Easy does it!

Thanks GT

I have never felt so far away from gambling since before I knew what it was. This could be a bit daunting as I like to know where it is. Maybe not feeling too good as knocked me off my stride. Who knows! Starting to feel a little better this afternoon. Thinking of times when I was withdrawing cash on my CC to gamble and now nearly paid it all back. I would not dream of racking up more debts in that way or any to be frank. Sense of money has come back to me. Seems like it was another person that did that. I feel totally different from when i first arrived here beaten and frustrated with everyone on here that was doing so well. i thought they can't be real gamblers as they don't know what I'm going through. However I stuck with it and here I am looking back and realising my thought patterns have changed, I am positive about the future today.

If you are new here just give yourself a chance. Gambling will wait forever for you so don't rush. Above all be kind to yourself and take care.

Glad to hear your starting to feel a bit better and that gambling is far away over the horizon. You know yourself how well you are doing.

Thanks for your support. My feeling of wanting to have a good cry has passed which is a shame really.. cos crying is nature's way of healing. In reality am not much different from most fella's.. crying is a rare event that usually only happens when at rock bottom.

Anyways take care... S.A 🙂

thanks for popping in Smiler and supportive as ever ..am still ok..just riding the waves ..mainly have good days now but occasionally have a slump...get bent of of shape but never broken ...take care Rach and Dotty x

Had a couple of people let me down today and my first thoughts were go to the bookies and show them. Now if anyone can make any sense out of that thinking I take my hat off to them. People letting me down and me going to bookies just does not correlate or does it. I have to stand back and think hang on these people have let you down so deal with them don't run and hide. So I did and problem is solved. Paid a stack of money off my CC this morning too so looking good. Still got a cold so not helping matters. Without gambling I have a fighting chance to be on an even par with everyone else. Take care

hiya Smiler...emotions like disappointment and anger makes us all think illogical things especially if we are sensitive and take it personally...i'm the worst for it....least you see the pattern there...you made the right choice,faced it and dealt with it...good move Smiler...btw you are on an even par with everyone .. even more so as you are walking the walk odaat..take care ...

One of my friends on FB have just posted a picture of a significant win on a scratchcard. I wished them all the best as you would do. Just like to know how much they spent on winning that amount. And yes at first I was jealous but it passes by in a flash once I realise my limitations as a CG. Another day down and feeling betterthan this morning. Take care

I have a friend who won 100k on the pools about 16 years ago. He invested most of it in stocks and shares, and got massively hit by the market a year or two later, and lost a lot of his money.

Hmmm, there was a point to this story, but I've temporarily lost it.

hi Smiler...your FB pal may have had a win but will they get a valentine poem from a cyberfriend.??..methinks not!...

Roses are red

Violets are blue

Dotty and Rach

Sending cyber hugs to you..........

Keep strong ..........((())) ....

Thanks Dotty

I'm still feeling under the weather but happier in myself for some reason. Moving on in recovery hopefully. I no longer sit and think "Don't gamble, i must not gamble". Just by living my life I am not gambling. Recovery takes time and it isn't permanant it is just work in progress. My early days of recovery were torment and I could not see a way out but by logging onto this forum every day I have made enough progress to feel comfortable with not gambling. Take care

Smiler

Thank you for taking the time to post on my thread. I will digest it , once again you have given me food for thought.

As for seeing me at work, I obviously was a size 8 , utterly stunning , and very funny. Lol

Hopeyou are feeling better, and plans are a foot for you well deserved break

Dustys double

Viewing this recovery as a "work in progress" is so true for many of us on here.

Glad to hear that you are feeling better, this warmer weather will no doubt be helping.

Enjoy your day.

GT

HIya Smiler..thanks again for popping in..I know when I start with this ex stuff its like im a stuck record..I enjoy reading your posts to others and take a lot of identification from what you say there too...

I have thought about counselling and at various points in my life have been..this is why im in CODA and going on this retreat as like I was staying to DF..I want to finally get to the bottom as to why certain people think its OK to treat me badly when they don't do it to others...I do take it personally as it is selective...so I want to know why and also how to stop it so I do not attract it in...I suppose I want people to take one look at me and think "im not even gonna a try it".(meaning ...take the ***)..As we know in the army fear is what breeds respect..as a woman I have no idea how to replicate that unless I start body building and turn into a prize fighter. I have actually considered boxing.

All my life I have felt unprotected and vulnerable over this stuff and my only protection is isolation which is no good in an intimate relationship..Im much better with folk when there is social etiquette to protect me or some hierarchy like in work.Thanks Smiler...I will be ok but just wish these little flare ups would go away...Valentines not helping as a reminder of more time wasted...x

Hiya Smiler,

Hope your are feeling better today.

Hugs Del xo

Not long in from work. Had a spare hour today and was thinking about gambling. Strange as I knew I wouldn't but it was a surreal experience. Maybe I'm a little stronger now and can handle these feelings. Maybe it was an old habit that kicked in. I would have had to have travelled some 20 miles to gamble as I am excluded from all local bookies. Self exclusion is a must if you are serious about getting some good recovery into your lives. Take care

Hi Smiler.....you may have thought about it but you didn't act on it and that makes all the difference....I think your right about being able to handle those feelings and you are a great example of someone who is walking your talk..keep strong.....Rach and Dotty x