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Good luck for tomorrow Sabine. You won't be able to see me, but I will be there holding your hand.

Its funny how we never wonder 'what if' its all ok? 'what if' there will be good news? Just remember that devil in your head, talks in a very one-sided way.

Take care, big hugs,

f x

Hope all went well Sabine.

We're all gunning for you!

Take care my friend.

Viggo.

Hello Lovely Sabine,

I hope all has went well today. Thinking of you.

Love Del xox

Ahhh... Bless you all, you lovely people. Big Hug to each of you, Mwah. Thank you so much for your thoughts and prayers. Scan done, and as I have decided to put my positive head on, I am going to try and follow my own advise and enjoy each day until next Friday which is when I will get the results. I am going to assume that things are not too big, because they didn't call the Oncologist straight away. Must be ok then to wait a week. If I keep saying that to myself I believe I may just get through this week without driving myself nuts. I just wish they did things here like they do in Germany. When you go for a scan there, a doctor sees you straight after and discusses the scan with you to avoid worrying. I might suggest that although with all the cuts I dunno if they can do this here. It would help patients alot me thinks. So here goes a week of keeping as busy as my body will let me. You all have a gamble free weekend. Sending lots of love and Hugs to all of you. God Bless. Sabine. xx

I think it was a good sign too. I really wish you didn't have this wait either, but things are obviously not looking extremely dire, or as you say they would have been straight on the phone to the big cheese.

Will be thinking of you this week.

Take care,

f x

Hi Sabine.Thanks as ever for your posts.

Mean alot.

Could be some good news for you.Really hope so.Even though i have never met you i can feel your inner strenght and caring nature.Its wonderful.

You are one strong person and i hope you know that.

Sending some positive thoughts your way.

Have a great weekend you and your family.

You deserve it.

All the very best.

Hugs sent.

Viggo.

ps...i think you should be called "Queen" of the diaries!

That's one thing over and done with for you.

Now have a lovely weekend with your family, you deserve it!

Sending all my virtual positive thoughts your way.

GT

Freda, Viggo, GT - Thank you, God Bless xxx

Had a long heart to heart with my angel last night. It did us both good I think. We put the proper western lamp(paraffin) up at the weekend and it now proudly hangs above my dining table. So I decided to cook a nice meal and sit at the table with the lamp on, instead of sitting in the front room watching tv.

We never get to talk there and it is very important to talk as I keep finding out.

There were things I didn't realise were worrying and upsetting my angel and equally there were thing that were upsetting me and my angel was unaware of them. Me thinks, as we both like the atmosphere the lamp produces, we will be eating at the table a lot in future, 🙂

There are 3 posts from Hazelden today. I like them both, I haven't posted in a few days and I think they are equally important in my recovery and as always I love to share these with you.

Have a good gamble free week

God Bless

Sabine xx

Today's thought(1) from Hazelden is:

I find it awfully hard to give myself a break. I don't know where that attitude comes from.

--Walker I.

"I can't. I shouldn't. It's my fault." These self-abasing and self-defeating thoughts are expressions of shame. Because repeated thoughts turn into beliefs and long-held beliefs turn into actions, thoughts rooted in shame can lead to tragedy.

People who live in shame come to believe that it is not okay to make a mistake. They imagine they should know what to do without having to learn it. They think their wrong judgments mean they themselves are wrong.

But it is human to make mistakes. If we acknowledge we are human, we are defining ourselves as people who always have something to learn (Thomas Edison failed to perfect the light bulb until his ten-thousandth try). We are saying we have to keep going if our plans don't work out right away (Walt Disney went bankrupt seven times before he met with success).

"Thou shalt not be human" is the command of shame. What rubbish! How can we be anything else? Why would we want to be?

I pray I will live comfortably with human limitations. I will try to accept from myself what I accept from others.

You are reading from the book:

Days of Healing, Days of Joy by Earnie Larsen and Carol Larsen Hegarty

Today's thought(2) from Hazelden is:

Ordinary moments ... they in turn enrich our lives

Our spiritual life is on the same plane as our everyday relationships. It's not just something within our mind or feelings, and it's not just lofty and in the clouds. Spirituality is between people and in all relationships. Its growth depends on the way we relate to each other as intimate partners. We find it in our relationship to ordinary things like the bread we eat and the water we drink. Spirituality is found in the ways we honor our body with food and touch, work and rest, and in the ways we honor each other.

We jointly extend our spirituality through relationships with others. As we become friends with others or as we welcome people into our home, we receive them with hospitality because God is found in each of them. When we reach out to others or receive them as guests, they in turn enrich and bless our lives. This spiritual practice of hospitality has ancient roots all over the world. It teaches us to relate with generous hospitality to all guests who appear at our door.

Do something generous for someone today.

You are reading from the book:

The More We Find In Each Other by Merle Fossum and Mavis Fossum

Today's thought(3) from Hazelden is:

I will love you no matter what. I will love you if you are stupid, if you slip and fall on your face, if you do the wrong thing, if you make mistakes, if you behave like a human being - I will love you no matter.

--Leo Buscaglia

Wouldn't it be nice if there were just one person in our lives who loved us no matter what our faults? And wouldn't it be equally nice if we, too, could love just one person in the same way?

Love is not an easy emotion for us to feel. In the past we may have associated feelings of love with negative feelings such as pain, hurt, rejection, or disappointment. But we can put the negative feelings aside and learn how to feel love as a positive emotion.

Love does not necessarily mean sexual attraction or commitment. Love can simply be seeing someone for who he or she is, whether that person is a friend, coworker, boss, family member, or lover. To show love, we can keep our actions simple - by making a phone call, writing a letter, or sharing a hug. Let's show someone we care.

You are reading from the book:

Night Light by Amy E. Dean

Hello my friend. I understand you have sent me your e mail address. Thank you. I have sent a test e mail but the address doesn`t seem right.

In my thoughts.

Graham

Will be thinking of you tomorrow, gorgeous xxx

Same here Sabine..will be thinking of you

Love Del xo

Hello my friends. Hospital results are ok. The cancer levels have gone up to 357.2. But... it's all good. because the cancer is still contained in the lymphnodes around my body. All other organs are healthy, Yiphee! I start chemo beginning of March. Once a week for 3 wks then 1 wk off for 3 months. If it works I'll have the same again and with God's will and grace this will be it. Thank you for caring and praying for me. God Bless. Sabine xx

Hi Sabine.

Now if anyone on here deserves a bit of good news its you!

I know your cancer is still there but like you say all your other organs are ok.

Thats great.

Take care my friend and have a great weekend with your family.

All the best

Viggo.

Great news and you must be so relieved!

Have a lovely weekend.

GT

Hi Sabine... good and positive news I see.. thats great to see. Physical illness really puts life into perspective doesn't it. My family has always been so lucky when it comes to physical ailments, including myself, to the extent that none of us have ever had a dibilitating physical illness.

However having said that my sister in the last couple of months has been plagued by certain symptoms that maybe indicative of a degnerative illness. She is going to have all these tests etc etc.. we are of course all worried.

It gets me thinking about how selfish and immature my bahaviour with gambling has been over the years especially when put into context of physical illness.

Anyways well done on your continued recovery despite all the hurdles you have had no choice but to jump over and continue jumping over. Regards.. S.A 🙂