[Closed] Charly's life

Hi Charly. I just wanted to thank you for your post on my diary. It meant a lot. I've been struggling a lot lately, but the support I get from my friends here makes all the difference in the world. Thank you!!

I hope you're doing OK and staying strong...

Love, Anna

Hi Diary

First of all I'd like to say thank you to all of you who have taken the time to read my diary and then post on it. You can't possibly imagine how much comfort that gives me and how much it helps.(Well, maybe you can)

Life is settling into a routine at the moment. Quite boring at times, but boring is good, because I'm not gambling. I have been free of gambling for 8 1/2 months now and when I look back and compare times before and after I must admit that times are so much better now. It doesn't really matter what life has in stock for me or what it throws at me, I'm in a place now where I can handle almost anything(I think)

I'm finding my inner peace and it feels great.

When my son tries to get an argument out of me, I used to bite - big time - now I give him a hug and ask him what is really bugging him. That would have never occured to me before. As much as I used to try to have arguments, just so I can storm off and gamble, the more I now try and find solutions to the problems my loved ones face. It's a humbling experience and I treat every day like a miracle. I know there will be times when I feel down and I will write it down. But I also know, that when I do, I have the support of a lot of people on here to help me throught the 'down' times.

My 'little girl' is doing great in Nottingham and she's in a happy relationship. i will go and see her next month and am so looking forward to it.

I could hug the whole world at the moment and just wanted to share that with you guys.

Mum is going in to hospital today for her pre-op tests, but I know she'll be ok. Her op is on Thursday and I will be on tenter hooks all day then, but I'll call on my inner me and will get through the day. It will be much more anxious for Mum.

I wish you all a safe and strong day.

God Bless you all.

Charly

Hi Charly,

Love the way you ae dealing with things is such a calm manner, a real tribute to you, the new YOU.

I have to say generally speaking I am usually very calm myself, but did find that I was getting a little annoyed about quite silly things. My old scanner breaking down, my nephews on IM sending me a dozen messages of 1 or 2 words per line. Should look at the positives, I now have a new scanner, working fine and my family are keeping in touch regularly. I know some way back in my recovery I was quite touchy for a bit which preceded my slip. Honestly no chance of that happening today or in the near future, rather than argue I simply walk away and do something else. But now I'll make more efforts to sort out the source of any wee irritations thanks to you.

Life boring....sounds like a normal day, a routine day nothing out of the ordinary, yet so much better than old gambling days. Maybe an odd rush then a huge but inevitable crash. How we'd have settled for normal routines back then when we were losing money hand over fist, sinking up to our ankles..then our armpits and still thinking it would turn around.

8 & 1/2 months is superb Charly, ahead of me and looking good. Great to hear your daughter is happy, your going to visit soon and hope you are able to give your mum all the support she needs. Irrational fears & worry do go through all our minds on entering hospital even for what Doctors will see as a routine / normal, maybe even boring day. But knowing your family are there for you will help enormously, that's what families are for to be there for each other in times of need, even though they drive you up the wall at times hehe.

hi charly - I spent 20 years in nottingham and loved every minute... it has the best shops outside of London and a real sense of community - ever person you meet says 'eh up duck' and treats you warmly ... ok there are sections where drugs and knife crime rule but then my advice is to saty outta those areas... 🙂 So glad that you are finding peace and translating that into your dealings with others... I am still learning to do that and it is good to feel more in control. Makes for a happier holistically well rounded person - at least that's what they say on Trisha. Have a great week - thinking of you forging ahead - bests JG

Hi Charley

Thak you for your suport and advice it was lovingly received..

You have had so much to cope with and you are doing this you are kicking a** and that is insperation to me..

You are a wonderful Mum who has so much love to give others..So sending you some love becaue you deserve some love every day xx

Keep doing what you are doing Charley xx

All My love

Lucy

xxx

thanks charley for the advise and the verse you sent how true is that stay safe steve

Hi Charly i know what its like to have a family member ill my dad not well but as you said atleast he is close by must be hard for you hun . You have shown so much strength in your recovery while still reaching out to help others . Keep doing what your doing your a lovely person who has got the love and respect of everyone big hugs to you hun xxx

charly

life is a journey, and you are living it! thanks for the input on my diary

safe travels..........................

jeff

Hi Charly,

Good to see you staying focussed despite the many wee problems life throws at you. A sure sign of a lady on determined to succeed and regain full control of her life.

Very best wishes to you Charly and your family

Hi Charly, thanks for your post, how true it is. Wishing you a great, peaceful weekend and best wishes to all your family too.

Keith xx

Hi Charly

Just wanted to say hello and thank you.

I am in a bad position at this moment because after about 7 - 8 yars and god knows how much money. I want to stop.

I will look for your posts as you are certainly getting on top of your life and as you say living it to enjoy it.

Hi Diary

It's been a while.

I was right about Mum. She had her op which wasn't really an op but a checkup with a heart catheder to see what her pump is up to.

Mum's back home now and things have only got slightly worse. I told her she can be pleased that she has received her M.O.T. certificate for another year.

I spent the last weekend in Coventry with my lovely man. We went to see his sister and her partner. It was fab. As we don't see them often but get on great, we had lots to natter about and we had late nights Friday and Saturday. We came back early enough Sunday for me to attend my G.A. meeting as always. It was an open meeting and my partner came to. We celebrated someone's 1 year pinning(Funny word that- when I first heard it I wondered what on earth they were going to do to the poor person - the mind boggles)

Things are good. Am going to Havnat G.A. tonight for way of change.

Hence I haven't had time to read any of the other posts, but I'll try and do that tomorrow.

In the meantime y'all take care and y'all stay strong. You're all in my prayers for together we can do this, alone we can't.

God Bless

Charly

Hi Charly....glad you had such a nice time, and glad to hear about your Mum not too bad.

I love weekends away etc, it really brings it home what good times we can have once we stop and have our heads screwed on and can start enjoying life.

Im off to GA later too, i enjoy other meets , meeting new people and hearing different therapies. I get a lot from it.

Best wishes

Keith x

HI Charley

Sorry things are slighlty worse for your mum but pleased that she has passed her MOT for a year and her pump is in owrking order and ready to face the next 12mths..She sounds like a strong lady just like her daughter..

Sunds like you had a blast at the weekend..I love late night chats over a botlle of wine or two with great compay - thats is priceless..

Have a great night at GA tonight xx

All My Love

Lucy

xxx

hi charly thankyou for your kind words and i am sorry to hear about your mum i cannot wright mutch at the moment due to my work comitments i will do on my next four days off sat to wed night and if i feel the need to gambil i will log on to gamecare i need to read alot more diaries but they allways make me so sad my wife is going out on a girlenight out sat so i will sit here and read alot more with a big box of hankies must go all the best and keep safe steve