Christmas is coming and I cannot believe my thoughts now in comparison to this time last year!
Last year I HAD to gamble because I had lost so much I couldn't afford presents and I HAD to keep up the pretence of having money to burn in my successful career....you know what the result was- lost the lot and had to lie and say "somethings come up blah blah blah".
Now I accept that I cannot buy everyone everything I wanted. But at least this year everyone will get a present and I certainly appreciate smaller things at the moment because they are things I have gone without for so long.
Went out Friday and got offered to go the casino when we were drunk. I said no and I remember almost sobering up when I was asked the question. It's almost as if my brain said keep your guard up and your wits about you and stay strong.
44 days is a drop in the ocean of how many days I want to not gamble (forever) but I feel strong. Walk past the bookies and no probs, see the ads on tv and no probs.
I haven't been on as much as I would like but I woukd definitely like to post more and and try help others realise that once these days build up it start to get easy and the misery does start fade.
Good luck to you all out there you have given me some brilliant advice hope everyone's doing well
Always good to look back when we find ourselves in the position we hoped to be in.
I find it helps to think about and answer the questions others ask on these boards as much as it helps me to ramble on my own diary. Keeps me focused on what needs to be done to help in recovery. Well done for 44 days, keep at it 🙂
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