Easy does it!

Hello Smiler

Popping by saying hi. Completely identify with your surreal hour and come to think of it most things I read..

Lots of years of practice with gambling at the fore front of minds, its a challenge that you my bud is winning hands down and duly putting the gambling gargoyle firmly in the waste disposal of our mind..

A lal ramble there but as always wishing you well.... Strength... exmug

Lost my way in last few weeks working and no time for anyone else. Today I stopped earlier came home and started cooking dinner as wife and little one are not in till 6.30 after swimming club. This is what my life is about getting a balance. Hard to do with compulsive nature but i'm learning slowly. What a life we lead just can't get it right, It won't stop me trying though.

Take care

Hi

One small step for man a giant step for smiler lol

Well done you, Jamie Oliver eat your heart out.

Take care

Dusty

Don't get too carried away it's Aunt Bessy at her best. It's all I could grab quickly once I decided to wrap up early. My wife hinted this morning and it took me all day to work out. I'm learning!

Work in progress

Take care

There's nothing wrong with engrossing yourself into a new project is there?

And one that will eventually be cost-effective (and tasty to boot!)

GT

I am in a good space right now with my life. It is about time as I have been at this recovery for many a year. Not saying it takes years to get it, it just takes me years to get it! I still live my life one day at a time and don't take anything for granted. I am given but one day at a time to live my life and I do the bet I can with the tools I have. I am by no means perfect but I strive to do my best. With Spring on the way I am, for the first time in my life, beginning to enjoy my life and seeing a brighter future. If you are new to recovery through whatever addiction please keep at it and don't wait as long as me to get it. You don't need to prolong the misery like I did. Life is wonderful without adiction hanging over you. Please take care!

Smiler,

So happy for you! Thank you for your last post. It was just what I needed to hear today.

Keep up the posting please, us newbies need it!

Good morning,

Just read what you wrote on Sharon's thread. Made so much sense .

You seem to be in a really good place at the moment, I know this has not come easy and I commend you for your determination not to gamble but the effort you continue to make to stay in recovery.

As I see your journey unfold it gives me hope that I to can sustain a gamble free existence.

Hats off to you.

Have a great relaxing weekend

Dusty

your doing fab Smiler and in a good place ....does'nt matter how long it takes to get it so long as it stays odaat ....take care....

Not thought about gambling, not gambling or recovery today. Just got on with life on life's terms. Bit tired today but will read through as many posts as I can as I feel I need this as my medicine.

Take care

Hi smiler

Glad ur doin ok like u reading up on posts for some inspiration as been a tough day but got through it been using ur method one day at a time well done on ur achievements makes me determined to go on and beat this keep up the good work

Castle2

Morning,

Let's us not forget a little bit of sugar helps the medicine go down. Here's to holding your sugar was a well earned rest.

Dusty

Anger has reared it's ugly head yet again. It is buried deep within and i know what kicks it off. I'll have to just ride the storm until it subsides. I am definately getting better as I would normally run to gambling before. Now I am in strange space but going through the motions. It is difficult for me and I keep everything in but need to move forward. Thanks

know that anger feeling well Smiler....heard on radio this morning about folk in Tel Aviv having regular street pillow fights....maybe one to bring over here?

Keep posting ..the good the bad the ugly...

I know you have mentioned before about being too open on here and that you became more selective in what you say. I don't want to pry as that is your business but I hope that has not restricted your recovery. As you know from my diary I am always not keeping things in but trust folk are not taking what i say personally as I love everyone on here! ....just wanted to say you are welcome to rant away on my diary if you like....bring your pillow. ..like your name I am smiling...don't keep it in Smiler....you are allowed to express how you feel...Don't compare to people worse off than you...You are important..Your feelings matter..YOU Matter......take what you like...

its unconditional xx

Hi,

I think you are doing a good job....I kind of lost track after 18 months of recovery...I was desperately in search of a different kind or form of compulsivness...It led me straight back to gambling and near nervous breakdown....The key for me is explore everything you have to.... learn every lesson you have to in life...Because life is a test...If you try hard enough you will pass every single one of those tests...Maybe one day you will be judged....In the meantime if you fail at something NEVER use gambling as the safe house that you can fall back on.... I recently realised something, I could never have done what I have in the past two years, without "complete abstinence" from gambling...So, even though I feel I let myself down and caused a lot of grief for my family....I was alive and livimg...I could do anything I wanted to....I did, and realised that I never really wanted to do anything except not lose.....Sadly, I lost and lost....Thats when the gambling embedded its way back in..... I think an ex gambler does not like spending or giving...Although on the other hand, WE DO??? Its not until after WE reflect and become angry at our actions.....we finally realise what we've done.. ALL we have to do is reverse these thought processes....

Just a thought...

Tnx for recent post...

Easy.