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Thanks for the nudge Ade everythings good in my world mate recovery is indeed possible. like yourself I'm not posting as much but I check in regularly because as Sandra says 'we need to keep learning from the mistakes of others' ..thankfully I haven't the will or want to waste another penny gambling and i can only hope this continues ...hopefully no more wasting for us fella.. saving all my pennies I'm off Friday over to Harwich for the overnight ferry to Holland for a week with the golf balls to a countryside holiday park..stay safe Ade and remain in that winners enclosure...OAU...Ginger

6 months of recovery under your belt Guv'nor...You were absolutely right, recovery is possible - whoop whoop 🙂

6 months of being gamble free, second Junniee Whoop Whoop.

Suzanne xxx

6 months Ade! Well done pal. Keep up the good work. The habit is now broken so there really is no excuse whatsoever for you ever gambling again. Don't get complacent!

All the best.

Curly.

Thanks all for the supportive posts.

6 months indeed. What a great feeling.

Currently on hols at Woburn Forest, Center Parcs. Spending quality time with the family. Golf balls are having a great time. I've tried the segways out, which were great fun!!

Keep strong all

Recovery is possible.......I am living proof of that!!

Ade

Hi Ade,

Glad you're enjoying the holiday, a well deserved one after a period gamble free. Keep reaping the rewards of not gambling, and appreciate all the things you wouldn't have had in case you hadn't been making six months of good decisions. Keep looking after the important things and letting the rest fall in second place.

Ryan

Hi Ade,

Congrats on your amazing achievement, i am a little late but as they say - better late than never 😉

Keep up the good work, enjoy your life because my friend you and yours are soo worth it!
Keep looking after those golf balls!

S x

You're right Guv'nor, I've tasted it 😉

Feel free to drop in on the way back from Centre Parcs...The golf balls can walk the mutt!

I never doubted that recovery was possible just that I was capable! Well, what do you know, I am...We all are - Juuuuuune

P.s: It's your turn...& I'm back in the lead 😉

Thanks for the supportive posts.

Keep strong all

Ade

Hiya Ade

belated congrats on your 6 months (i was away with the golf balls too)

recovery is indeed possible ....i feel I'm in control of my own destiny, just over 6 months ago I used to have to make a conscious decision not to gamble...now I'd have to make a conscious decision to gamble, if that makes sense to others..it's a clear as mud to me, but Junie always said i was the king of cryptic 🙂

don't forget to stock the fridge for the summer house mate, the weekends gonna be a scorcher...OAU..Ginger

Well done Ade

Let me be the 1st to congratulate you on the double Guv'nor...Whoop whoop 200 days 🙂

Thank goodness recovery is possible...Crying shame none of us realised sooner!

Just how big is your garden...Sandra's looking for somewhere to host the Gamcare convention 😉

Whoop whoop!!! 200 days mr golf ball 🙂
Awesome is an understatement (ya have no clue how long that took me to spell ..and prob still wrong lol)

way to go dear soldier and yup yup...how big that garden is? Juuneee sounds to be eager for a party heh heh

All the best and keep it up!

Sandra x

Hi Ade,

200 days is a fantastic achievement, be very proud,

Well done, keep going reaping the rewards of recovery for you and your golf balls.

Recovery sure is possible.

Suzanne xxx

Thank you all for your very kind posts.

I had kind of made a decision at the start of Juuuuuuune, that I would leave my diary and Gamcare behind me and quietly drift away from the forum without any big fanfare of long goodbye speech.

However, I feel that the kindness and warmth of the posts that I have received recently have made me realise that I need to leave in what I believe to be the correct manner and explain my reasons why.

I am currently enjoying my life in a way that I could not have imagined possible just over 6 months ago. Back in November 2014, I had reached my own personal low point. Gambling had become an ever present daily event in my life. It had taken preference over virtually all other things in my life. It was controlling me. Eating away at my sanity. Affecting my moods, my life, my finances, my friendships, my relationships, my job, and more than anything the penny finally dropped (please excuse that inappropriate pun!) when it started to affect my health.

When I was hit by a bout of agonising pleurisy in November, it was a by product of being run down. My general health and well being and indeed my self worth, had conspired to leave me drained and feeling woefully out of sorts. My fitness, which is something I had prided myself on for many years was gone. I hated feeling like that. My anxiety and paranoia made me feel mentally drained too. With hindsight, I should have asked for help. Whether that be medical, mental, whatever.... Just help. Sometimes we all need help and support. I guess being a 45 year old stubborn old fashioned Blokey bloke type doesn't lend itself to asking for help. Especially when outwardly no one would have a clue what was going on between my ears on a daily basis!!

Still, having said all that. I got through the pleurisy and muscoskeltal problems, and came back here to the recovery diary section. I made some great new friends, and re kindled some old acquaintances. I got through December and started the New year in fine fettle. The first five and a half months of 2015 has easily been the best period of my life in the last 10 years. I cannot exactly pinpoint when I started to lose myself in gambling ( metaphorically speaking!), but I now am living once again, rather than existing.

Most importantly for me has been the 100% return of my self-worth. When I was wrapped up in gambling, I had become some kind of sad robotic social misfit. Repetitively following the same sad rituals each day. Withdrawing funds....heading to the bookies...gamble....lose.....(repeat to fade 7 days a week)......

I am so glad that that loser in me has now gone.......for good may I add!

So now looking forward with clarity and focus I can report that I have all but prepared my garden for the imminent arrival of my garden room on 22nd of Juuuuuuuune! It's a Theodore Style Garden room from Dunster House...3.8m x 3.3m. I have dug, concreted, pathed, and prepared the area and have the aching back and blisters to show for it!!

I have busied myself to such an extent, that gambling no longer enters my head now as something I need to do. It used too, don't get me wrong. But now I see it for what it was. A very very dangerous compulsive habit that preys on the week and vulnerable.

I for one, am NEVER going back there. NEVER.

I hope you all enjoy the summer and beyond and all remember that Recovery is possible.

I'm off now to have a nice lunch. Might grill something nice on my George Formby grill! Then I might clean my windows, as it definitely turned out nice again for me!! ;0)

Over and out.

Ade ;0)