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Hi Ade,

You are right man. We just do not need that S***e in our lives any more. I'm so glad to see you in such good spirits. Keep racking up the days. The more space we put in between us and hell the better life gets. -joanxxx

Morning Ade,

Hope this finds you well.

Thanks for your post.

Keep doing what you are doing and you'll get there.

Limited funds could be the answer. However, take care. When I gambled, if my wallet was at home, it just meant that I had to stop by to pick it up, which further stressed me out as it took up precious gambling time.

Best wishes.

Gazza

Thanks for the posts of support Rach, Joan and Gazza.

Day 8 for me today. Feeling good, just finishing work and getting ready to go home and enjoy the sun....

Keep strong all.

Ade

8 days without gambling so far for me.

Today I had no real desire to gamble, although there was a point on my journey home from work where some doubt entered my mind at a traffic light junction where in the past the car would have gone straight on, instead of the right turn I need to make to go straight home.

For a few seconds I actually contemplated a bet.

I struggle at times to wonder why? Why would I ruin a good week without gambling?

Only 10 minutes prior to this event I had posted my previous post about feeling good.

The mind can often play the most peculiar tricks on me at time. It really is annoying. This gambling habit really is engrained in me deep deep down. Stopping is the easy bit, it is the staying stopped where I really need to concentrate on, and for my own sanity get some kind of understanding of this mind change that occurs quite randomly.

I did not act on this sudden urge and successfully steered the car home without any gambling detours. So 8 days have passed for me without gambling.

My stomach still feels slightly knotted from todays events. Maybe it's a cold turkey type side effect of stopping. I am no longer feeding my addictive nature with it's pepetual fix.

One day at a time I look to gain strength. It can be tough at times, and yet at other times I feel like gambling is not part of my life anymore.

I have managed 4 months gamble-free once before, I am determined to just get through Day 9 tomorrow without the feelings I experienced on my journey home tonight.

Posting about this will help me I know.

Keeping strong

Ade

Hey Ade

The good news is that you thought about it but did not act on it ....the thoughts were fleeting and as they say "this too shall pass" ..

I think your right as posting helps to take the edge off the urges I should imagine...I'm similar with raging ..I have strong urges some days and then post on here sometimes hourly to take the heat out of it or I would be getting into trouble as I would find it hard to keep a lid on it and do or say something I may live to regret.

Day 9 will be fine and no doubt sunny down south ..

R and D xx

Thanks for the supportive post Rach.

I think you're right, it does help getting it all down in a post when things are playing on your mind.

Today has been better. A bit stressed at work, but only through other numpties incompetence, as usual! ;0)

Still, "it's only a f******g job isn't it. It's not that important like babies in incubators or cancer", as a work colleague of mine said, to get some perspective on life.

Day 9 has trundled by me really. I do need to get a new book when I get a chance, as I finished my last one last week.

Keep strong all

Ade

Hi Ade

You can get wider fitting heels now you know...they don't pinch as much .....lol ....

Seriously though...I think this countries going through a shoe crisis ..

Hoping work proves better for you today and the numpties behave themselves...

Onwards to day 10

R and D xx

Hi Ade

You can get wider fitting heels now you know...they don't pinch as much .....lol ....

Seriously though...I think this countries going through a shoe crisis ..

Hoping work proves better for you today and the numpties behave themselves...

Onwards to day 10

R and D xx

Thanks Rach (Twice!) lol ;0)

Day 10 came and went in a flash.

Keeping strong

Pay day tomorrow ;0)

Ade

Ade

fella good to see double figures came today.

For it well done.

Fella tomorrow remember that.

It's Ades payday not the f*****g bookies!!!!!

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Thanks Duncs for your supportive post.

Day 11, and those bookies will not be helping me spend my hard earned this month, that I know for sure....

ODAAT

Keep strong

Ade

Thanks Ade ....your post made me chuckle ...I will definitely keep that vision of me whacking the commuters over the head with my mood board..lol including pins!

R and D xx

Thanks for the post Rach. It's good to chuckle! :0)

Day 11 lunchtime and sitting out in the sun. My wages will be in the bank by now but i am quite happy to sit here with my homemade packed lunch and £1.20 in my pocket, rather than rush to withdraw funds to enable me to'have fun'.

Fun it is not anymore. For me now I must keep my distance from my old habits and rituals. I am a compulsive gambler who is choosing not to have that first destructive bet. I am back in control once again.

keep strong all

Ade