Dormant

Evening...haven't been around to post today and wanted to reply to your morning post to me but have now been sidetracked (can't quite shake the mental image of an elderly gent rummaging around in Kelly's lady bits)....

I live in Kent...it's not all bad! There's crown green bowling, bridge, allotments...all sorts of exciting stuff. I've even heard tales of wife swapping parties but have never managed to get an invite.

Depending on which part you're moving to London's only a short train ride away...and you'll still have work and all your friends. I happen to think that London can be a very lonely place.

You're right to wonder to what you will escape to if you get lonely. The mere fact that you're thinking about that shows a great awareness which will stand you in good sted. But the loneliness is only an if at the moment...what if you don't get lonely? What if this is exactly the right move for you right now?

Should I be worried when I close my eyes tonight...seems like the grim reaper inhabits these parts

Hey...

Moving huh...it is stressful for sure..i moved round the corner from my old house (litterally 500ft away) and had a hell of my life!...hope you will manage smooth transition..and as many already said - the change might just be for the better. Friends will be friends if they're real. Sesuo lives 100 miles away from me...f**k...mileage is not the block for us if needed...steel & concrete goes together huh...pure truth.

As of the swimming...i have an idea..we kinda hook together (arm round the shoulder) and whola!!!! We can get into Olympics in no time!!!! (I can only doggy paddle so just bear with me..but as long as moving forwards that counts huh)

Look after yourself and have a good day at work. Hope no weekend work as some of us has to deal with those :-P)

Thank's Paul , just something that needed to be said I think , the sun never goes down in gamcare land but it does occasionally disappear behind a cloud ?

Chris.t where's this all coming from ?

Take care Buddy !

Lol...Al..

My last post was a nothing post, iv'e moved 5 times since my ' rock bottom ' and probably 30 times in my lifetime. Here's a forum full of people losing there homes/ money/ relationships/ will to live and heres me harping on about moving... oh well.

I wrote it as I was sat in my local, a pub full of a mixrd range of professions but for a few pints, everyone is equal and thats how I picture GA. Maybe be proved wrong but hai Ho. So felt a little sad as I said a silent good bye. End of era, a new chapter

A glorious sun. A Battersea park art show on agenda, washed down with some amber...

Its all Good apart from what's Bad

All sounds good to me Bud , so enjoy ..................................

Random alert.

I wondered whether it was about energy.
I wondered whether it was about the perfect circle.
Now I'm wondering whether it's about timing?..The 4th dimension

Random alert....

I Get It.. .

Its my ball, it's my game. So you can't play.. So there.....

A budding addict or an active addict?

Morning paul.

'For there is in London all life can afford' a conversation between two fellas in 1777!

One I guess today holds a simple truth my friend, that conversation was held by Samuel johnson with the fact in mind that he loathed to spend time alone and could day and night find something to engage himself with in the smoke.

For me it was the polar opposite in the years I spent cooking in London, I spent a great deal of time longing to escape.

So it's the garden of England for you fella, a place that leads my brain straight to the darling buds of may,lol now that's a life I would love!

As for swimming, fella I would love to be able to, unfortunately I am a stone! Lol

My dear friend give it a go, until we try we will simply never know.

I am sure that there's plenty of benches we could share in Kent, rumour has it that the ale is pretty decent!

Look after you. Enjoy it.

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Samuel Johnson didnt have the tube to contest with, so now i get where he was coming from Duncs.

Shoot,

I so wanted a footie bet on Saturday. I didn't!
I so wanted a game of poker on Sunday. I didn't !
I'm so tempted for the festival. I won't.

A nothing weekend, with the humpy Monday blues.... Roll on rainbow Tuesday when all our dreams come true..

Hey V, sending you a cyber cuddle to cheer you up,(((((PAUL))))

Things come to those who wait, and keep abstaining and maintaining , Positivity and ofcourse Patience is a good key.:)))

That stuff you wanted to do is as you know the addiction calling :((( well done you on saying a big fat NO.

Keep strong and keep safe.

Suzanne xxx

Keep strong V you have absolutely nothing to gain from having a bet. A pointless exercise as you well know.

I hope it's just. Passing thought but keep active on her no better way to dispel those urges.

KTF

Not wanting to add to the Monday blues but I'm curious (who said nosey?!) ....you wanted to gamble. I'm wondering why? No need to answer, just seeing if you know your triggers.

Oh, thought I'd let you know...f*****g bird poo-ed on my car today. Think they've got some kind of grudge against me x

Thanks S, M &LB, Your support is both appreciated and nice

Regret Nuffin! That's what I'm aiming for.

I've missed the last 4 therapy sessions, 2 I've had to cancel and 2 from there end and now I've just cancelled the rest of March. This is part of the reason why I've lost my focus of late.

It's unfortunate as now lost a bit of momentum. I did cover and process quite a bit and was somewhat proud of myself, yet danced around a particular guilt I've been carrying for too long.

Processing the past which I've done upto date has gone well and I understood that ' my little secret ' wasn't neither my secret or shame and belonged to some one else. Conclusion - Not my problem...

I've been good for near on 3 months with no gambling but also good on some lifestyle changes and the latter is where I'm slipping up a bit, so possibly that's why the triggers of a want to gamble and switch off has arisen from. Identifying that is progress none the less.

I'm still, albeit slightly stepping out of my comfort zone on a frequent basis. Have had a few run ins with either this job or general and handled fairly well with no pent up explosions too note.. So more progress...

Still on the road to 'Regret Nuffin'

Sooo very tempted for gold cup. Even joining in with the banter and picking out the ' winner '. The hungry gambling ghost salivating at his small lips and will feed it choccy biscuits rather than a punt..... Its a bit.ch, when I think that I've burnt the bridge, but hai Ho, i need to remind myself that im a shi.te mug gambler who doesnt know how to stop.. .

A few memories to boot coming back to me today..... RIP Dessie

Keep perservering V. If your struggling get some help. Ring Gamcare, GA, Samaritans, Anyone!