Hi Sabine,
Sorry to hear you have had a rough patch but as ever you are working on eveything and you will keep going I know.
I so agree with your post its a work in progress and often very hard work but its all we can do to recover ourselves. I have posted today for the first time in a while. Some might think Ive been a little harsh but sympathy has its place and sometimes practicality is better. I know what I mean but its not coming out right lol.
I think of you often my friend and admire you so very much.
Take care and I hope 2011 is a kinder year for you and your family.
love W xxx
Hi Sabine
Thanks so much for your post.
Hope you are OK and that things work out with your family.
I know from reading your diary that GA has been an important part of your recovery and that's great.
From my own perspective, GA is not an organisation that could possibly help me.
I am a member of a newly formed organisation that I will not type the name of because if I do I am likely to be banned from this site.
Just like the great GA did when I mentioned the newly formed organisation on their site.
Sabine you are an icon to many including me but those people at GA seriously need to come out of the 1950's and wake up to reality!
Love
David
Hi Sabine.
Hope alls well with you and your family and i really do hope that your son and main man have sorted things out.
Wishing you all the best.
Viggo.
Hope your taking care of YOU Charly girl, the other stuff will resolve itself soon i hope.
With love to you
TC
Kim x
Hi Sabine.
Really hope alls well.
Wishing you all the best.
Viggo.
Hi There
Sorry Viggo and Kim for not seeing this sooner, I was away at the weekend.
No, sadly things have not improved on the home front.
My boy is still staying at his friend's house; my man is waiting for my son to come round to talk and my son is waiting for my man to say he's sorry before he does...
And me..I'm just upset; fed up being in the middle and still haven't put up any Christmas decorations because I feel more like running away then celebrating Christmas.
However, I now have all the stuff out of the loft and I try and make an effort to put them up.
I have my hospital check up on Christmas Eve and am hoping and praying that they will tell me all is still as it was 2 months ago.
My Mom's dementia is getting worse by the day and it upsets me that I am so far away and all is left to my younger sister to deal with, which isn't fair on her.
i just haven't got the energy to do anything at the moment.
You know, when someone says they have - "lost the will to live" - yeah, I can understand that now. It takes real effort to get up and do anything. I am just so very grateful to have my little job.
My Mom taught us well, because I still get up on time to do that...at least...
No up and go to do anything... it's all a too much at the moment, even writing this...
It will pass, I know...I will just feel it all for now and when I'm done with it I will get shot of it and let it go...
I read a lot, it keeps me sane through all this pain...
Thanks for you concerns.. I will update again soon.
God Bless and stay gamble free as that is not a solution for anything, It would only make matters more complicated and more painful.
Sabine xx
you are not alone sabine...no matter what life throws at you,you have been there for us my friend....sorry to read things are still a little difficult on the home front..i must admit i do worry about if anything happens to my parents that im too far away....concentrate on yourself though,thats a big appointment on christmas eve...you are in my thoughts x
Hi Sabine..
The way you cope with the trials and tribulations of life without gambling is admirable.. a big well done to you! 🙂
As am sure you have said to me several times.. gambling is not a solution for anything, anything at all. Your so right!
In time your man and your boy will settle their differences.
Thoughts are with you with your hospital check up.
Keep updating when you feel able. Your diary, your companion in recovery.
Warm regards.. S.A 🙂
You are a beautiful person Sabine, I sincerely hope that things improve for you very soon.
I think its a good sign that you are letting yourself feel the pain, and working through it, it has always stood you in good stead.
lots of love, all of this will pass,
f x
Charly,just a quick message wishing you every good fortune with your hospital tests.
Best of thoughts to you.
Seano.
Morning Sabine,
Just been catching up with your diary my friend. I am sorry I have neglected you!
Family and life eh....gets in the way of living lol. B l o o d y childen...nothing but heartache at times. I don't want to go on about my problems with children on your diary but what the heck...it may make you feel like you aren't the only one eh sweetie? My daughter is being a pain in the a r s e........18 and knows it all. She moved out at 17...came back tail between legs......then went again to live with a complete chav and his family...and is now messing with my head because I seem to be almost begging for her to come to see me.........it's not just you you see...it's going on everywhere. Things will settle down for you soon and everything will be forgotten. Our 21 year old did a karate kick in P's face a few years ago and they are now the best of friends, so things can turn round.
You are a brilliant person...remember that.
Enjoy Christmas....that's an order hahaha!
Love to you......Jas xx
Will be thinking of you tomorrow Sabine.
with love,
f x
Thinking of you for tomorrow my friend. xx
thinking of you today....put yourself 1st for a change x
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