Day 1 - being honest with myself

Thanks Suzanne. Well the sun is shining and im sitting in the conservatory looking out into the garden at all I achieved yesterday (i have the aches to prove it as well and a sore ear where some insect decided to take a taste) and it suddenly occurred to me i feel free, free of the urge to gamble. Im not saying im 'cured' I know I could so easily slip back, but at this moment in time, tea in hand, sun shining, i feel so content, rather that sitting oblivious to whats going on around me while I throw hard earned money away on slots. It feels so good, life is good. I will try to continue to abstain and get back to the real me 🙂 TODAY I WILL NOT GAMBLE

Hey s

Great minds think alike I am sitting in my conservatory drinking tea too lol and I feel the same

Feels great doesn't it

Why would we gamble today well we won't

It's a lovely sunny day enjoy the day

Suzanne xx

It feels GREAT Suzanne, like Ive won already today. So now to tackle the ironing, then trip out then on my own til 9, will i be tempted to gamble? , maybe I'll have the odd urge, thought, call it what you will but I think I'll remember how good I feel right this minute! xx

Going great guns, stay strong and keep focused and you will achieve what you want. Ty for your support

Take care and best wishes

Cheryl xxx

Today feels so good, Ive ironed, hoovered house through, been shopping , now relaxing and not even tempted to gamble even though for some reason my inbox has been bombarded with bonus offers from gambling sites, 8 in total so far, seems like Im being tested but I just deleted them without a thought, made me angry to even see them there. I feel that even if I was tempted Id be so disgusted that id probably not sleep. I feel free, didnt know I had this much willpower, Im probably rambling but for the first time in ages I feel like Im getting somewhere, enjoying my free time more. onwards and upwards TODAY I WILL NOT GAMBLE X

Well done S and thanks for sharing your days like you I get bloody gambling offers each and every day in my inbox but just delete them and in my head say"f***f" it's nearly a month for me but payday was only 2 days ago so very early days but keep strong your doing brilliant x

Good Morning Diary Day 23, TODAY I WILL NOT GAMBLE. cant believe Ive got this far without a relapse and if Im being honest its the thought of self loathing and disgust Id feel if I did gamble again. So TODAY I WILL NOT GAMBLE XX

Morning S

Ty for the virtual hug much appreciated, well done on 23 days abstaining you need to be proud of yourself. Keep focused and stay strong

Take care and best wishes

Cheryl xxx

Hi mate,

Thanks for the post on my diary, came at a really good time as I was feeling pretty down about relapsing.

Sounds like you are doing really well, the urges will get less and less as time goes on, this is the hardest bit so stay strong, life is so much better without gambling! Life is hard enough without this self inflicted stress!

Take care mate

James

Thanks James. I hope yr feeling bit better today.

Good Morning Diary. Day 23 TODAY I WILL NOT GAMBLE. Thought about it mind you when I got up. Just 20 wont hurt, then I thought yes it flaming will! undo all that good work, so no TODAY I WILL NOT GAMBLE x

Hi S

23 days well done

20 indeed would hurt

Keep going and stay strong and positive

Suzanne xx

Hi S well done on day 23 and keep strong you know just 20 will hurt you badly and well done for deciding not if like myself you know that just 20 will start that destructive spiral again and like myself maybe only 20 today but how much more the next time etc etc be proud of yourself mate x

Good Morning Diary. Day 24 TODAY I WILL NOT GAMBLE. Weird Dreams again last night that have nothing to do with gambling but about people I have lost from my life recently. Dont know if this is because I think my own cancer is back and Ill find that out the end of this month.... Strange im rambling a bit about something that hasnt anything to do with gambling but in a way it does. I gamble to forget the cancer, while im watching those reels go round wishing for a bonus to trigger maybe a big win im not thinking for those few seconds about wat im facing... Anyway TODAY I WILL NOT GAMBLE X

Hi S

24 days is great

Keep gong staying strong positive and safe

Suzanne xx

Well done S! Keep going. Be strong. Helen. X