Day 1 after a huge relapse

I hope u feel better soon mate 

Hi Peter

Sorry to hear of your relapse. No money, no way of paying everyday bills & a feeling of utter dispair. I know mate I must have felt those feelings for a thousand nights & more during the almost 5 decades I wasted on gambling. It's hard to accept that whatever you've lost isn't coming back but it's true.

Think of the casinos & gambling den bosses & ask yourself if they are concerned about you or your pradicament, I doubt it & they are probably working on improving their market strategies to attract & create the next generation of habitual loosers as we speak. No matter how bad your financial situation is you'll never gamble your way out of it, By attempting to do so you're simply dancing to their tune.

I'm sure you've been advised about handing finances over to someone close to you & living on basic expenses. It isn't humiliating it's liberating for a CG. A wise man told me when i first came here it's impossible to have too many blocks in place. I'm sure you're not in a good place right now but should temptation come calling again maybe rememberting this day will help you resist. Everyone's rock bottom is different but if this is yours that can only be a good thing.

Sincere Best Wishes

AL

What he said ^^^! Just see it as another step on the road to recovery, I think slipping up is pretty common. What matters is what you do after, how you get back up. When you next feel the urge come on here, talk to gamcare on chat, post, read other people's stuff. It does help.

You got this 💪 

@qjadze2rxg thanx I hope so because today has been a pure torture. No hope just pain .

@slowlearner thanx

@aoxbg6d3ji  I remember when the urge came I forgot about all the pain and why I can’t gamble , I went and lost every dollar I had again for the milion times , today was brutal I felt exhausted , depressed , no hope , no future , hoping tomorow will be a little bit better day

The fact that you started this thread says a lot about you, Peter. Coming back after a failure and speaking openly about what happened shows how determined you are to recover. Unfortunately, a lot of newbies don’t get the benefit of picking themselves up and continuing after relapsing. They feel down or ashamed to return to the forum and fall back into old behaviors. It’s sad to read that relapsing caused financial damage for you - that’s tough. But the best thing you can do now is learn from it so this experience makes you more resilient.

What really happened? Why did it happen? What triggered you? What was wrong with your blocks? How were you feeling at different stages of the process? Answering these questions for yourself is crucial.

Take care.