Done it AGAIN!!!!

Hi Tina,

Firstly well done on 19 days g free and i can assure you those calm mornings after restful sleep will not stop coming the further you move in your journey.
Also great to see you on a challenge thread and your determination shines through! Little steps will make a huge difference, recovery is bespoke and we all have it in us..the choice is free to make 🙂

As of your dad (congratulations on the lovely 80 by the way!), i believe there is no price tag to show him how much you love him. Your presence, warm smile and total focus on him will be the biggest present anyone can ask for!

Have a good day and keep moving on..you're doing all the right things, be proud!

Sandra x

Thank you Sandra - think the challenge thread will really help me - will keep me focused so massive thanks from me for setting it up.

Day 20 - into my 20s now and can actually start to feel myself getting better and better each day. I know I will still have bad days ahead but just living for the moment and enjoying feeling back to near my old self again.

Got another busy day planned so that should keep any urges at bay.

Enjoy a good and gamble free day everyone

Tina x

Well done on 20 days Tina.

3 weeks tomorrow, that reads good doesn't it .

Suzanne xxx

Day 21 - 3 weeks today and no gambling!!! Yes it does feel good to say that and what an emotional roller coaster it has been. I still know I'm in for a lot of ups and downs but feel ready for it now. Hopefully I will hear from the financial advisor this week and finally get my das sorted and then it will be onwards and upwards (hopefully!!). Kept myself busy today and glad to say had no thoughts or urges to gamble. Tomorrow I have to go into work for one day (I work term time only but have to cover if no one available) and I am kind of looking forward to it as this will keep me occupied and also will be good to get back into the "real world" again (even just for one day) after all that's gone on in my life these past 3 weeks. I think it will sort my head out even more - bring me back to reality if you know what I mean.

Hope everyone has had a good and gamble free weekend and looking forward to another week of the same 🙂

Staying strong

Tina x

Day 30 - wow almost a full month of being gamble free and although still trying to sort out my debt I feel somewhat back to my old self again. My oh seems to have forgiven me again!! I just can't believe how he can when I can barely forgive myself, but he has. He is not bailing me out this time and is leaving me to sort out the debt myself and although this has been very tough on me emotionally, I think it's the best thing he could have done. This time I really am facing up to my problems and my addiction.

Have been thinking of looking into some sort of counselling as well because I know how easy it is to fall back into self destructive ways. Not sure where to start with this but will look into it further when I get through my debt problem.

We are taking the kids away for a few days tomorrow so am looking forward to that - it will be good to get a change of scenery and maybe forget about my troubles at least for a few days.

Hope everyone else is doing well on their journey - haven't been reading any posts as too caught up with my own troubles but hopefully when I start to get things more sorted I will be able to and give some support to others on here as I know the support I have received has really helped me through xxxx.

Tina x

Well done Tina,

You will enjoy your days away because you have a clear conscience now,

Suzanne xxx

Day 40 - the days are really starting to add up and it feels great to say that I am now 40 days of being gamble free. Still not much further forward with getting my dmp sorted as still trying to get together all the documentation the money advisor has asked me for, but have now plucked up the courage to answer the phone to the various missed calls I was continually getting from my creditors and explained to them what I was planning to do. Surprisingly they were very understanding and told me I wouldn't receive any further calls. I don't know what I was expecting or why I was so scared to answer the phone to them in the first place but feel so much better about it all now even though I'm not quite there yet.

I am taking my recovery one day at a time and pushing any thoughts of gambling out of my head. Today I have not gambled and that's what matters for now. Tomorrow I will deal with when it comes.

Stay strong everyone

Tina x

Day 47 - another week done!! Been feeling a bit up and down this week and am thankful for the blocks I have in place to help me through those urges. Have at last gathered all the paperwork needed for the money advisor to set up my dmp so hopefully will see some progress with this in the next week or so and start to really get on with my life again. When I think back to how much time I wasted sitting gambling money I really didn't have I could cry but trying not to dwell on that too much and focus on staying gamble free. One day at a time.

Tina x

47 days Tina, well done you, keep going OAU to a better and wiser gamble free life.

Stay strong and keep guard tightly up.

Suzanne xxx

Hey Tina,

You are well and truly missed on the challenge..how are things with you?

Never forgotten always cared for

S x