Debt 2017

Day 22 - 3 weeks

Thought a lot about my extended gamble free period last year and the point in which I justified going back and trying to prove to myself I could 'control it'. I've always known I can't control it. A new life is in the works, it's not easy, but anything worth having never is. New cash card account is working, had to put some things back today as didn't have enough cash on me but still have enough in the bank to eat till next pay day - winning.

Hi Rednow, I've been following your dairy closely as I know exactly what you mean when you say we can't control this. You're going great guns, one day at a time as always!

Thanks mixer and I see you are really embracing change as well. Good work.

For anyone who may have missed the the recent admin post

https://www.surveymonkey.co.uk/r/ JB733LH

lets get that blanket exclusion enforced

Gamble Free 2017!!

Ive just filled in the survey hope it comes into force and helps out so many people who are at that brick wall x and most of all i hope it works as its suppost too . I also think the limit on self excluding should be increased to add permanently as how many gamblers ever get cured none we all live with it for the rest of our lives
I certainly dont ever want to be allowed back on the sites but again in 5 years ill have to self exclude from them all again just as a safety net x anyway hope your days been well keep fighting your doing brilliant

Thumbs up x

First day I've thought about/had an urge. Feeling run down and a cold coming so just looking for a distraction and comfort. How rediculous that my Brain associates gambling with comfort! Not happening. I'm happier as a non gambler

More urges today but I know it's just cos I'm run down. Triangle is broken and not even looking for ways to fulfill that feeling.

Hi Rednow, hope you didn't give in to those urges. You are right, it is because you are run down and feeling a bit s**t with time on your hands etc and that's OK. If you stay strong and battle through it will become easier in time.

That's the thing about not gambling - we still have to deal with everyday c**P - just we used to try and make ourselves feel better by escaping to gambling. You don't need me to tell you it doesn't end up making you feel any better in the long run.

Stay strong mentally and feel better soon!

Whoop 4 weeks Hun x

U deserve to treat yourself too.

I rewarded myself with a half price massage.

4 weeks 1 day 🙂

I do deserve a treat. Want to stay on track and preparing for future reassurance. If OH starts gambling again (he's taking a break ATM) will call gamcare and discuss further counselling and invite him to discuss impact.

Well done Hun x a week is fantastic, remember right back at the beginning when you were doing 12 hr and 24 hr rewards. We've come a long way 🙂 my situation is so similar, I was the sensible one, good with money. I think my reason for getting In this mess started with fear of him losing so trying to win where he lost (resiculous isn't it) and then resentment cos he would be glued to his phone so if you can't beat em, join em mentality ensued. Our coping mechanism are complex notions. It practically turned in to a form of self harming?!

Done with hurting myself because I'm afraid of what might happen in a situation which is out of my control, but could/will impact on my quality of life.

No fear! No more beating ourselves up for not being 'the good ones'. Milestones and rewards is where we're at now!! 🙂

A whole calendar month achieved

Proud red. Glad to be back and having your support and seeing how u r doing too. Our stories really echo each other. Xxxx