Dormant

How do V,

I'm sorry for the moody post the other day. I was just a bit frustrated with the forum. I should not have taken it out on you I know your struggling and it wasn't called for.

I sometimes get that way when I see nothing changing, I took my self away for a few days to recharge the Gamcare batteries, fully charged again now.

That being said it does get to me when I see people who I consider to friend (even if you are Leeds fan) struggling. I just felt you was giving up a bit without exploring all the options That might be harsh you have been doing a lot of soul searching and showing your frustration when you did have the bet so I know you still wanted to stop, I think you was starting to become resigned to it. And that's not the V I know

As I'm sure you know the commission was tongue in cheek and Tri made a good point in the attraction rather than promotion of GA it would be pointless you going if you did not want to, you would only find reasons why it won't work and that would be detrimental to you and any group you attended.

So what's the plan for the weekend are you going for another last hoorah or going to find something to keep you occupied come 3 o'clock Saturday

KTF - MOT

Hi Paul

Been thinking of you recently and wondering how you are. Miss your presence and contributions. Hope you are well.

Rob

Hiya!

V - i have a quiz for you since ya like those brainers :-P...was shown this one at work ( kind of excercise if ya like lol & it is still on the board for others to rack their brains :-D)....took me 5 mins to work out (not if I'm bragging)...let me know what ya think ☺

1 20 20 9 20 21 4 5 = 100%

Ps..hope all is kool down in Kent! My possible relocation & job destination ☺..haha...no need to run, i don't bite!

Stay safe and update us on your journey

Tigger

Hello volcano

Been a while since your last post and you had plenty going on.

I have also been wondering - how's things?

What you upto Paul? It's been 3 weeks since we heard from you. If you doing good lets us know if not you know the support is here when your ready.

KTF

All's ok in this world good people. Hence a humble thankyou.

A weekly weekend walk of the thin line. I know, i know this will lead to carnage, so slowly letting my own advice seep in to the grey matter.....

I've only got my best and thats ok with me as i hold hands with external 3d help....

Hi, V,

Glad to hear from you but it's such a cryptic post that I'm none the wiser. (I can't do cryptic crosswords although Himself can). You're gf but want to gamble and meetings/friends are helping you not gamble?

Anyway, I understood that you're ok so that's good.

As I said to Rose, stay dry and keep your hair long.

BW,

CW

Cheers for touching base don't be a stranger

Thanks for the update and good to hear from you.

Not sure I fully understood the last post.

Glad it's not just me.

Going to take it as a good sign.

Have a good weekend and make the right choices.

Best wishes

Glint

I guess you just don't want to tell me the answer ☺..i shall tell you - ATTITUDE = 100%

good to see you safe (?) ..I'm a lil confused too about you talking about thin line :-/...but as we know, our V likes to give us some food for thought and opportunity to rack our brains ☺

Whatever you do -stay safe!!

Hey Paul

Thanks for your post. Glad to see your still about was a bit concerned as silence isn't always a good sign with a gambler

Yeah guess things gona get manic for foreseeable but be nice to catch up when we get a chance.

Hope things settling down in Kent. Change can be tough - I'd like to think I'm a pretty easy going, adaptable chap but, nah, deep down change scares sheite out a me.

Tk

Louis

Thanks for your support. You're a good man, and it's nice to know that you cared enough to post.

Emotions are calming down and I'm feeling slightly less punch drunk right now. You're right, I have made progress and it's important that I don't lose sight of that when I fall over. Just gotta keep getting back up.

I hope you're ok. I often think about you. A cuckoo has taken up residence in a nearby tree and that together with the cockeral that some nearby good lifers have bought are waking me up on a frequent basis. So when I find myself thinking "f*****g birds" you pop into my mind!!

Thanks for popping in and giving me something to laugh at. I don't think I've ever seen anything quite so weird!!

I hope you're doing ok. I'll do my best to honour that cyber pact. LB x

volcano wrote:

All's ok in this world good people. Hence a humble thankyou.

A weekly weekend walk of the thin line. I know, i know this will lead to carnage, so slowly letting my own advice seep in to the grey matter.....

I've only got my best and thats ok with me as i hold hands with external 3d help....

Reading on others posts your doing well. Keep doing the basics right. Tri x

I enjoyed that link Julie, the red arrows beung a part of my history as a RAF brat. and my folks living near where there based. Thanks. Tri & LB, 2 stars shining brightly.

Update. I'm still going over the threshold of therapy, but momentum lost and struggling to take anything out of it. Time to move away. Went to GA 4 weeks this coming Monday, was a very warming welcome i recieved as i approached, with someone seeing me walk to the door and reaching out to me. Never talked just listened. Missed the next one as i spent the day recklessly gambling and felt too sorry for my self. Went to the one after and left at the interval. Missed last Monday........Somethings missing and im not sure what?

At present, 18 days GF, yet the last day of gambling not implanted in my mind. There doesnt appear to any more pain of gambling just a calm numbness, with a defeatist, so be it. I'm tired, i'm resenting recovery to be truthful. I'm back in the shadows, avoiding friends.

5/7/10, the day i first, after a thousand attempts to give up, i entered recovery. Never thought i would ever forget the pain and empty, weak and low i felt. Went gung ho, 18 months abstinence, thought i was the dogs bol.lox. I forgot the pain!! Years previous, i had my hand stiched in my stomach, would scream in pain in any slight movement. Never thought i would ever forget that pain. I forgot the pain!!

Pain doesnt last, memorys fade! Is it more pain i need to find recovery? I dont know! I have a strnge calmness, im not happy and yet, not depressed. I'm lonely, yet not lonely for people to be around. I'm struggling where i live, i see it as a posting and based in a cave.....As i await my next posting and the not knowing where i lay my hat next time...........................

A confusing post from a confused head..............My moral is, its all ok apart whats not in my world