The urge is not happening and there's no point in waiting for it CL... Whilst your thinking about it, your aware.... It will hit you when you least expect it. That will then test how good your barrier's that you set actually are.
Reading your diary, your already an inspiration to many and alot of people are in awe of you, so please refrain from the devil 🙂
Had a very productive day today,
It was good to take my time and organise some stuff that needed doing for a while.
My back is feeling it now though :P
Its good to feel a sense of accomplishment 🙂
Scambling
Scambling that back pain is your reward for getting things done. Like when you have worked out in a gym the next day the muscles ache its a reward your body saying thank you for making me stronger. If you are thinking of your back pain then your mind is off the gambling pain. So i hope your back hurts a little longer... in a good way of course lol. Keep going bud im here with you all the way,
Haha, that is a good way to sum it up, thanks CL 🙂
Day 116,
Not much to report today. Feeling positive again and perhaps the biggest thing is this Saturday will amount to 4 months free 🙂
The longdst period I will have ever stopped for over 7 years, previously as far as I can remember the longest I had stopped was 2 months.
I am however confident that I will continue to stay away as this time I have stopped because I wanted to and now my debts have been sorted out I have no reason to chase quick easy money anymore.
Thanks all,
Scambling
Day 118
Sleep, followed by a boring day at work... Nothing interesting happened today, but im content with that. Looks like I had just an average day like the average person 😀
Day 119
Nothing to report, no thoughts, no dreams, no nightmares, no gambling!
No going back now!
🙂
Scambling
Scambling,
Mate listen you played a major part the other day def not minor. Your words ring home that's the reason im here, people like you! i need them in my life shame it's only over a web server and not down the pub to share our stories and egg each other on. I just came here to say a massive thank you. Was quite a hard day for me to resist when i was feeling low but battled through it. If only we could do this 100% for the rest of our lives. Saying that i will continue to do that try be 100% free of it. Congrats on getting through boring days and staying free.
CasinoRoyaLoser
Hi scambling
Thanks for your words on the challenge they really helped and will done on getting through some tough times also. It's amazing how that gambling demon thinks it can worm it's way back in when we are feeling low. Well not today!
Thanks again x
Linda
Hi guys,
Thanks for your replies. My goal was to help other's in the same situation as me, but I knew first I had to help myself.
Im so happy that my word's have aided you to maintain your recovery and realise/remember what gambling actually does to us as people, regardless of the financial impact.
Keep strong, see you on the challenge thread 😀
Thanks again for the post Scambling 15 days for me and do not even have many urges... very early days in my recovery but at least the urges are not nagging away at me..
CL
Thanks for the post Scambling & well done on staying gamble free. Blocks are a funny thing, I`ve got them in place, but I`ve found that due to years of practise I can get round most of them when the need to gamble becomes to strong. The only good thing about them is they substantially limit my losses when the gambling takes over. So the bottom line is I can`t rely on blocks its more about me making the right choices when the time comes. So far I`ve failed but the next time...who knows.
Day 124
Hi all,
Sorry I havn't posted in a couple of days. I have been busy in my personal, filled with ups and downs again, however that is no excuse. I just didn't feel like coming on here to post to be honest.
I did go to my GA meeting on Sunday, which was good, as I havn't been for 4 or 5 weeks. I did feel VERY tempted to go to a casino the other night, after having a dispute/misunderstanding with somebody close to me in my life and spending more than I really should have on a night out. I would have only have gone because I was angry at the situation at the time and also felt I should'nt have spent so much money. Luckily for me, I didn't go and got past the urge, but at least I had barrier's in place in term's of my money.
Anyway, I am feeling much better hence the reason I am posting today. Going to catch up on some diarie's and hope your all well.
Scambling
Hi Scambling - Congratulations on your 124 days of sanity. I know exactly what you mean about the urge to gamble after an upset with a close one - felt like that today, but ate three digestive biscuits instead!
Glad you are feeling better - keep going!
Joanna
Only 3??? I would have eaten the whole packet... lol
Thanks for your post Joanna and stay strong 🙂
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