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Thank you for your post volcano.

Great point about GA helping with my speaking. I will try to attend when things settle down.

I had become used to reading your posts every day. Look forward to the next update.

Good luck with your first day at work.

Evening bud how's the new job going?

Sorry why I really popped by was to see how you are doing? strange not having your posts floating around.

KTF

Thanks all, its always appreciated and humbling to recieve posts

A quick day count.... 77 days.. Have had a few challenging urges with pretty logical thought arguments to have a few sport punts but kept busy and resisted.

Needed to get away from the forum for a break as am/well aware that I was drifting again and needed to reign myself back in. Knowledge and words are great but action is better....

The job is ok but a 5hr daily trek to and from, which has taken its toll this week. But does give me good breathing space for next 5/6 weeks and fairly confident there.

Am 25 days away from one of my biggest changes for the past 25 years and thats getting away from living in London full time. Will still be pretty much in the thick of it with friends and work but out every evening and weekend. A little daunting as don't know anyone in new town.

Met up with old pal during week, I came to london with him 25 years back, he lasted a year and now fairly big on the Liverpool music scene but also looking back I've seen and achieved alot, just stupidly sp.unking money/assets. But hai, im not sure whether I would of changed anything??

I've also learned that gulls and pigeons f***k off at dusk, so that the best time to feed the ducks/ swans and geese.... I'm still learning....

Cold out and will get back to you all.....

In reference to your urges and logic, I saw this the other day and it ticked me.

"Logic helps you solve the rubiks cube. Wisdom tells you to put the toy down and move on to more important s**t"

Good to have you back.

Hmmmm...who is over analysing here? Telling me to look @ life on simple terms.....maybe start getting it all out in the open yourself?...stop talking in riddles? (Even if they mk me laugh lol)

Thanks for your thoughts and well done on new job opportunity! Great going you mr V!!!!

For now....let's stop talking in codes shall we? Get all outta your mind cause that's the only way forward instead of burying your head & feelings in the sand

https://youtu.be/oXICJ7PCc9E

Ps..me is drunk lol

Hi Paul , just a quick thank you for your post earlier and all the support youv'e given me my friend , however I felt selfish Pr.ik was a bit harsh ? all I # # # # out was supposed to say selfish Alan ! but now i know what you really think ??? LOL !!.

Anyway , great to see you back again ,( about time ) the place had gone down a notch without all the in depth analysis !

Have a good evening Bud and will catch up soon !

Hi Paul , just a quick thank you for your post earlier and all the support youv'e given me my friend , however I felt selfish Pr.ik was a bit harsh ? all I # # # # out was supposed to say selfish Alan ! but now i know what you really think ??? LOL !!.

Anyway , great to see you back again ,( about time ) the place had gone down a notch without all the in depth analysis !

Have a good evening Bud and will catch up soon !

Hi Paul

Thanks for dropping by. Also missed you're posts but you do right to focus on real life matters.

Good that the job's manageable. I'd be up for meeting for a drink after work or whatever. Will pass on my deets.

Take care

Louis

Hey thanks for the lovely post V, all work in progress my friend, hope your job is going ok

Suzanne xxxx

Morning Paul and yeah it seems that way at times I suppose but when people cover your diary page in c. r.a.P , then you feel the need to clean it up and ask why ? I just don't take kindly to someone trying to spoil my day when there really wasn't any need ! Have a good day fella !

Hi Paul,

Good to see you around.That commute sounds brutal, but a jobs a job right? Will it get better after your move? Try not to be daunted by the new town...what's the worst that can happen?

Got a question for you about birds, seeing as you're fast becoming the ornothological expert on here. How the hell can they manage to c.rap on my windows? I can understand it landing on the window sills, but the glass? Are they flying with their bums twisted at an angle? Oh yeah, deep thoughts from me today!

LB x

A few gamcare dramas keeps the cob webs away. I do to be honest, feel a tad guilty by getting involved, but hai Ho, it's not perfection im after, and will no doubt make similar mistakes.

I'm also aware, that what winds me up is behaviour or denial what I can relate to. The ugly side of me, I guess we've all got that other side, so recognising it in others is both quite scary but on the other hand, progress.....

Back to thinking about Recovery Vs Recovered and somebody recently has mentioned ex smokers and guessing it can also relate to gamblers in recovery. My point is, as a smoker, ex smokers grate me as they have no tolerance regarding people who still partake in the dirty habit and I guess ex gamblers can also possibly get on the high horse and forget about there past... I know I can and do, so guessing again I will need a reminder to keep me on a even keel and humble....

Random thoughts as I take refuge in my little yellow hut.. Yellow cabin fever...

Hey Paul , just picked up on your last post ref ex smokers , I mentioned smoking in comparison to gambling on one of my posts and how I didn't think there was much to choose between giving up one or the other , so as the brown stuffs fling around my area these days I'm quite happy to take that one on the chin as well if you want ?.

I might just add that I've never had a problem with people smoking around me although I gave up twenty odd years ago it really doesn't bother me and I actually still like the smell , a bit like gambling really , I can still watch horse racing on the telly but have no wish or desire to go there again , the only thing I've never liked is people smoking nearby when I'm eating but thats it !.

5 hour commute...Oh my days 🙁 That's mental! Here's me crying about 3ish - bloody big baby that I am :-0 For the record, I'm back in the sack with my pants over my jamas (Superman styley) & there's not a dance move in sight 😉 We have to be selfish in our recovery...It's not like it's come to us! I sat on the fence ooo for about 2 minutes before I stuck my head up in the storm...I needed to! We can feel guilty & apologise until we're blue in the face for all the bad stuff we do but we can't please all of the people all of the time so let's just keep working on ourselves!

I did wonder why you were paying London rent with a roof in Kent?!? Good skills taking the leap 🙂 My best friends don't live anywhere near me...That's the testament of true friendship, your important ones will survive!

Something has tickled me all day...

" your a depressant know it all, with out the know " I wouldn't agree with the delipadating illness of depression but would agree with the last part.

Hai Ho, it was half wrong, which means the other half was right ( Suzanne motto )

A random question - when is the not so distant future?