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Hey Ade

No worries about reposting back...just a flyer to say I see your "gone fishing " sign and am sending you all good wishes..

R and D xx

Yo,

Was out in my garden the other day and for second though I wonder how Ades doing ?

It brightened my day today to read your last post .

If you are now on holiday hope the weathers fine and your girls are keeping you on your toes .

You sound sooooooo happy and content , rambling not gambling , slam dunk !

Shiny xxxxxxxx

Thanks for the supportive posts ladies. ;0)

Have just returned from a great holiday in Sunny Cornwall. Lots of fun was had by all and gambling has been a million miles from my thoughts.

Even with the start of the Football season, I have been cocooned in my holiday mode.

Building Sandcastles and body boarding have been the order of the day, and sampling a few local ales. As well as watching my girls have the time of their lives.

Keeping strong and staying in control.

Thanks again for the support.

Ade

Morning Ade.

Glad to hear you had a nice holiday-precious time

We're planning a day at the beach tomorrow. The rewards are huge from these family trips/days out.

Stay strong and focus on the important things.

Have a nice weekend mate,

Garza

Thanks for the supportive post Gazza.

Had a great day today, despite the rain.

It's one of those days, where in the past I would have gambled on sad sports betting all day long and thought of little else.

Today my clarity of thought does not allow me to return to that pathetic recurring pattern of behaviour.

Now I have a life again. Stability and purpose.

Keep strong all

Ade

Ade

fella great couple of posts to read.

No sand in sight!!!!

enough said.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Just a reminder......

I AM ADDICTION

I am very patient and I will laugh in your face if I can lure you into my evil world of hell on earth again.

Keep strong all

Ade

Hi Ade,

Wow, that a fantastic and true post....it does shook you up a bit when you read reality on black and white.

I hope you had a lovely bank holiday weekend and just wish you to stay strong and keep fighting this destroying desease.

Take care and well done for staying strong

Sandra x

Thanks for the supportive post Sandra.

Well today has been a blissful day so far. Been in the garden most of the day. The girls have their friends round and the zip-wire is going non-stop with kids whizzing down the garden!

Been picking some carrots and washing them just before the kids eat them.

Sunbathing time now and no need to leave the house at all today.

No gambling thoughts at all. Just logged on here through habit more than anything.

Keeping positive and doing all the right things today.

Ade ;0)

Hey Ade.

Am so jealous of that zip wire already !! My neighbour constructed this mad tyre thing in his field last week ..kids are having a ball with it ....

Great post there and I also can relate a lot to it...false promises and illusions leading to nowhere or being stuck in a prison ..

I am pleased as punch you have no time in your life for gambling as you are too busy living.

R and,D xx

Thanks again for your support Rach.

First day back at work was pretty S***e today. Numpties everywhere in the company I work for. I do despair at others general uselessness.

I am at home now. And content with my lot. I have a cold San Miguel and a family size pack of Doritos!! x

I can watch the football scores unfold tonight without stress and angst as I am sure there will be an upset or two - there always is with the League Cup.

Anyways, time for another beer....... ;0)

Ade

Hey Hun,

Popping in to say Hi and i'm back after a few slips down the ladder,not as bad as last time but need to get a grip,story of my life lol.

Hope your golfballs are well and your ok.

Stay Strong

L xx

Hey You,

Thanks for the post hun,i'm glad to give you a lift,im sorry your not feeling great again,wish i'd been around abit more for your hun,contact details havent changed,still there if you need it.

Stay Strong

L xx

Thanks Lib for your concern.

I am my own worse enemy.

Having got to a very good place in my recovery, I now 'again' sunk to another low.

The return to gambling was greeted with some fantastic wins. As usual my stakes were relatively small. But as I know only too well that it only takes a few good wins to turn me into a gambling moron with no sense of the destruction that will follow.

I was/am contained in a bubble of repetitive gambling episodes that I am struggling to break free from.

I still have money. I am not in debt, but I am starting to realise that this is when I am my most dangerous and my most stupid.

When I first realised that gambling had become a problem (back in 2008) I had debt. I had an overdraft, I had stolen from my daughters savings to feed my addiction.

Fast forward to 2013 and I no longer have debt, I do not have an overdraft, I pay £200 a month into both my daughters savings accounts, but I still have my addiction.

It may come and go, but it is always lurking in the background.

I have hit my own personal low again. My own self esteem is ebbing away. I am in essence two different people. But I know that deep down I do have a genuinely nice nature and surely this has to win over the evil side that eats away at me through addictive gambling sprees.

I have to arrest this slip before too long. I have held back from posting as I do not want self pity and I am not really sure that this forum helps me at times. But I do know that even just writing this post might stop me from gambling today.

Keep strong

Ade

Hi Ade,

Thanks for posting about your woes. They are very similar to mine, except for the debt bit (mine). I too have just come out of a self-destruct bender, after a few big wins initially. My actual gambling methods and systems are reasonably good, but if I start winning on these smaller stakes I just lose all awareness of what money is. I have to raise the stakes and raise the stakes to get the same hit from winning. Eventually, of course, it all ends in tears.

Good luck with your renewed determination. Keep posting, please!