[Closed] Charly's life

Today's thought from Hazelden is:

"You silly thing," said Fritz, my eldest son, sharply, "don't you know that we must not settle what God is to do for us? We must have patience and wait His time."

--Johann R. Wyss

The story of the shipwrecked Robinson family is a lesson in patience. It was years before their rescue. They didn't know what their fate would be on the unfamiliar island. Yet they survived every day by working together and keeping strong faith in a Power greater than themselves.

We are certainly far from the adversities faced by that family. But at times we may feel our lives would be better if our Higher Power would do what we wanted. How many times have we prayed as hard as we could for something we felt we needed?

Today might have been one of those days where we felt our prayers weren't answered. But we need to remember our prayers are heard. Now it is up to us to Let Go and Let God.

Have I tried to be in control of my Higher Power today? How can I Let Go and Let God?

Hi my friends. Thank you so much for your kind words and prayers. Like it says in my previous post. Let go and let God. I went to hospital Tuesday. They stopped the chemo for now. No point poisoning my body if it's not doing anything. Levels are now 670 and rising. I have a date with the ct scanner on Monday. Next mtg with doctor is scheduled for the 17th June. Spoke with cancer nurse. As scan is Monday, she'll bring date with doctor forward. Too long to wait. I was asked how I feel about going to the Royal Marsden Cancer Clinic in London for trials. I said I would try anything to get shot of this horrible "C" stuff. Am organising will, cremation, service and getting all details together so my family doesn't have to deal with things, just in case. Have written down all the usernames and passwords also and the request to let my cyberfriends know. Gotta be practical. Once I get all this out of the way, I can concentrate on getting better. Enjoy recovery and keep smiling. God Bless. x

have been thinking about you sabine. . Just dont know what to say :,-(

God bless you my friend . One terriffic person . Sabine , I don`t know what to say . My love to you .xx

Hi Sabine.

My heart go's out to you.You are in my thoughts.

Viggo.

Hello Lovely Sabine,

How are you today? I hope your not pushing yourself too hard and that your asking for help. I know you want to sort things but please be easy on yourself and rest up when need be. I'm glad to hear the cancer nurse is sorting out a sooner appointment and I hope she is a good support for you.

I'm thinking about you alot.

Love Del xox

Hello (((Sabine)))

You never fail to amaze me girl.

Nearly every time I have read a diary entry from you over the years there is always something that touches me, at some level, no matter the subject.

Of late your journey has been so very hard for you to walk.... but you still walk it so very well on these pages. You are so brave and selfless, always thinking of others. I wish I had a tiny bit of your strength of character.

I don't think that I am wrong to say that you have... without doubt... helped hundreds of people in some way through either meeting you in your daily life, at GA or reading through your words here at gamcare.

Many people will have taken something from your life story & recovery words to help them with their own life journey. The strength and your outlook I imagine comes from your faith. It serves you well my friend, as support & guidance.

Even I have prayed Sabine! For him to remove your pain and the great burden that you carry. I feel he has 'tested' you enough already. You have so much more to do and experience yet, in this life. He needs to give you a break.... We need you more!

Good for you for getting the practicalities of death dealt with... and done with, so to speak. Now you are free... free to get on with living.

Love to you & yours Sabine

Jackie xxx

You always inspire and amaze me Sabine, as Jac said you have inspired so many of us,definitely me for sure.

Am thinking of you now as always,sending you love and gentle hugs.

Take great care my friend.

Enjoy all the time with your angel as I do with mine, love to him too.

W xxxx

Bless you all my wonderful gamcare friends for your kind words. It makes my journey so much easier knowing you are walking it with me. Love to you all. xx Today I have my date with the scanner. Then, I go and find my cancer nurse and see when they can book me in to see the doctor to discuss scan and what to do next. Patience! I received a message from my american, singer friend this morning. I asked him to record a song for me for the service and he agreed to it. Bless him. I feel so very blessed my friends. It's incredible how at peace I feel. I have already been given 2 extra years and only God knows how may more I shall be granted. I know I have tried to do my best to make amends and be the best person I can be. I know I am helping others by sharing my journey. It's a pleasure and a privilege to be able to do so. Thank YOU gamcare, Safe Harbor and most of all, G.A. Without your guidance I would have not been able to make the changes I have made and for that I shall be forever grateful. God Bless. Sabine

Morning Sabine,

Have always followed you but hands up that recently I haven't felt able to read your posts as I was a coward and was afraid of what I may read.

Sometimes I feel words aren't enough. There is something greater than we are and whatever will be, will be. This is only the beginning for you lovely girl.

Here's my hand....you are welcome to hold on tight when and if you need to.

Love from Jas x

lump in my throat wi that last entry sabine :,-( you are one amazing person. X

Hello my gamcare friends. Thank you for your kind messages. My news aren't that good. We went the hospital today to see what's what. The report from radiographer wasn't there only the scan pictures and the doctor couldn't comment on them without it. We're to go back next Friday. Although the results are not in, the rise of the CA125 blood level suggests that the cancer is here to stay and it is something we will all have to learn to live with. The doctor is putting in a request for palliative care, in aid for us to learn to live with it. There is still the option to go to London for trials but I have to give my body the chance to get over the latest chemo. Am trying really hard to keep my positivity. My Angel is amazing. With combined strength we are hoping to keep this at Bay as long as possible. Love to You all xx

Hi Sabine

Just want you to know you are in my thoughts and that with out people like yourself i wouldn't have been gamble free today.

Sending some cyber hugs your way.

Viggo.

Sabine . I wanted to post as soon as I read your post . I showed my Angel and we are both thinking of you . You are a person dear to me . Not had that coffee yet but we will .

An inspiration to many folk , kindness , and so many people today lack all of that .

What can I say but positive thoughts from a less than perfect man . Hunny , my thoughts are with you .

The one thing I know is you are a positive lady and I believe you will overcome this . Sending love from Angie and myself .

Graham

Hi Sabine,

Just wanted to send you hugs and love.

Make sure you don't push yourself to post, and rest as much as you need to.

Take care,

f x