him I need time to think....I then get to meet the cancer nurse who is really nice and gives me information to take home to read up on. She also gives me her number and e-mail address and says I can contact her any time and also my family if they have any questions. So then I am dismissed.... I am out side the hospital on my own - well, if I had known what they were going to tell me I would have asked my angel to go with me - I didn't expect this......

I take the bus home, I text my angel and my children...I just write - I Love You - within minutes my children call knowing that something isn't right. Funny that - I tell them I love them all the time...

My son meets me as I get off the bus..we talk..we cry...we hug.... we make sense of it all.... I call my daughter, explain...i call my angel, we talk...

Tonight I can think straight ....

I am grateful...sounds strange??? It did to me too, at first.

Look back to when I told you that I would be made redundant in June...look back to when I told you I am to have a hysterectomy....

The operation would not have been until June or July if I had not called the hospital and asked for it to be moved forward, because I wanted to be fit by June so I could go and find another job as soon as I left the old one.

Now fast forward....cancer can do all sort of damage in 3 to 4 months.

Now you see.... I am grateful.. I had the op in March not in July.

Things happen for a reason. Not sure what reason yet but that's not important.....

Things will be fine. I might be bold for a while, but I will be alive.

Love to all and thank you for reading my ramblings.

It helps me stay sane and strong.

God Bless

Charly xx

Sabine I am sending you much love & strength. Your higher power will always be with you, both in difficult and good times. You are never alone my friend.

Jackie xx

Hi Charly,

My thoughts and Prayers are with you! You are very special to have such a loving and supportive family! Both at Home and in Spirit. Having that kind of support helps give us the strength that we need to get through the un explainable things in life.

I dont have the support from my husband, with my back problems even though i put some thought into surgery. I have decided to check out my options. Im very limited to the things I can and haveing 3 little ones he makes me feel so worthless as a wife and a mother. I know that the way hes treating me is not healthy I just cant get enough what ever it is that I need to leave! Im just not sure that taking 3 little ones with me on the road is a good idea! Im not even sure where to go! Im sorry I dont mean to be so selfish like I said you sound like you have loving support at home gives me hope.................

Talk to you soon Charly sending a big Hug

gracie

((((( Charly))))

Sorry for your news but happy as you say the op was moved forward, early treatment is the way to go.

It upsets me to think you were facing this without your angel there with you but I know he wil be pillar of strength for you now.

These tests keep coming but you are strong lady, keep in there fighting, with you all the way Sabine

love ya

Take care

W xxx

Hi Diary

Thank you guys and girls for all your well wishes. I appreciate your friendships. It means a lot to me to know I am not alone on this new path I am walkng on.

I have started to catch up on diaries and I am glad I am off work to be able to do this. I will get around to all of you sooner or later, lol

There is so much sadness but also so much encouragement here. These days I wear my emotions on my sleeves and I smile, grin, laugh, cry and am sad with people here.

No matter where anyone is in their recovery....one thing we all have in common..we are trying to stop gambling.... we all want to get better.

Together we are strong..alone we are just that...alone....

Keep working at this addiction and at our lives together. Don't forget..we only have the one go at this...one lifetime...let's make the best of it....

God Bless

Charly 🙂

charly

u are going through so much at the momment the very fact u have time to read and post on other peoples diaries amazes me. how do you find the strength to do what ur doing everyday is just awesome.

reading the bits i have i think gambling is a small thing to somebody with the strength of character that u have. its good to hear u have supportive people around u to as im sure u get some hard times, but look at what ur are doing every now and then and this alone should give u the strength to pull thru all this,let alone the family and the supportive mesages u get on here.

all the best

danx

hi charly thanks for your post. just read another post you left on another and just wanted to tell you i am from southampton, how spooky is that. hugs

hey charly,

you are right my Lil girl has her dad back, it's strange really, i ain't thought about it that much just trying to get on with things, but looking back i have spent much more time and effort with her since my recovery, so I'm happy and when I'm with her i can think about just her, and not have the gambling in the back of my mind.

as for the beer thing I'm trying to get that into check, like you said its a bit of a habit.

thanks for your words, it made me happy to think how important this change is in my life again, so thanks Charly.

will have a read through your diary when i get chance, but just wanted to reply to your post.

thanks Charly.

green x

hey again Charly, i just had a look at your last few post, and it looks like you are going through alot at the moment, just wanted to say, it just shows there are some great people left in the world, taking time to help others at such a difficult time for yourself, i'm not the best with word's but sincearley hope everything go's well x x

Hi Charly, Thanks for your post, I know what ya saying bout them not really be friends and just mates for trying to get me go to the races but maybe it is me thats not being a real friend as I'm missing out on his big day cos I have a problem...Maybe its me being selfish, I mean it wouldnt be a shock would it...A gambler being selfish, isnt that what we are?...I know I have been and thats the person I want to leave behind....Anyway, I still havent made my choice whether or not to go, Still a while to decide!

Anyway, sorry for rambling on your diary, probably should have put this on my !

Well done anyway on ur recovery, its people like you who we should all be using as examples, a great achievement!

Take care

Si

HI Charly

I want to thank you personally for posting on my diary.

I;m so sorry you are having a hard time right now, but, maybe with a little help from your freinds, you will be able to get through.

I like this place, the anonimity, the method of being able to tell the truth, yes unburden yourself too , to a faceless screen, but knowing, there are real people here too. Good luck charly, you are a warm caring human being and i'm glad our paths crossed x x

Hi All

Thought I come and give you all an update.

I went to the hospital on Tuesday for the consultation prior to my chemo and was told that the cancer they found was a grade 3 cancer which makes it the most aggresive type of cancer. That was a bit of a blow. But I am positive to concquer this as I was told that only 15% of the people with this type of cancer have it found and diagnosed as early as I have.

I had my first chemo session yesterday and am feeling ok. The tablets I have been given to stop any sickness are working a treat.

I feel tired but otherwise ok.

On the gambling front - nothing to report.

Now - this cancer news would have been a very good excuse to go and have a bet now, wouldn't it. But then where would I be?

I cannot gamble..I have self excluded from everywhere... I haven't left the odd haunt open..just in case. I am glad I haven't.

I have had thoughts of gambling...it would have been good to escape...good for whom??? ...gambling is no longer the solution to the problems..facing them is a much better solution.

I wish you all a good recovery. Stay with the program.

Love and stength to you all

Keep smiling and enjoy the small things in life like family, the sun, the wind the birds etc.

God Bless

Charly xx 🙂